Harry couldn't do it any more. He was currently sitting on Hermione's couch and thinking over his life. He had given the wizarding world everything but they still kept coming for more. He gripped his hair and let out a growl. Everything he had lost, everything he had given them and for what. The wizarding world was still the same. The ministry still passed and up held bigoted laws. Even with Hermione trying to pass new fair laws and him backing her not much had changed. No department head or assistant department head was a non pureblood. There wasn't a single muggleborn healer in St. Mungos and there hadn't been for 70 years. They had finally managed to change the law taxing muggleborns for being muggleborns.

He got up an made his way in to Hermione's kitchen. He loved Hermione's house, it was a four bedroom cottage in the country that was surrounded by nothing but fields. He knew that she had bought the surrounding fields so no one could build near her. Her home was minimal and practical just like Hermione, he spent most of his time at her house much to the annoyance of his ex Ginny. They had broken up again, if he wasn't mistaken this was the sixth time in the past 2 years. He poured himself a large tumbler of firewhiskey and went back to the couch to wait for Hermione. He had a favour he needed to ask. One he was hoping that she would grant him. He took a sip and lost himself in his thoughts

Hermione was currently holding a sleeping Teddy as she made her way home. They had spent the day with Luna looking for imaginary creatures around her house. Well more like Luna and Teddy looking, she was sat under the shade of a tree reading a book. She passed her wards which let her know that Harry was inside. They saw each other every day so it was no surprise to her that he was currently inside her home.

Hermione found Harry on her couch staring at walls, she cursed in her head. He was in one of his moods today. She decided to put Teddy to bed before checking on Harry. Dean and Luna had done an amazing job on Teddy's room. It looked like the orchard at the burrow, with wild flowers and grass, swaying trees and magical and non magical creatures running about. Hermione had enchanted the ceiling to reflect the night sky just like at Hogwarts. She also enchanted the floor to feel and look like grass from the quiditch pitch. Luna had enchanted her and Deans drawings to move and smell like the real thing. Depending on the season Teddy's room smelt like wildflowers when they bloomed on his wall, or like autumn when the leaves on the trees fell. Hermione tucked Teddy in and went to check on Harry.

He was still sitting where she left him twenty minutes ago. She knew it wasn't a good idea to startle him so she called his name a few times till he looked at her. Harry's face broke into a huge smile when he saw her, he made his way to her and enveloped her in a hug. Hermione was surprised, Harry rarely initiated a hug, unless she was upset. He must really be upset she thought.

"Would you like something to eat"? Hermione

Harry gave her a squeeze before letting go and replying," no thanks, ate at the burrow."

Hermione rarely went to the burrow any more. After the kiss during the battle her and Ron had agreed that it was just a heat in the moment thing and remained friends. But Mrs. Weasley wasn't happy with this, so any time she spent at the burrow she had to deal with her passive aggressive comments of her son not being good enough for her. Ron was currently in a relationship with Padma Patil and held no ill will towards Hermione.

Hermione sat next to Harry and held his hand, "so what's got you so upset"?

"What gave it away," Harry sarcastically asked

Hermione laughed and took the tumbler out of Harry's hands before answering, " you only drink when you have tried everything else to get you out of your funk."

She really did know him. He had gone flying earlier in an attempt to raise his spirit, flying always worked to relax him and temporary forget everything. When that didn't work he would go to Hogwarts and spend time with Buckbeak it was the closest thing he had to Sirius. When that failed he went for booze in an attempt to just forget.

"I got a letter from the minister of magic asking me to do an interview talking about the progress the ministry and the wizarding world was making and how everything was good," Harry spat out angrily.

Hermione sighed and guided Harry's head on to her gently ran her hands through his hair, she was trying to organise her thoughts before answering.

"Luna has been talking about going to look for this creatures that live in the Americas and she asked me to go with her, why don't you and Teddy come with us," Hermione

"How long have you wanted to go"? Harry

"I have wanted to leave England ever since I got back from looking for my parents," Hermione truthfully answered.

"but I knew you weren't coping well, you needed me Harry and I wasn't going to leave you,"

"Thank you for not leaving, you have always been an amazing friend," Harry

Hermione looked down at Harry and saw he was crying, she leaned down and kissed his forehead, "you don't have to thank me, you would have done the same."

Harry moved his head from Hermione's lap and turned to face her. "Hermione you have sacrificed so much for me, you have always stood by me, so I'm asking you to help me and stand by me one more time.

Hermione waited for Harry to continue speaking. Harry braced himself to ask what he wanted to ask her. It was a lot to ask, and he knew he was being selfish but this was the only way he saw himself having a future.

Harry spent the next hour explaining to Hermione how he had found a deaging potion and spell in the Black library. He wanted Hermione to be his guardian or parent whatever she was comfortable with and raise him. How he wanted a chance at a childhood, how he didn't want to remember all that he had lost. He explained to her how he felt too broken to really be in a relationship. He explained how he was struggling to cope with raising Teddy even with her help. All he ever wanted was a family and now he felt to broken to really make it work. He saw how Hermione was with Teddy the love and care she showed him and knew that she would do a good job. And there was no one he trusted more than her.

Hermione was shocked and that was an understatement. She knew Harry was not coping too well but she didn't think it was this bad. She looked at Harry who was silently crying while he explained everything to her. He looked tired, he had bags under his eyes, he had lost a lot of weight during the past few months and his skin was pale and sickly looking. Harry looked like he was giving up and he was hanging on to this idea as his last salvation. She knew he still had nightmares from the war, from his horrible childhood and all the deaths he blamed himself for.

Hermione enveloped Harry in a hug, "shhh, it's okay Harry, I will do it, anything for you Harry."

They sat like that for ten minutes before Harry pulled out a folder and handed it to Hermione. It contained documents making her Teddy and his guardians, there were also adoption papers for both of them if that was the option she wanted. He had transferred all of his assets to Hermione,
made her head of house Potter and Black. Everything he owned was now Hermione's once she signed.

Hermione took the folder and read through the documents. She was blown away by how wealthy Harry was. She thought about what Harry was asking one more time. Was she ready to be the mother to two kids under 5. She loved Teddy and had him half of the time, could she manage adding another child to the mix and having Teddy full time. She didn't even know how far Harry planned to deage himself. She signed the forms and in a flash they disappeared to gringots and the ministry.

" When would you like to do this"?

"Now actually, I have been thinking of this and planning for the past year," Harry answered.

"How young will you be"? Hermione inquired

Harry got to his feet and retrieved the potion, "I will be about 12 months, before I got my scar."

Hermione nodded and stood up and grabbed her wand. Harry had explained what the process would entail so she knew what to expect. She knew it was going to be painful for Harry when the spell was working. Harry had a bag packed for everything she would need for the first few days. He had written a letter of farewell to the wizarding world that she was going to post before her and Luna left the country. She was certainly leaving the country, nothing was keeping her hear any more.

She took a step back and waited for Harry to take the potion before casting the spell. When it was all done Harry dropped to the floor and started screaming in pain. Hermione went over to him and placed his head on her lap like she had done before and tried to soothe him. It took an hour before the process was complete. In her lap sat a young Harry, his big emerald eyes staring at her. Hermione couldn't help but cry, her best friend was gone. But she would do her best to give Harry the best childhood she could. No one else deserved this second chance as much as Harry did. Hermione picked up her wand and sent a patronus to Luna asking her to come over.

Five minutes later Hermione's wards alerted her that Luna had arrived. Hermione made her way to the door and let Luna in.

Luna come in and gave Hermione a quick hug not wanting to disturb the baby in her arms. She sat and waited for Hermione to join her. Hermione then explained what had happened during the last five hours. She asked Luna to watch the boys tomorrow while she went to get a few things for their expedition. They had decided to leave in four days.

"It's a really great thing you did for him Hermione," Luna