Disclaimer: I DO NOT OWN GLEE OR DARREN OR CHRIS MUCH TO MY DISSAPOINTMENT, BUT YOU KNOW, I GUESS I HAVE GIVEN YOU AN IDEA FOR A CHRISTMAS PRESENT NOW :D (yes, its only march, who careesss) :)

[Chris' POV]

I woke myself up with a sudden jump.

Not Again.

For the past week or two i had been having the same recurring dream, well no, this was not a dream, this was infact a nightmare.

i picked my glasses and my book, and began to read it, trying to fall asleep and trying to distract my mind from the nightmare.

'Darren, can we talk a sec?, im sorry' i said sheepishly through our bedroom door in our appartment.

'Look Chris, just leave me alone, ok? just leave!' those words cut through me like a knife.

'Dare, c'mon, it was a stupid kiss, it didn't mean anything!' i was practically begging for him to let me in to talk to him. he finally opened it...

'Yeah well it certainly didn't fucking look like that' he said he spat as he went across the lounge and into the spare room were his guitar was kept 'It looked like you were fucking enjoying it. do you enjoy hurting me Chris? cause it certainly seems that way' his tone was getting bitter, he walked back into the bedroom and started to pull his clothes out of the wadrobe and start to stuff them into a duffle bag.

'Darren, you know i would never want to hurt you. i love you.'

'Hurm, funny that word, LOVE!, it's supposed to mean something. at least it does to me!' tears had started to stream down his face, and in that moment i just wanted to hold him, and hug him untill everything was right again, because i did love him, that i knew for sure.

Darren was now getting the last of his things before walking too the kitchen, grabbing his keys, and began walking to the door.

'DARE PLEASE' i grabbed his arm and he spun around to face me 'Please don't do this' i said in a whisper, tears escaping from my eyes.

'Do what Chris? Leave the man who i thought loved me. well fyi, YOU cheated on me' his eyes were red and puffy from the tears. He looked my eyes, i had never seen such hurt in him before, his eyes were not full of love and hope as they usually were, but instead full of sadness. 'I thought you were different Chris' he said in a whisper before more tears made there way down his face.

'Please don't leave Darren'

'i have too' he spat again 'Goodbye Chris'

And with that, he was gone. slamming the door and breaking my heart as he done so.

I had been stupid. this was all my fault

I ran back into the bedroom and cried and cried, i tried too call him but his phone just kept ringing off. gosh, this is real. I cried myself too sleep knowing that i had just ruined the best thing to ever happen to me.

The next morning, i was woken up by my phone going off.

I quickly jumped up to grab it thinking it was Darren.

-Lea- great, what does she want.

'Hello' i didn't mean to sound rude, i loved lea, she was a good friend but right now, i wanted to be left alone.I didnt want to talk to anyone unless it was Darren

'Chris...hey, it's..m..me.'

'Lea, what's wrong, are you crying?' i was officially worried now, lea hardly ever cried.

'i..it's..D..d..Darren, H..he's...He was i...in a car...a..accident and, he..well, ohmygod... i ca...cant do th..this.'

'LEA TELL ME' i screamed at her.

That is were i always woke up. To be honest, i didnt want my dream to carry on. i didnt want to know the rest. My mind would think the worst and i really did not want to be thinking about that. About what could happen.

I tried not to let the dream get to me, i mean it was just a dream and Darren and i weren't even a couple, we were friends, best friends.however much this hurt me, i wanted to be more than friends (not the time for the warblers rendidtion of animal to pop into your head Chris) but i had agreed to myself to just keep my feelings for him under control, i didnt want to loose him as a friend.

I looked at my alarm clock 2:16am fuck.

i kept turning the pages of my book, but nothing really seemed to sink in, it was just all words and no meaning to them.

I tried to get back too sleep, so i put my book and glasses back on the night stand. i lay in best for the best part of an hour trying to get too sleep but i just couldn't, i kept tossing and turning but my mind just wouldn't shut off, i was worried about Darren. I picked up my phone from the nightstand and text him.

Hey, i know this is an obsurd time to be texting, but i can't sleep, are you okay? -C xo

A few seconds later, i had a reply. I liked how he always text me back straight away.

Hi, it's fine, i was actually just working on a song, i know, i can practially hear you tutting right now, telling me to stop working, but im refusing to listen to it. im rebelling, ha! and yeah im fine, how about you? -D xo

It amazed me at how detailed mine and Darrens texts were to each other, i guess we just liked being in eachothers company and enjoyed talking to eachother, i mean we are onscreen boyfriends after all.

Darren Everret Criss, get your ass to bed and stop working. Thats not normal to be working at what? 3am. See, thats me nagging you. and yeah, im good thanks, can we meet up for coffee before work tomorrow, ill pay? -C xo

i giggled to myself now feeling alot better because i knew what Darrens reply would be...

FREE COFFEE? im in! ill pick you up ok? ill be there at around 9 since we dont have work till 11, how does that sound? and pleaseee never use my full name again ;) -D xoxo

I could practually feel his enthusiasm and hyperness.

It made me sick at how someone could be so hyper at such an obscene time of the day, but that's one of the reaons i loved him, he was alaways happy.

Sounds good to me, now get some sleep if we need to be up early, Goodnight Darren Everett Criss ;D -C xoxo

Goodnight Christopher Paul Colfer. ha! love you Chrissykins! -D xoxo

Oh dear. not the pet name. I hated that and he knew it.

It took me a few seconds to think of a reply...

Love ya too dare bear! -C xo

i smirked at myself, i knew he would hate it, but love it at the same time.

I am sending you evils right now -_- see, they are my evils. -D xxxx

Yeah, Yeah. Dont even get into a bitch staring competition with me, i will go all Kurt on yo ass -C xxx

i was slowly drifting off too sleep, it amazed me at how much Darren cheered me up, he was always there for me, any time, any were.

As much as that would amuse me and 'Blaine' , i have to say, you win ...for now... but i will get you back -D xo

Of course i win. i always win. now, sleep hobbit. or else you won't get up tomorrow. -C xoxo

I was glad i was close friends with Darren, he got my sarcastic sence of humour which he also had.

HEY! i am not a hobbit! stop picking on me! and night...again ;) -D xx

And with that i set my alarm and placed my phone back onto my night stand and turend out my light.

I spent the next twenty minutes thinking about wether or not to tell Darren about my dream or not.

On one hand i wanted to tell him because i felt the need to as he had bee in it. but on the other hand, would it freak him out? would he be ok with it?

Of course he would.

This was Darren.

I eventually got comfortable and started to drift in and out of sleep and thinking everything is going to be fine, untill eventually entering a deep happy sleep.

A/N: Thank for reading guys, this is my first ever CrissColfer fic so go easy on me :) im sorry its a bit short, i'm trying to write longer chapters :) please review and stuff. Let me know what you think :) x