Of all the things I believe in
I just want to get it over with
Tears from behind my eyes
But I do not cry
Counting the days that past me by
His sheets didn't smell like him anymore, they smelled like me. His yellow shirt still smelt like him though. Cigarettes and gunpowder. Not necessarily the greatest smells in the universe, but god, on him, they were like heaven… Is that where he is now?
I've been searching deep down in my soul
Words that I'm hearing are starting to get old
Looks like I'm starting all over again
The last three years were just pretend and I say
I was pretending I didn't love him the whole time we lived together. And now he's gone and I've finally admitted it to myself. I wish it could have been sooner. Would he have stayed behind if I did? Of course not… he always just wanted Julia. But she's dead too now.
Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I love
The one thing that I tried to hold on to
I clutch his shirt tightly to my chest, wishing it were really him. I didn't even get to say goodbye. I just fired my rounds into the ceiling instead.
I still get lost in your eyes
And it seems like I can't live a day without you
Closing my eyes till you chase my thoughts away
To a place where I am blinded by the light but it's not right
He had been so close to me and my heart had been beating so fast. I looked into his eyes, and I saw everything I ever wanted in life.
Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to
He's gone, I keep trying to tell myself. He's gone… No! It can't be… This is a dream, I'll wake up soon. Don't worry. I'll walk out the door and bell peppers and beef without the beef will be sitting on the table and he'll be lying on that old couch smoking a cigarette. They never found his body…
It hurts to want everything and nothing at the same time
I want what's yours and I want what's mine
I want you but I'm not giving in this time
I'm nothing without him. There's no point to life without him. Why live… Why continue on when you don't have the one thing that kept you going.
Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to
"What the hell are you doing in here?" A strained voice says at the door. It's all I dream… I clench my eyes shut. "Shrew, that's my good shirt…"
We the stars fall and I lie awake
You're my shooting star
"You stupid lunkhead…" I whispered with a smile. "We thought you were dead… I missed you."