Finally

For close to three years we kept the affair. I was on cloud nine and at the beginning thought it wouldn't last but after the odd first months I relaxed.

We hid it well from his friends and from the population within the school and in society, we agreed to have our relationship in private until he finishes school: it was a forbidden affair, I the teach he the student, a 12 year age gap between us but we did not care.

If you looked at us you would think of us as a odd pair, not just because of the age gap but because of our appearance, I who is 5'3 and my physical appearance that I have been told leans more to the feminine side but with a sour attitude and he who at his last year towers to a 6'5 and because of his love for quidditch has a muscular built and female AND also male fawn for him and with his friendly ways, he picked me to be with.

We started this arrangement in his fourth year and now in his seventh three years have past with my life full of happiness and love that I did not notice what was happening around me.

Unbelievably if you must know, this has been the first real relationship that I have been in and most shocking the first real one I have giving my heart to. Yes, within my school years I had had crushes, dates and kisses but I have never gone beyond kissing. So when our first anniversary hit I proposed to advance from the kissing stage. As nervous as I was he gently held me, I knew he had ex's and some of them were male so yes in my mind I knew he had experience in the field but it was exciting, embarrassing and freeing to give myself to the one I love. Doesn't love do that to one? Give oneself to the other person whom they trust, love and cherish?

I will never forget that night, how he took my hand and talked to me in a sweet and relaxing voice to calm down my nerves, how he gently prepared me and took me. At first we used protection cause as in the magical world both man and woman may bear children. The next day when I woke a thought passed throw my mind: how can they walk after having something in them! I applauded myself in having pain reliving potion in my room: as a potion master one must have stocks for whatever reason, but after a while I had gotten use to it. In the couple of months from that beautiful day we had tried changing position but I loved to feel him within me and it has seen that he loved being in control that we continued as that: I bottom he tops.

Now as two years passed we were still strong, the love I have for him high in my life, but when we past our third year something happened.

As we lived in Hogwarts School for witches and wizard and it has its dormitory for students and teachers on different levels and location within its wall, we had found an empty storage room that wasn't used no more, there we would meet after lights out and spend the night. I had converted the front as a façade: made it looks like a storage room but when you go around it, it becomes a bedroom full with washroom and closet for clothes and such.

I would always wait for him at ten there and at the beginning he would be on time like always, but when two months passed, started to come late or send me notes saying he would not be able to make it. I thought it was because of his finales and he wants to concentrate on them so I let it pass, but after a month I had heard a rumor running around the school grounds that he was with a male student.

I confronted him one day after class and he said that to don't believe them that he has been studying with his fellow friends in the dorm rooms and library. So that is what I did, I ignored what was going on but felt something wrong. When our anniversary of our first kiss was approaching I was excited cause I had big news to inform him about. You see, on our third anniversary we were so in a frenzy that I forgot to place the spell on myself and we did not use condom neither that after waking up with the toilet in my face and last nights food going out of my mouth as a river, found out I was pregnant! That as I was heading to our room to wait for him I heard some sounds.

Curiosity is a human nature, a silently stepped in because I knew aside from me and harry, no one else knew of this room, that when I peeked through the side of the bookshelf did I gasp in horror.

There, in between the covers was none other than the man I thought who loved me with another man. My loud gasp had shocked them and they turned to look at who came in that his face was imprinted with a surprised reaction.

I ran before anyone said a word, I ran straight to my rooms and cried. How stupid could I have been! I trusted his word that nothing was happening, I trusted his lies that he was saying to me when I should of trusted my own self and those rumors around me! There was a pounding on my door but I ignored it, the shield around my rooms was strong to not let anyone who I don't wish to see enter. The next day I spoke with the head master and asked him for a vacation period, he asked for what and I couldn't lie to him. He was like a father to me that I told him. Angry he was for keeping an affair that goes against the school policy but sad at what happened, he accepted that plea and granted the day after till next school year I can return.

Throughout the whole class that I had with him I had not taken a glance to his direction, when class was done I turned quickly towards my office, but before I could close the door he came in.

"Severus let me explain!" He took my shoulder and spun me around and I slapped him.

"Explain? Explain what! Explain why you have been ignoring me for the past months, lying to me about your studying and bull to me finding you with your dick up the ass of another bloke! Explain what!" I had tears that I didn't want run down my face and angrily wiped them away. I stared at him waiting for something! Waiting for him to say that it was a mistake that he loves me and me alone and what I saw was a once thing, a mistake that would never happen, but it wasn't like that.

"I know sorry would not help me here but, I have fallen in love with someone else. Look at me! I am 18! I should be able to see the world and have fun!" I slapped him again. How could I fall in love with a man who thinks as this?

"So what you are saying is I strapped you down? I had not allow you to live life? That I am too old for you and you want someone of your age group? How stupid of me to waste your time. How stupid of me to think that these past three years I had made you happy, how stupid of me to fall for someone who thinks I am nothing! Get out. Get the FUCK OUT and never show your face to me again!"

I had my wand pointed at him and after he closed the door behind him did I fall on the floor and cried. How stupid of me to think I made him happy, how stupid of me to had enclosed myself in a bubble and have it burst like this.

The next day I got my bags and left for the cottage my mother had left me in Scotland, away from here, away from him. As I stand here in the entrance of the house I place a hand on my still flat stomach and tell my child that even though my heart is broken and that I still stupidly love him, I would not let him harm you in anyway.

Three months have past and now it is time to return to school. He had now graduated, I thank Albus for allowing me to be excluded from the ceremony and also thank him for coming to visit me with poppy his sister who is now my nurse who will help me when my baby is due, that the time has come to return back to that place.

Even though I am at three months, you can see the difference in my appearance, my stomach in not that six pack shape but a smooth flat stomach with a little bit of a bulge to it. I can still hide it under my clothes but I will soon have to place notice me not spells to hide my pregnancy.

I had heard even if I didn't want to from poppy that he broke up with the bloke and now is single, even though my heart still beats for him and I still dream of our time together, I cannot forgive his treason. Albus had inform me that he had changed my chambers so when I get bigger, there are doors that would lead me to my classrooms and to the dinning hall without me tackling the stairs, and that I could bring winky with me so she may help me with whatever I needed and I was so happy for that: the parenting books that I have been reading stated that even though male pregnancy are 7 months it still has the same effects as the women, swollen feet, unexpected hungry, uncontrollable bladder and such so yes I was happy to have help.

I have also had to get assistance for my classroom, the book states that I cannot be around danger and has the classroom has idiot for students who cannot even boil water without having it explode I have taken a Ms. Ganger has my classroom assistance.

As the opening feast started I am quite happy that my sickness has vanished and am able to stand the smell of food that I indulge in the feast before my eyes, but before I could get a grain of rice in my hands, Albus wishes to welcome the new students and staff.

Angry that I couldn't get a lovely spoonful of smashed potatoes in me I rebelled and placed a piece of melon bread in my mouth and chew slowly: who knows how long it will take for Albus to finish.

Alas, the last student was sorted and now the new teachers are going to enter that with a swipe of piece of chicken do I turn my attention to the front doors. One by one they entered when Albus called their name and their position, I clapped when Ms. Ganger: which she wishes for me to call her Hermione, entered but as I was reaching for one of those delicious looking carrots I heard a name I did not wish to hear.

Harry Potter, Professor of Quidditch.

I think I had stopped breathing. I slowly looked up, praying at the same time that it was another person with the same name but when I saw that built body I had memorized, those hands that had touched me in places no one had, those lips that had kiss me till my toes curl and those eyes that held me, I knew that it was him. The man who had stolen my heart and my body, the man who had broken me and also had giving me something to live for, was right in front of me.

I just stared at him when he walked towards the teachers table my hand that had frozen over the carrots is now shaking and I grab it with my other to guide back to my lap that I heard a chair being pushed back than a hand on my shoulder and a voice that would of send shivers of pleasure down my back sends a cold empty feeling say "hello Severus"

Before I could stop myself I slapped his hand away and say in a loud voice, "Don't touch me!" I hear a gasp and look around and see everyone looking at me that I turned and ran from there.

Why, why must he be here!