Prologue
September 1st
Dearest Mikado,
How are you! Doing great I hope, last I saw you, you looked rather exhausted. Well love will do that to you, one moment you're getting along and all is right with the world and the next its war and honestly with your condition it must be even more tiring for you.
This may amuse you but I'm kind of jealous, babies are so out of my reach right now and the chances of my having a child grow slimmer and slimmer each day. Yes, I'm still sick and I don't seem to be getting any better no matter how many doctors and witches look me over no one can find the exact problem. In our last letter I told you that I was taking over five different supplements, ha well now its seven and I've been put on a special diet. Veggies galore!
Its so bland! But if it gives Sesshomaru piece of mind, why not? Its gotten hard hiding it from him, the fact that I'm getting sicker. I think he can see it or smell it or something, he did say that my scent is different, softer more faint. I think that scares him, just another sign that I'm slowly drifting away from him.
Sometimes, when we're alone and I fall asleep he shakes me to get me to open my eyes, as if to say "I'm not dead yet." Sad right?
Everything is suffering because of me, luckily though the girls are being kept occupied with lessons and things of that nature, Sesshomaru has adopted my mentality, their human's they need all the education they can get. Mio has gotten in medicine and things like that, she thinks that she may be able to find a cure for me, I want to tell her that the only way for me to be healed is the Hikari No Ishi but I'd prefer that she held onto hope.
Rin is taking her book work very seriously, sometimes I joke that she may just become a scholar, she just smiles and falls right back into her books. She told me that if she reads a lot and learns a lot then pretty soon she'll be just as smart as Sesshomaru, I told her or at least as smart as Jaken this made her laugh.
Lana though, can't say what she does after her taught lessons are over, I know that she visits with Sango and Kagome a lot and then comes home tired and hungry, what do you think they may be doing?
Seeing everyone grow and learn makes me happy, when I'm gone I won't have to worry about them.
Inukimi is still here, not that it bothers me, she sneaks me real food. Much to the annoyance of my mate but he gets over it pretty quickly, he doesn't like to stress me with his stress so maybe he chews her out when I'm asleep or something.
He's been so patient, more so than I ever could be, he's the mate of a cripple. A highly attractive cripple, one that he cannot touch, whenever we try I think I disappoint him with my coughing and overall dismal performance. I'm weak and tired all the time, I can't do everything that I used to. Even the shaky warmth of my body turns him off in a way, sometimes he just stops and we lay there wondering about how amazing it could have been if I weren't so troublesome.
Well I'm going to end this before I get too worked up, hope to hear back from you soon and hopefully I didn't stress you out too much.
Love, Aya
November 18th
Location: The Bedroom
It's been five days and I haven't heard from him, he just left without a word to anyone, not even Inukimi can say where he has went. Maybe he's grown tired of me, sick of my constant moaning and groaning. I wouldn't blame him, he made a very big mistake making me his mate, maybe he's looking for another or perhaps already with another. I wish them all the best if that's the case but it hurts, I'm so lonely even though the girls are with me. I feel like a failure, I haven't even been mated for a year yet and I've already failed.
Mio and Rin don't fully understand the situation, they think he's been away on business but I know better, Jaken isn't even here to make excuses because he dragged him along as well and its well known that Sesshomaru does not travel with Jaken unless he's planning on being away for a while. Lana on the other hand, she's livid and nothing I say will calm her.
December 1st
Dear Kagome,
I'm sorry for sending them to you on such short notice but I think its time I took matters into my own hands, I need to at least try to save myself. Don't worry about Lana, or maybe you wouldn't since she's been training with you and Sango something I can't say I'm too happy about. She's coming with me, we're going to find the Hikari No Ishi.
Love, Aya
"Ay, do you think you can walk yet?"
Aya looks up from her place at the base of the tree she sat against, Lana quirks a brow walking over to her.
"Not yet Lana, just a little while longer." Aya says grabbing her long ponytail and running her fist down it, Lana nods turning back to the waterfall before them, Aya closes her eyes leaning her head again the tree. Little speckles of water hit her in the face cooling her body as she slowly drifts into sleep, Lana glances back at her sighing.
Aya had changed a lot in the seemingly short year since they'd found out about her sickness, she seemed softer but in a way more threatening. She wore a long high necked form hugging white kimono-esque dress and pant outfit with red accents, around her waist was many layers of red and rose colored cloth that hung from a brown built on her feet were brown matching boots and her waist length hair was tied up into a ponytail, and red earrings glittered at her ears.
"For someone so sick to be so put together." Lana mutters crawling over to her, she lays her head against Aya's arm grimacing at the heat coming through the long sleeves of the shirt.
"We have to get moving soon…ok Ay?" She whispers looking at Aya who still had not stirred, Lana turns away wiping at premature tears.
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