Brother
AN: My first Vampire Knight piece... I liked the idea when it was in my head, but it didn't come out as well. :/
Disclaimer: I do not own Vampire Knight – that would be Matsuri Hino-sensei's.
I wish, more than anything, that I'd been born as her brother.
Normally, someone wishes to be related to someone of the opposite sex so he or she doesn't need a reason for loving the person unconditionally, with no romantic strings attached. A person would want to be related to someone else so that he or she would have a tie of blood with the other, binding them together forever.
It's the complete opposite in my case.
What I feel for Yuuki is something no brother should ever feel for his sister. I want her – her warm hands, her gentle smile, her loving personality... I want her so badly that it hurts. Sometimes, I wonder why I need her so much – it makes me feel that much more monstrous when I picture my fangs sinking into the smooth skin of her neck. I want to possess her wholly, and I want her to possess me. I want us to belong to each other.
Want, want, want. I am a selfish, avaricious monster.
I want to be her brother because then, she would have been mine. She would have wanted my blood, not Kaname Kuran's. She would have been born to be my wife, not his. She would call me 'oniisama' in that decorous, hopeful voice. She would do anything for me.
She's often referred to me as her brother – at least, she did before she turned. It's understandable. With Kaien Cross raising us both, it was natural for us to grow as close as siblings. She is the only one allowed to call me Zero, without any honorifics.
But that day, when she stood in front of me and claimed Kaname Kuran as her brother... it tore me apart. That she would fall in love with her brother... it disgusted me beyond belief, but at the same time, it only increased my jealousy. Kaname Kuran is lucky enough to hold her heart – she loves him more than anyone else in this world. And yet, he was lucky enough to watch her grow, to watch her mature, to share all the tender moments siblings share with each other...
It's not fair. It's never fair. He gets everything, every single piece of her.
Except her blood. I tasted her first, and although it should fill me with shame, it makes me strangely glad. Kaname Kuran will have her for eternity – as her friend, as her brother, as her lover – but when I drank from her that first time, she was mine in a way she will never be his.
AN: I love Zero. I really do. That's why I want to get much better at writing him. I would LOVE feedback! (I'd like to ask you to be gentle about it, though.)
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