A/N: Yea, so I'm back with another one... I just don't stop do I? Well, I really love Addek together and I'm really growing to like Addex together and I think I blame it on Kate Walsh (she's so great) My girl Crush...anyway, I wanted to write a story where Addison was caught between two guys, Alex and Derek. So this is kinda AU takes place lets say 2 months in the future, all you need to know for the story that Alex/Addison are a couple and Derek comes back into the picture and wants another chance with Addison. What would happen? Let me know your thoughts, I've already wrote 20 pages and I can't decide if I should make this a trilogy or a chapter by chapter story so I need advice from my loyal readers who spurn me to write more. I love this place!

Rating: R for Adult Situations, (may be changed to an 'M' based on subject matter later)
Pairings: Addex and Addek. Addison is caught between her past and her future, who will she choose. The man who broke her heart or the one who helped her repair it?

The knock on her penthouse door at five in the morning had her scowling in anger as she jerked the strings to her robe around her waist, she had a full day at the hospital in a couple of hours so when she found a chance to steal a few hours of rest she had jumped at the chance and had disappeared from the hospital.

She opened the door and scowled when she was met with the face of her ex-husband, "Derek, what are you doing here?"

Derek leaned against the doorjamb and flashed her trademark smile and said, "Can I come in?"

Addison shook her head, "Five in the morning, I have a full schedule and you want to come in. No, go home to Meredith and leave me in peace."

Derek's smile dropped, "Meredith and I aren't together anymore."

Addison felt a flush of pleasure run through her body but told herself to calm her heart, "And this has what to do with me? We aren't married anymore and even though you seemed to greatly enjoy rubbing your relationship in my face, we aren't even friends so this visit to my door at five in the morning is unexpected and not gratuitous."

Derek flinched, "I'm sorry Addison I just want to talk."

Addison exhaled as she rolled her eyes and leaned back and allowed him entry to her apartment. She was grateful that she had told Alex that she didn't feel like him sleeping over tonight because she was sure that it wouldn't go over well that her ex-husband made visits to her door at all hours of the morning.

She closed the door and said, "Did you want something to drink or are you just here to talk about your latest fight with Meredith?"

She walked to the edge of the couch and rested her hands on the back of the cushion as she stared Derek in the face. He reached to put his hand on top of hers and she removed the hand, "Derek, what do you want? It's five in the morning."

Derek patted the cushion on her couch, "Come, sit let's talk."

Addison flinched and walked to the ottoman in front of the couch and crossed her arms in front of her in exasperation, "So talk."

Derek leaned against the couch, "Meredith and I aren't good together. I thought we had what it took to be a real relationship but there was something lacking."

Addison closed her eyes, "Derek, I really don't want to hear the sordid details of your romance, why don't you talk about this with Mark or something? I heard you guys were friends again or something."

Derek scowled, "Mark's an ass, ever since he and Izzie started dating he's been insupportable, he wouldn't even answer his cell…," Derek stopped mid sentence as he realized what he just admitted.

Addison groaned, "So you wake me up at five in the morning and I wasn't even your first choice? Right. This is just wonderful, listen Derek why don't you go back to Meredith's, I'm sure it was just a fluke your fight and that any day now you two will be back in love and making everybody ill."

Derek shook his head, "I don't think so, it's over and it's definite. It was the best for both of us, we were just making each other miserable because I couldn't be what she wanted and she wasn't what I wanted..."

Addison shrugged, "Well, that happens sometimes but I still don't see what this has to do with me."

Derek looked down as he twisted his hands in his lap as he decided whether to speak the next words out of his mouth, "Meredith was upset because I couldn't let go of you."

Addison stood up as she walked over to the kitchen and made herself a glass of juice and automatically made another one for him. She sipped from her glass and handed him his, "Was she drunk," Derek paused mid sip and stared at her in disbelief, "Come on Derek, you didn't have a problem letting go of me when you screwed her at the prom. You didn't have a problem when you couldn't give our marriage a real try because you were busy pining after her, I was never first in your life so for Meredith to say that you couldn't let go of me is a bit irrational."

Derek smirked, "It was actually the first honest thing she said to me in awhile. I had to take stock of what she was saying, it was kinda sad because I really sucked when I looked in the mirror. I was so angry that you came back and ruined my relationship or whatever it was with Meredith that when I said I would try at our marriage, I wasn't giving it my all," Addison snorted as he continued, "Okay, I wasn't even giving it half of my strength, I was obsessed with my lost chance with Meredith. Well, I finally got that chance."

Addison sipped as she rolled her eyes, "And was it everything it was cracked up to be? Was the passion that you didn't feel with me there? The jealousy that you saw when she spoke to another man or spoke to Mark, was any of that there?"

Derek met her eyes, "No, it wasn't I just missed you. It was rather sad, I held her at night and made love to her and tried to convince myself that this is what I wanted, what I always wanted but it wasn't. It couldn't be because, I missed you."

Addison scowled, "What are you talking about Derek? I'm Satan remember? I am the ruler of all that is evil and the adulterous bitch that you hate. I was the reason that your little 'romance' with Meredith wasn't realized sooner, I'm the reason for every bad thing in your life from your god awful haircut in the 80's to the bad coffee the hospital made last week, and now all of a sudden out of the blue because you had a fight," Addison paused in her discourse to sip juice and exhale softly, "You had a fight because you were acting like an ass but I still don't see what that has to do with me and don't give me that line about missing me because I don't buy it. You had me Derek, you had me for almost twelve years and you didn't want me remember. You couldn't even have good sex with me, all of these things did you suddenly forget?"

Derek exhaled as he leaned forward, "I started to remember, I remembered our first apartment that we got out of medical school. I remember christening every room in that apartment and even some of the sturdier tables and counters. I remembered holding your hand as I introduced you to my family who embraced you with open arms. I remembered cradling in bed with you as it rained outside and we did the crossword in bed. I remember our first Thanksgiving when you decided to cook a big dinner and invite my family even though you never cooked a dish a day in your life, I remember cradling you in my arms as I rushed out and went to the nearest Boston Market and bribed the manager to make a dinner for 20 people in under two hours. I remembered the bad times too, I remembered when you were so torn up about your patients that you would come to me for comfort and I told you I was too busy, I remembered when you lost your best friend from childhood to ovarian cancer and I made you go to the funeral alone. I remember it all and I feel like hell."

Addison was openly weeping now as she started to sob. Derek walked over to her and she shook her head and dragged the chair out of the kitchen in front of her, "No, you don't get to do this. Get out."

Derek looked pained as he tried to walk forward, "Addie," Addison flinched and shook her head, "I wanted you to come back to me for so long, this Derek. The one who remembered the twelve years of memories, the years of love and togetherness but he never came," Derek started forward but Addison stepped back, "All I got was the man who was so happy that he was free of the adulterous bitch that he didn't even have the decency to come tell me my marriage was over until after he saw Meredith first to put her on retainer. So no Derek, you don't get to come here and pretend everything's okay, with tears in my eyes I threw my wedding rings into the river because you were so happy to be rid of me so this little act of wanting me back is just that an act. Whatever your issue is with Meredith I'm sure you'll resolve it, now get out."

Derek tried to walk to her but she started to cry as she backed up against the wall, "Addie, I'm leaving but this isn't over. I'm sorry that I had to tell you like this but I just thought you should know. I wanted to talk to Mark about it first so he could tell me how to approach this but since he didn't pick up his phone," Addison choked on a sob with a muffled laugh, "You went to the guy I cheated on you with for advice on how to win me back, yea you're screwed up. Just go Derek, I'll pretend that this was a dream and we can go back to barely tolerating each other around the hospital. Just go."

Derek nodded, but paused at the door, "I'm not giving up Addi I'm just breathing. I'm giving you your space but it won't be for too long."

Addison heard the door close but was too wrapped up in sobs to pay any attention.

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Hours Later

Addison was working slowly through her day with the conversation with her ex-husband lingering in her brain. After going through a pint of ice cream she had tried to chalk up the conversation to a mirage. She was obviously working too many hours and needed a vacation, a vacation by herself to regroup and remember who she was. So after her last surgery she planned to ask Richard for the time off.

She searched through her next patient records to see if there was anything that she found that would be an impediment to her surgery when she heard a voice clear their throat from behind her, she spun around and met the face of Alex Karev.

She felt a smile come to her lips at the thought of her new friend and lover, they had come together in a flurry of passion and even though it seemed like they wouldn't work out she had been happy with him. Alex leaned forward, "Dr. Montgomery, can I see you for a moment?"

Addison felt a rush of pleasure and nodded as she turned to the nurse and said, "I'll be back in to check on Mrs. Edington shortly."

She followed Alex into the supply closet which had once housed her crying and felt the door close behind her as she was shoved against the door and her lips were fused with that of Alex's.

Alex groaned as he pulled away, "I missed you last night."

Addison smiled and leaned forward and brushed her mouth with his, "I missed you too. It would have been a much better night, if you had been in bed with me."

Alex pulled back and looked at her in confusion, "Why? Did something happen?"

Addison nodded but said, "I don't want to talk about that now, I have five minutes in the closet and I know you are more of a twenty minute man but what do you say?"

Alex rolled his eyes at her jest while reaching for the bottom of her scrub top; he stopped short when his pager went off. Addison scowled, as she pulled the pager from his waist, "Why does Mark have to always been in the middle of our sex lives?"

Alex chuckled as he pulled her to him for another kiss and said, "It doesn't matter babe, we'll finish this later. How about I meet you for lunch? I heard about one of your operations today and I'm curious about how it went."

Addison nodded as she reached for another kiss; she needed this, a man who was not only interested in her sexually but also professionally and emotionally. She was slowly finding everything she needed in Alex Karev and even if Derek wanted to come mess with her mind she wasn't going to let him, she was going to move on whether he liked it or not.

She waited five minutes after Alex exited to get her raging hormones back under control and then focused on the surgery ahead of her and the rest of her day.

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"So that's how you did that…I wanted to see that surgery but Sloan had me picking up his dry cleaning he had a date with Izzie and wanted to make sure that I got his good suit jacket out of the cleaners."

Addison rolled her eyes, "So he's serious about his relationship with Izzie then?" Alex nodded and Addison looked at him, "Are you okay with that?"

Alex leaned back and smiled, "Why? You asked that question when we first got together and I thought I sufficiently demonstrated that I wasn't pining away for Izzie but now you are asking it again why?"

Addison shrugged as she poked through her chicken salad in boredom, "No reason with everything else up in the air in my life, I guess I needed some consistency."

Alex stilled her hand, "What's up in the air Addison? I thought everything was going good between us and," Addison touched him softly and cut him off, "It's not you or me, I just had a really long day and I would really like to be home in bed but I'm stuck here and I'm taking my bad mood out on you and it's not fair."

Alex smiled softly, "What's not fair is you not letting me in. What's wrong, why the long face? Why do I get the feeling that you are hiding something from me?"

Addison opened her mouth and said, "Last night I had a…." Addison was cut off by the sound of her pager ringing she looked down and cursed to herself as she showed him the number, "That's the surgery I did from this morning. I got to go."

Alex nodded, "I'll see you after work right?"

Addison smiled as she walked past him and touched him on the shoulder, "I would love that."

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Addison exhaled in relief as she exited her patient's room. Her vital signs had taken a sudden turn for the worse and Addison had been fearful that she was going to have to operate again when she noticed that her nurse had left off her allergies and after verifying that her patient was having an allergic reaction to the antibiotics she switched the meds and then had admonished the nurse who was apologetic.

She walked to the nurses' desk as she noticed the bouquet of red roses on the desk. She smiled as she leaned forward and reached for the card. Alex was a sweetheart; he had obviously noticed her bad mood at lunch and had decided to gift her with her favorite flowers. She had been a little concerned when early into her relationship Alex had decided to learn all of the things that she liked and disliked and had been observant to avoid everything she disliked and give her gifts of what she liked spontaneously. She opened the card and the smile as well as her good mood fell as she read the card

It wasn't a dream, I want you back.

Love,

Derek

Addison crumpled the card in her hand as she swore to herself; she thought he would get the picture after she kicked him out. She picked up the vase of flowers and marched over to the elevators and pressed the up button. This had to end and now.

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Note: You may not like Derek in the beginning but I'm trying to make him repentant for his mistakes and I hope it comes through.