A/N : Hey guys ! This is my first Romance/ family story . I really hope that you are going to enjoy it . Feedback is always great so let me know what you think . I don't own anything of supernatural. Rated T just in case . English is not my first language. This is unbeta so all mistakes are mine so forgive me . Hope you are going to enjoy it .

# Chapter one :

## Evan And Angel

Dear son ,

It is my first time to write a diary, I don't know how this is going to end up but , I hope that it will end up right..

From where should I start the story ? I guess my answer will be from this moment! Why ?

I feel that you are asking me that and my answer is : I will start from here because it is the best place for me to start , all the details from the past is going to appear anyway. So ! Why is the rush ?

I still have two weeks until I am going to hold you in my hands . I am setting now in the library of the bunker - which we live in with your dad , uncle , my best friend who is your uncle's girlfriend and the mother of his child * Angel * - you think you don't have enough information, right ? Let me tell you more ..

You are Evan . Your name means the little warrior and you are just like you name , you are the son of Dean Winchester so what else but a little warrior are you going to be ?

If I started talking about your dad now I will not end this in my whole life . How could I talk about the greatest man I have ever met in couple of pages ?! I need a whole new life just to talk about him , about the man I regret every single day of my life that I spent not knowing him , I also regret those moments that I spent away after knowing him . I don't need to tell you much as you are going to have a big part of his memories, a big part of mine as well ! I know it is a torture , but I have nothing to do . I am crying every night because of this ..it is all my fault.

I am a half supernatural and half human. My kind lives in underworlds . The king of our kind is trying to start the end of the world again . We had a lot of fights with him and as result he put a curse on you ! That time we were there I didn't even know that you ..

Forget about that . There are no excuses! It is my fault and I hope someday you and your father will forgive me .

Oh my boy ! I really hope that you will be able to do . Forgive me that I am crying now and making you that sad , I can feel that you are moving uncomfortably because of this . I can do nothing about it as my pregnancy is making me so emotional and even more kind and caring than I used to be .

I am sure that you are wondering about a lot of things like :

1- Can't you be just a normal human ?

A : it is a complicated process, but I am going to take the risk some stage when I am sure that things are stable as much as possible . I really don't want my family to suffer because of this anymore.

2- Where's is dad and how he is feeling?

A: I think that is the most important question for you and my answer is that they all went to a normal hunt - nothing to do with the king of my world - they left Angel here with us , so don't worry. We are not alone

Your Dad is not feeling that great as this damn mark is not giving him rest and all that thing with the writer , angels , hell and his knights ! This is driving him crazy . That is the reason I am keeping my supernatural power as I am helping as much as I can . I really hope that you will be able to find away to help your dad as well . Promise me that you will do .

( x ~ x )

Illu was going to keep writing to her beloved son but , then she heard her phone ringing. It was the elder warrior . It was the man she would sacrifice everything for him . It was Dean Winchester.

She held her phone smiling putting her hand on her belly " Look ! This is daddy calling " she said kindly to her unborn child while she was rubbing her belly softly .

" Hey baby! " she answered the call warmly . She missed him more than ever

" Illusion.." he called her name . That sad tone in his voice was breaking the distance between them . That sad tone was enough to let her soul leave her own body just to meet his soul , to heal it and to wash all that bad memories he had in that day ..in that life !

She closed her eyes against that warm sad call he gave her . He was having that bad day and he was not able to talk about it - as always- that silence that filled the place was all the talk they needed to say for each other .

Even the silence between them had special meaning. A lot of words were said in it . They said to each other : I love you , I missed you and sure his silence added * I had that bad day and I need you *

Some how she was just able to understand it without talking . She was able to imagine that now he was in the car , one had on the wheel and holding the phone with the other hand . Straight eyes on the roads , sad and tired looks inside them . Whispering to not wake tired Sam and Sara up , feeling that mark burning his soul and his thoughts were also burning his mind .

" I know! " that all what she said and she really did know . She felt it inside her heart. It was digging inside her soul and it was like a live stream in her mind .

" I know you do .." he said with a kind of a sop . It seems like a very bad thing had happened

" Waiting for you " she said even warmer than she managed to

" Going to race the wind to make it to you tonight! Don't let my baby boy sleep before me there . Tell my little warrior to wait until I give him that night kiss before sleep ." He said trying to be that funny dean . It was his way trying to control his emotions as at this point they both had nothing to be done again .

" Never Dean! I promise " She said . He nodded feeling a little better . They ended the call .

She looked to her phone screen emotionally. She really missed her man and she is really sad for all what is happening to them .

Angel's screaming voice got her back to reality. She put her phone quickly and she went to see him.