Lost in the Snow of My Own Heart?

Chapter 1: Pasta or Pizza? (Note: I don't own Hetalia or Nyotalia)

It's cold. Everything feels so…cold. Freezing to the touch, even too human's skin. My heart doesn't beat anymore and it feels like it's hard as stone. It isn't warm anymore, my blood isn't even warm anymore and everything is just…cold.

I don't exactly remember what happened to me, but it seems that I have new memories replacing the old ones. They're not mine. No. Not at all. They're somebody else's and I don't exactly know who it is. All I know is….that I may never see this world again with my own eyes.

-Two Months Before-

P.O.V Italia

The water was warm on my skin as I sat in the bathtub with bubbles up to my elbows. My light auburn hair was up in a messy bun as my curl just poked out on the left side of my head like it always had, the sun light from the thin, white curtain covered window next to me shined in the medium size room, bringing an orange, yellowish gold glow upon the plane white walls and tiled floor. How I wished there was some kind of color in this bath room, besides the blue towels, circle rugs in front of the white sink, dark brown door, tub, and the small picture of a beach landscape on the wall left of the window. Otherwise, it seemed to let you relax and not be overwhelmed at the same time with less color.

I hummed as I sat in the bathtub, the early morning being bright and cheerful. A knock came to my door and I stopped humming as I quickly looked at it. "Daisy." It was my brother, Romano, "I'm going into town, do you need anything?" he asked me, yelling from the other side of the door.

"..Um… Oh! Could you get me another pack of Ribbons? The darker colored ones this time?" I asked him.

"Sure! Hey, you'll be ok staying here?" he asked.

"Yes brother, I'll be fine!" I answered.

"Alright… Ti amo…" I heard him say as the sound of his footsteps faded away down the hall.

"Ti amo!" I replied quickly as I could, smiling.

I heard the front door shut down stairs and turned my head to face the glowing window. The sun was rising as the colors were fading and becoming just regular light. Humming again, I sank into the bubbles and still warm water to enjoy the rest of the morning and quiet house.

Thirty minutes had passed when I suddenly heard the doorbell ring. 'Could that be Romano?' I wondered as I quickly got out of the tub, soaking wet, wrapping a large, blue towel around my body tightly and then rushing down stairs. There was no time to put clothes on as I heard it ring again. 'I'll just peek through the door then…' I thought as I walked up to the door.

Keeping the chain in place and only opening it to where the person could see part of my face, I peeked through it and see who it was. I saw a man with warm red eyes, snow white hair, pale skin and a grin standing at my door. It was Gilbert, Ludwig's older brother, "Vat up Daisy?! The awesome me is here!" he shouted, his German accent thick.

"Hello… uhh…" I didn't want to keep him waiting outside in the winter cold, but I wasn't properly dressed either, coming up with an idea I opened my mouth to speak, "Come in. I'll be right with you in a few minutes." I say as I unhook the chain, close the door slightly and run up stairs as quickly as I can into my room.

I closed the door as I searched my closet for clothes to wear. Finding a white set of under garments, I put them on first and then go back to my closet. I had worn most of my winter clothes already, including pants and any shorts, so I was left with dresses. 'Either most of my pants are in the laundry room down stairs or dirty, why now?!' I panicked in my mind as I pull a green dress out.

"Hey Italia! You up there?" I heard him yell from down stairs, "Yes! Please wait a few minutes!" I replied to him.

I slipped the dress on from over my head, careful of the curl, and tried my best to zip it up. All of my dresses zipped up or buttoned up in the back. I don't know how in the world this happens, but every dress I seem to buy has this and never on the front or on the side. My face turned scarlet red as I could see it in the mirror in front of me. I may have to ask Gilbert for help, but he is a guest here and that would be embarrassing. I mean, he would just be helping me zip up my dress… As long as my brother isn't here to see, there is nothing to worry about.

I shyly walked out of my room and down the hall, stopping at the corner before the stairs, looking down them and seeing him waiting for me at the bottom. He sees me and the dress slipping over my shoulder as I pull it back up. He shakes his head and signals for me to come down stairs. My face is still red as I walk down and then turn around for him to zip it up for me.

His fingers slightly and gently brush my back as he zips it up, it made me shiver as I stood there. I turn back around, "Thank you Gilbert." I said.

"Nothing the awesome me can't handle." He said grinning again.

I walked to the kitchen as he followed. "Are you hungry?" I asked him cheerfully as I skipped to the fridge.

"Yes, starving! I was hoping maybe you could cook me some of your pasta." He said as he sat at the island on one of the stools.

The kitchen was bigger than the bathroom times four, me and Romano liked to have space to cook and make all kinds of Italian food. After all, we both are full blooded Italians.

"I have some from last night. Would that be fine?" I asked taking a container out with pasta inside.

"Yeah!" he replied excited.

I gave him the container full of last night's pasta and a fork. He ate happily as I took a slice of cold Pizza from the fridge and ate that for breakfast. Me and Romano cook and when we do there is left overs for an entire week. You could say we don't go hungry. Today he went to get more of the ingredients for some of the foods we cook and also the ribbons I asked for earlier.

Prussia was all done as he smiled at me with sauce all around his mouth. "I can say that was awesome, but not as awesome as me." He said.

I giggled as I took the container and fork to the sink, then taking a paper towel, wetting it and walked back over to Gilbert. "You have sauce on your face." I say as he blinks.

"Where?!" he panicked a little, a slight blush appeared on his face while I take the paper towel to his face.

It only made me giggle more from him panicking over some sauce around his mouth. "Here." I replied. Once I was done, I threw it away as he just grinned.

"I still look awesome, ja?" he asked me.

"Si!" I replied.

"So what now?" he asked.

"Hmm… How about a movie!" I said clapping my hands together and smiling.

"Ja! Where is your living room at?" he asked.

I walked pass the stairs and across to the living room. He followed behind me to the shelf full of DVD's, the big flat screen TV was between the two tall speakers in the middle next to the book shelf. There were four more small speakers in the corners of the room also, movie night was always the best when we used them.

"What do you want to watch?" I asked him.

He grabbed one movie from the shelf, "This one." He replied with a grin as I looked at him.

I looked at the cover. "That's a scary one, my brother wouldn't allow it." I said.

"Who has too know? He isn't here and you won't have to worry, I'm right here." He smiled at me.

"Well…. I guess so…" he raised his hands up in the air with the DVD in hand for a victory win of being able to watch a scary movie.

I sat on the dark red couch as I smiled and let him put it in. The TV was simple to use, unlike Alfred's with all the cables and different remotes. I know from going over to his parties every year for Christmas and still don't know what is what, which does what and how everything works. It's crazy! Gilbert jumped onto the couch next to me as he started movie.

The movie wasn't scary at first, it was mainly just the intro to give you some info about the story. I could feel Gilbert place his arm around me as it rested on the back of the couch. It startled me a little, but I relaxed once I realized it was him. A quick flash of an image of a dark long haired girl appeared onto the screen and made me jump as I scooted closer to him. He put his hand on my shoulder and I jumped again, at the same time the woman in the movie saw a girl in the mirror, as she turned around the girl wasn't there and yet still her reflection showed in the mirror.

Gilbert pulled me closer as he saw me become more frightened of the movie. It wasn't long till I was holding him and burying my face into his chest to look away from the jump scares in the movie. Then an odd, familiar feeling flooded my body as I shivered and became frozen still. Looking up, I saw him grinning as his hand was behind my head and touching my curl, his mouth forming a grin and his red eyes filled with pleasure. I try my best to get away, but only make it to the other side of the couch as he is above me and stroking my curl ever so gently. I could feel his hand glide against my skin as it traced up my left leg and his right hand holding my curl.

My heart raced, my breath was heavy and I was frozen in place, becoming paralyzed under him. Gilbert's lips were almost touching mine as he had my dress up and showing my white underwear and other hand holding my head up for him to kiss me. 'Please, somebody save me!' I cried in my head.

The front door opened as Gilbert quickly turned his head to see who it was. Seeing how frightened he was, I could tell it must have been my brother. "WHAT ARE YOU DOING HERE?! GET OUT OF MY HOUSE AND AWAY FROM MY SISTER YOU PERV!" Romano screamed as he pointed a pistol at Gilbert, making him rush through the front door and out to his car.

He put the pistol away when Gilbert was finally gone, slamming the front door shut and then looking at me. "Why was he in this house?! Why did you let him into this house?! Did you know how frightened I was to see him over you, when I walked into this house?!" he shouted at me with anger and worry.

Hearing him shouting at me made water come to my eyes, feeling hurt, scared, happy and sorry all at the same time. I wanted to answer him as I sat up and fixed my dress. Holding myself around my sides, I looked to the floor. "Romano, I didn't know-"

"You didn't know?! Daisy, you know you can't trust him or his brother! You know I would never allow him to be alone with you in a room, without me!" he shouted at me.

"I know brother! It was just nice to have somebody at our home for once! After everybody becoming so busy and then the period of time we were separated from each other…. "I knew I was crying, because I could feel the tears rolling off my face and onto the bare skin of my arms and onto my dress, "I am sorry for wanting a guest for once after so long…. I've been a bit lonely after a while brother…. "I said honestly.

He walked over and sat on the couch with me. His emerald green eyes looked at me with the same worry, anger and concern for me that I've always known. "If you are lonely then tell me… I just don't want you around some of the other people we know…" he rubbed his hands together as he spoke gently to me," I will be willing to invite some of the people we know over that we can trust. How about we have a gathering this weekend? Would you like that?" his face was a little red from saying kind and concerning thing to me.

"Si." I smiled and nodded to answer him.

"Good. We will plan everything later…" he looked behind him at the dropped groceries on the floor, "I have to clean up some stuff first." He said as he stood and walked over to spill grocery.

I stood and went over to help him, whipping the left over tears from my face and then smiling at him. He blushed once more and made a small smile as he shook his head. After being with my brother and so many things that have happened to me, he became more protective over me and a little closer to me each time. Nobody knew why things happen to me and target me, but as I see it, we all gain more to our own history that way.

"Pasta or Pizza?" my brother asked as he placed three bags of groceries onto the island.

"Pizza!" I exclaimed smiling, setting two bags onto the island.

He grabbed a tomato and snacked on it as we got everything out of the bags. Once everything was set, we went to work. Romano worked on the pizza dough as I made the sauce.

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"Hey sis, watch this." He said grinning.

I watched as I put my knife down and he starts spinning the dough into the air. He spins it high into the air, keeping the rhythm. I clap as he spun it, then seeing it land onto his head. Covering my mouth, I tried to control my laughter as he pealed the pizza dough off of his head.

"What so funny?" I hear him mumbled, his face as red as a tomato while he takes the dough off.

"How you epically failed at spinning your own pizza dough." I reply as I helped him.

"Shut up." He snapped back.

I giggle as I see him blushing badly from embarrassment in front of me, then he puts pizza dough on my face and he laughs.

"You have something on your face as well." He pointed out.

Taking the dough off my face, I grin and take some sauce from the pot, smearing it on his face with the pizza dough still left over. "You are now a pizza my dear brother." I say with a smirk and my hands on my hips.

He then puts sauce on my face and laughs at me. "Same for you, sister." Then this whole thing becomes a dramatic food fight as I throw pizza dough dipped in sauce at him and he throws vegetables at me from the other side of the island. He would sometimes grab me round my waist and put dough on my head, then I would hit him with chopped vegetables to escape. It was fun as we both laughed, made of mess of the kitchen and ourselves, then the food fight was over and we had a lot to clean up.

He patted my back as we both stood in front of the kitchen, looking at the entire mess, I looked at him, "Go get cleaned up. I'll take care of the mess." He said.

"I'll help Romano, it will be faster that way." I said.

He looked at me, "Fine…" he rubbed the back of his head as he went to the small closet in the back of the kitchen and grabbed cleaning supplies, and then we started to clean.

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It took at least two hours to get the kitchen completely clean, we had to clean our feet with a rag after the floor was cleaned and then work on the counters.

"Thanks…" my brother said while looking at the clean kitchen.

"I was happy to help." I replied smiling at him.

"Now go get cleaned up, I'll go after you and don't take too long." He said.

"I won't." I replied as I turned around and ran up the stairs to the bathroom. The phone went off and then I heard my brother's voice say hello into it. His voice seemed to cheer up a little and I guessed that his girlfriend, Isabel, was on the other end. Smiling as I gather my things for a bath, I enjoyed hearing my brother talk to the one he loved and hopefully marry one day.

P.O.V Romano

"Yeah, it was pretty fun, but it turned into a giant mess!" I exclaimed to Isabel as I told her about the food fight.

"That sounded like fun! I wish I was there when it happened." She said a bit disappointed.

"You never know, it might happened again." I said.

"Yeah…. Hey Romano, is Daisy ok?" she asked with concern in her voice.

"Si, why do you ask?" I questioned her, she should know that she has been living with me for a few years and is ok.

"Well, she hasn't been going to training for almost a year now. Gilbert brought it up yesterday and that is why I called. His brother is a bit worried about your sister and so is Kiku, since they are friends…" she said.

"Gilbert, you know he visited my sister today, he should have told you what happened." I said remembering and frowning.

"He did? Well I'll ask him for what happened then," she said.

"Alright… So my sister hasn't been going to training?" I questioned, seeing this not normal for Daisy and why on earth she would miss a day of training.

/I realized there was a mistake in this chapter. Note: They are Human and I get the names mixed with country names, please tell me when this happens and I put, for example, "Japan" instead of "Kiku", "Allies" instead of "friends" (They work different jobs, but mainly for the country) for this fanfiction. Thank you. _/