A/N: Well, I realized I hadn't written something for Phantom in forever, but I didn't really have any great ideas for a plot. Then in theatre class, we had to analyze a character. Of course, I chose Erik, so then I decided to write a short little something like this reflecting his thoughts. Enjoy, and please review!
I Will Always Love You
A tear trickles down my cheek. She loves that fool I think to myself. But why can't she love me?
She's the only person I have ever truly loved. I never loved my father or my mother. After all the abuse they put me through, how could I? How could anyone forgive their own parents for starving and torturing them for their deformities?
But Christine is not like that. She kissed me even after she saw the monster I am. She trusted me and displayed more compassion toward me than I had ever known.
Now her name brings a mixture of feelings to me; sadness, anger, jealousy. And I ask myself, why did I let her go with him? How could I be such a fool?
Why does God put me through such hardships? The immoral, hypocritical people of the world get the life of luxury, yet he denies me something as simple as love. He's condemned me to a life of misery and seclusion. A life that is barely worth living now that she is gone.
She may not love me, and I may have to live with that agonizing thought for the rest of my life. She will always be my angel of music, though.
Christine, I will always love you.