You Know You can't Keep it for Long

"It's only a matter of time before your heritage becomes...evident. Beorc aren't very observant, but even they will soon catch on."

I hate him for saying that, I hate him for being Branded, I hate him for bringing it up;I was trying to forget who I am...what I am. But, most of all, I hate him because its true.

Stefan told me this the night before we laid claim to Castle Crimea and we defeated King Daein, a feat that was previously thought to be nigh impossible my common mercenaries. He wasn't fooled my my guise, a spirit charmer; someone who sells their soul for incredible knowledge and power.

This made me think: what will I do? I haven't aged in three years, surely someone has noticed. I may be in the clear for a few more years, but then what? No, I couldn't wander around aimlessly, I would me better off dead.

Stefan said to travel to Grann Desert, there I would find solitude. I would find others...others like me; taboos and disgraces to the goddess.

I-I don't want to think about leaving. Leaving the only person I could call family. Leaving the only life I could consider worth living.

Here I am, sitting in my tent, the night before everyone leaves, deciding if I should travel to Begnion with Stefan, or stay with Ike and tell him.

But that leaves open the possibility of rejection. Ike said that he didn't care who my parents were, but one Laguz and one Beorc, I doubt he would feel the same. Same happened with my former caretakers (as if they could be called that), they didn't mind having me around until they found out, then they turned cold. Being rejected by my best friend would be worse than leaving in the middle of the night without a goodbye.

I've decided. I will go to Grann Desert with Stefan. I believe this would be the best for everyone. Others wouldn't have to listen to me. I am not oblivious; I know that most hate me and would rather hang around that pile of dung Kieran's horse left in the middle of camp. I have never been concerned with popularity, but it is hard to convince myself that it is the right choice.

I also wouldn't have to hide it anymore. There will be plenty more like me where I'm going, right?

I wish Ike the best of luck in life. I hope he's happy with his future bride, well hopeful bride, Mar-Marcia, I think. The pink haired pegasus knight with the brother that resembles that drunk jester I found on the side of the road...five years ago?

I hope Mist finds someone that she will be happy with. She needs to grow up first, but that besides the point. Titania and Boyd should have a great life together. Rolf, well he's too young to have to worry about settling down. How Oscar ended up with Kieran, I will never know, but no one seems to mind. I hope Gatrie, well there is no hope for him. As for Shinion, I hope he rots in hell, well if there is one.

I shall leave when he leaves. I will say no goodbye, it would be too hard.

So, this is how my life ends up, leaving everything I cared for, to go to an unknown place. I suppose I shall never know true happiness.

A/N: This was the product of biology class, nothing more can be said about it.

I've just noticed, I seem to be keeping Soren and Ike as far away apart from each other as I can. Smirks eviliy.

I'm also looking for a beta, so if you're interested, feel free to pm me or leave it in a review. I would prefer someone who isn't mortified by yaoi/yuri/het.