I own nothing. This story starts when Jax leaves Brenda and she ends up in front of Jason's penthouse. I've changed some things, like where Carly ends up. I hope you like it and please review.

Ending up where you started

You always end up where you started and for Brenda that was exactly what happened. After wondering around Port Charles she ended up back at the Port Charles Hotel, in the room of her almost wedding to Jasper Jax. She had taken her time walking down the aisle for the second time before dropping down on the steps and crying. She wasn't crying because she missed him and wanted him, or because she loved him but because she hated him and never wanted to see him again, and because he had said very hurtful things to her and he had killed everything they had ever shared together. He had broken her and he would always do so. Maybe that's why she could never chose between Jax and Sonny; she needed them both to be happy, she needed them to balance the other, she needed them both to fine the perfect guy for her. Separately they could never totally work for or with her but together they would have been great. Unfortunately that was too much to ask, to have them both, kinda like having your cake AND eating it too, she wasn't that selfish. She didn't even get to finish wiping the tears on her face before a fresh wave of new once started and there in the dark room, she cried.

Jason walked out of the elevator when he heard yelled come from Sonny apartment. Heading towards the sound he didn't bother to knock, he just walked right in. The yelling stopped when he entered and he was surprised to find Sonny and Courtney yelling at each other, not Sonny and Carly.

"Jason." Courtney breathed out when she saw him but he didn't say anything to her.

"Where's Carly?" He asked his boss.

"I haven't found her." Sonny told his right hand man, who was giving him a cold look.

"Too busy with Brenda to find her? She could be dead Sonny. You remember what happened last time she found you cheating on her." Jason reminding Sonny of Carly 'death'.

"I'm not with Brenda Jason. I love my wife." Sonny yelled at him but Jason didn't move.

"Then maybe you should find her." Jason suggested.

"Why, so that you can be with Courtney alone?" Sonny accused Jason.

"No, so that nothing happens to Carly." Jason told him and Sonny felt guilty that he had suggested that Jason wasn't totally worried about his best friends safety and nothing else.

"I'm sorry." Sonny said before grabbing his jacket from the desk chair.

"You're right, I'm going to go find her." Sonny told him. "Brenda said that I should check the places Carly likes best." Sonny added, talking to no one but himself.

"What, when did you see Brenda?" Jason asked, unable to believe that Sonny was with Brenda while Carly was missing.

"You don't know?" Sonny asked Jason, figuring that Jason above everyone would know.

"Know what?" Jason asked, letting his curiosity get the better of him.

"Brenda was here before, she was waiting for you, sitting outside your penthouse." Sonny proceeded to tell Jason and Jason looked ready to kill him if he didn't get to the point of the story.

"Is she alright?" Jason couldn't help but asked, the worry for Brenda clear in his voice.

"Jax left her at the alter. He said no." Sonny told Jason and Jason was heading towards the door before Sonny could blink.

"Where are you going?" Courtney called out and Sonny wanted to know as well.

"I need to find Brenda, she needs me." Jason said before the door closed behind him.

His motorcycle didn't go fast enough and with every dead end he needed it to go a little fasted. So far he's checked everywhere he thought she'd be and still nothing. The next place on his need to check list was Kelly's. Parking the black bike he slipped the keys into his pocket before heading into Kelly's. Brenda was nowhere in sight and he really wanted to scream. He was about to go when the door opened and both Courtney and Sonny walked in. Courtney look as if she might run to him to take his order but Elizabeth better her to it.

"What can I get you?" She asked before looking up to see whom she was serving. Taking a step back she was going to leave but his hand shot out to grab her arm.

"Wait, I need to talk to you. Have you seen Brenda?" He asked the young brunette and she shook her head.

"No, but I heard about the wedding." She said regretfully, offering his a sad smile. He tried giving her a small half smile back but he couldn't really.

"Thanks." He told her before letting go of her hand.

"Is there anything I can get you?" She asked him again, this time knowing who he was.

"No, I have to go find her. If she stops back tell her to call me. Please." He asked Liz and she nodded. Turning he headed to the door but before he could open it, it swung open and in walked Jax. Jason stood in front of the blond man with a cold stare; ready to hit him for hurting Brenda but holding himself back.

"Damn it's cold out, Jax." A female voice said from behind Jax and that was when Jason noticed Skye.

"You asshole." Jason growled at the other man before punching him in the face. Jax stumbled back a few feet and Skye was at his side.

"What are you doing?" She yelled at him. He ignored her and took a step towards Jax.

"I can't believe you, you left Brenda a the alter not even two hours ago and you're already with someone else? You don't deserve her." Jason told him as the rest of the people watched.

"Well the little slut couldn't keep her hands off of Sonny." Jax said and Jason was ready to hit him again and would have if Liz weren't holding him back.

"Don't do it Jason." She told him, once again saving him.

"Go, go find her, she probably need you." Liz added and she watched Jason walk towards the door.

"If you come anywhere near Brenda again I'll kill you." Jason told Jax before leaving.

Brenda looked up from her spot on the steps when the door creaked opened and she could see the shadow of another person. 

"Hello?" She called out, she really wanted to be left alone but the person started down towards her.

"Carly?" Brenda asked confused at why the woman was here.

"Hey." Came the almost friendly greeting as Carly dropped into a chair in the front row facing Brenda.

"I heard about Jax, about the wedding. I'm sorry." Carly started and Brenda just watched her.

"But maybe it was for the best, now you and Sonny can be together." Carly added and Brenda pinpointed the tone of Carly's voice, Carly was giving up and that scared Brenda. Carly never gave up on something she wanted.

"Carly what are you talking about." Brenda asked, knowing that Carly had seen her and Sonny on the docks.

"I'm tired of competing with every other woman that has ever been in Sonny's life. Obviously he doesn't love me, not like he loves you. You were right, you were here first and you'll always be best to him so you two should be together." Carly told her, giving up one of the best thing that had ever happened to her, Sonny.

"Where is this coming from?" Brenda asked her.

"I saw the two of you kissing on the docks." Carly told her and Brenda laughed out loud.

"Carly what you saw why us saying good bye, not plotting to run away together." Brenda told the blond. Carly's eyebrows knotted together in confusion.

"What?" Carly asked her.

"Sonny told me that he wanted to be able to kiss me and still be in love with you and he was. He told me that you were the best thing that has ever happened to him and that he wanted to spend his life with his family; you and Michael. He told me that he couldn't lose you and he was finally happy, totally happy. Carly, we said good-bye and he wished me luck with Jax and I wished him luck with you because I could truly see that he loved you. He was going to look for you to tell you that but you disappeared." Brenda told the blond that Jason fondly called his best friend who was now in tears. Brenda stood from her spot and hugged the other girl, underneath everything Carly was just scared and unsure but she heart was always in the right place. Carly stood and hugged Brenda back before pulling away and whipping her face.

"Thank you." Carly told her, now feeling bad for Brenda, she was all alone.

"It was nothing, besides me and Sonny would never have worked out, not like you ad him. Now go, go to Sonny." Brenda told her and Carly turned to grab her purse.

"Are you going to be ok?" Carly asked Brenda and it was then that Carly saw why Jason was protective of Brenda.

"Yeah, I'll be fine, but Carly, if you hurt him you wouldn't be." Brenda warned the blond before she disappeared from Brenda's sight. Brenda watched Carly till she was out of sight before dropping back on to the step and placing her head in her hands.

"That was nice of you." His voice broke threw her momentary solitude and she looked up at him. He was standing a few feet away from her and with him there she felt safe. She didn't even make it one step towards him before she broke down totally and sunk down to the ground, crying. He rushed to her and bended down, pulling her into his arms and rocking her back and fourth as she cried.

-Girlygirl