Courage

by Ryleigh Hayle

Kurt bought me a beautiful (and expensive-looking) journal and told me that I should start writing everything down that's going through my head right now. I know he's just trying to help me, so I'm going to give it a try. For Kurt. Because I would do anything for him.

1. November 26 10:16pm

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November 26

10:16pm

I don't really understand what I'm supposed to write in here.

Kurt bought me this beautiful (and probably insanely expensive) journal, but I don't really know what to say.

I know he just wants me to talk.

They all want me to talk.

But I can't.

They don't understand.

Every time I open my mouth, I just feel like I'm going to disappoint them.

I'm afraid that I'm going to wake up and find out that this is all just another dream.

Is this all in my head? Or is it really over?

Have I finally lost my mind completely and I'm making this all up? Like some kind of coping mechanism?

I don't think I can handle it if it's just another dream.

The thought of waking up and being back there again...

I can't go back.