Disclaimer: I do not own Shawna Riverson. Ann M Martin does, and I am just writting about her.
When you look at someone like Shawna Riverson you repeat the words over in your head; god, she is perfect in everyway. Everyone has gone through the stage of fascination with her, almost like a crush. You want to be something to her. You know for that one moment you would die happy if Shawna Riverson thought of you. Most of all, you want her to like you back. There are few people that Shawna Riverson likes back.
Those are the people you hate, you can't stand them. Yet you want to be them, they are the screwed up ones, you would never want to be screwed up. But you do. If being screwed up means your Shawna Riverson's friend.
You gossip about Shawna Riverson. Telling lies pretending they're true.
Did you hear that Shawna Riverson was going out with Pete Black?
Did you know that Shawna Riverson got a nose job?
Did you see the pictures of Shawna Riverson in Teen People magazine?
One of these common lies, or something very similar have at least once seeped out of everyone's mouths, even if it just for a brief second. Some people are horrid abusers of this, only finding comfort when they are putting her down, yet secretly idolizing her. Its like a worn out book that everyone has read. The lies become her truths, as much as she fights them away, she opens her arms to them at the same time. At least people are talking about her? Even if they are classifying Shawna Riverson as someone perfect, someone vile, someone who she is not.
They don't need to know that Shawna Riverson cries herself to sleep at night.