Chaos chaos everywhere won't you shine some light
Please pull me out of here I can't make it through the night
Chaos chaos silent screams
Fill these broken dreams
The darkness is closing in fast
For once can't you push away my mask?
I sit in silent contemplation counting up my shame
Waiting for a hero with no expectation he'll come one day calling my name
"Pup, little pup", chaos calls out," you lost, give in, let go."
It's words echo trying to plant in me doubt what I want to do I don't know
The long road from home and new friendships were my saving grace
All of my past is not yet known still hiding my full face
At Desperation I was given a choice: My future or my past
I searched out my heart and voice for the consequences both good and bad would last
My friends stood beside me but only would follow one road
Chaos to showed up to guide me to my past and new shame filled unknown
I searched my heart and it greedily wanted both new friends and old ways
Both paths set apart and it I felt like I was dazed
My hand was grabbed and I saw a face littered with old scars and new tears
And my soul cried out to not hesitate and comfort and set aside that young warrior's fears
My future I had chosen
No longer cold with fear and my heart was unfrozen
Many moons have passed since the fateful day
I once again relapsed into my old way
Chaos chaos spinning its deceit filled web
The enticing offers ringing in my head
Brokenness in refuse to be found there again
The pain and stress have risen like a sharp pin
Chaos scoffed as I asked if I could go back to my future
"This nonsense I have had enough!" ,it cried, "You time has yet begun here."
Chaos chaos everywhere won't you shine some light
Please pull me out of here I can't make it through the night
Chaos chaos silent screams
Fill these broken dreams
The darkness is closing in fast
For once can't you push away my mask?
Lost far from truth
My tricks are good they are never see through
Far so far chaos's pull
Empty eyes all but stare like a black hole
Compromise and indecision keep me in darkness
Like it wanted to train me for anger and in a state of depress
To my surprise old and new friends sought me out asking and offering all they could
Side stepping my trick washing away my shame like water over mud
Realization and a trip far from home
Brought me to a road I had known
Darkness loomed and lurked
Old wounds festered and hurt
In my voice i found praise
Built in me a war cry that would last more then just days
An offer to be baptized was set in front
The cheers of my friends and joy was astounding to put blunt
But one part was left to deal with
Chaos had his claws in thick
I wavered only for a moment but tried to fight
As it filled my mind with shame filled delight
I wanted it that was plain
I wanted to go back no matter the pain
My final step, unknown plan in motion
Because of God's love great like an ocean
A call sent out
A cry and shout
Chaos's final hour came near
A broken alliance and light to old fear
Had set me free
Now my war cry complete I was new I was me
Purpose restored plans set straight
New blessings are now my fate
My future is long long road that I will not take alone
Never again to be the way i was never to let out a pain filled moan
Chaos chaos i have found my light
New person new warrior now is in this fight
Mask is now gone testimony a new
The fight is on colors look a new hue
Take note my friend my foe my brother listen close
Shame filled unknown have endings and I am here to show to most
That I wont back down now till the end of days still going
My passion has risen to new high grounds and is still growing