He doesn't remember what happened. One moment he's cruising along the highway hearing a large truck beeping behind him while he cursed under his breath about stupid truck drivers and their impatience. He was slowly starting to get pissed at the truck driver. Who the hell beeps at him so loudly for driving the speed limit? He was a freaking truck, couldn't he like, chill or something? All of a sudden, he stopped at the stop light and he felt something huge ram into his truck from behind, and straight to a tree before he blacked out.

Before he knew it, he was blinking slowly, a white light surrounding him. Was he in heaven? But god, he didn't remember any stories about heaven being a place where there was pain. Everything hurt. His head hurt, his arm hurt, breathing hurt, and God, why did everything hurt? He blinked again, and slowly everything began to take form. The light was white, the room was white, and he could see his legs under a light blue blanket. He turned his head a little, with great difficulty, but then he saw a familiar face.

"Mom." He croaked, his voice hoarse and dry. His arm was hurting like a bitch. Well, everything was hurting like a bitch really, but his arm especially. He lifted his left arm a little and saw that it was enveloped in a green cast, all the way up to his elbow. He broke his arm? Damn, how was going to play football now?

"Finn. Thank god you're awake. You've been asleep for almost one week and we've been so worried..." His Mom continues to ramble on and he zones out for a moment. He slowly assesses his injuries a little bit more. His chest hurts a bit, but when he moves a little, a sharp pain shoots up his side. He takes a deep breath and realizes that when he takes a deep breath, it really hurts. His arm was still in a cast, but his legs seemed fine. He tries to wiggle his toes and that's when he realizes it.

He can't move his toes.

Finn starts to panic a little. What the fuck happened to his legs? Why couldn't he move them? They were there. He could see them, under the blanket, but it didn't look like they had casts on them. But why couldn't he move them?

"Mom... Mom what happened to my legs? Why can't I move them, are they broken or something?" Finn asks, his eyes wide as his Mom's tears start falling again.

"I'm so sorry baby... The accident, your spine took a huge amount of damage and... and..."

His Mom didn't need to tell him what he was.

He was paralyzed.

He was speechless for a moment. Him? Paralyzed? No way. This shit didn't happen in real life. This shit happened in movies. He tried his hardest to will his legs to move and goddamit why couldn't he? The realization slowly began to sink in, and the more it sunk it, the more Finn wanted to deny it, to wish that it wasn't true.

"No...no... it can't be true. No! Mom, no! No! No! No! No! No!" It Finn started to trash around, his tears streaming down his face as the nurses started to rush in, his Mom backing away from his as the nurse injected a clear liquid into the IV line that was attached to his arm and before he knew it, he slipped into the darkness that consumed him, the last thought running through his mind was his dreams, suddenly being ripped away and broken.

All because of one car accident.

Carole exited the room tears flowing down her cheeks as she walked towards the waiting room, where Kurt and Burt were waiting. Kurt and Burt were just as devastated as her, but deep in her, Carole knew that nobody would be as devastated as her. She had watched Finn grow from his infant years, when he was just a chubby little baby, her perfect little thing, and grow into this amazing young man and it just killed her to watch him be in so much pain.

"Hey guys. He's awake." Carole said to them, their heads snapping up.

"Really? Is he okay? How is he? When can we see him?" Kurt said, rambling. Burt put a hand on his shoulder to calm Kurt down, waiting for Carole to speak.

"They had to sedate him. He freaked out when he found out he couldn't move his legs." Carole said as Burt began to rub her back slowly, tears beginning to leak once more from her eyes. She's cried so much over the past week, but for once she's crying tears of joy. She's so thankful that her baby is awake. It's been torture to just sit there and wait for him to move, while knowing that he might never move again hanging over your head.

"Am I allowed to go see him?" Carole nods and Kurt quickly moves out of their sight and into Finn's room. He was absolutely devastated to hear the news about Finn and flew the same day that he heard the news from Burt. It had been one of the scariest phone calls of his life.

Kurt was finishing up the paperwork that Isabelle needed for her next meeting when his cellphone started to ring. He sighed, expecting it to be Blaine and picked it up to tell him that he was working and that he should really stop calling. He pressed the green button on the phone, starting into his long excuse to get Blaine to stop calling him. Didn't he get that the wounds were still fresh?

"Look Blaine, I appreciate the effort but can you please stop calling I'm trying to work on something for Isabelle..."

"Kurt? It's not Blaine buddy." Kurt immediately sensed that there was something different about his Dad's tone.

"Dad? Is everything okay? Is it your heart? I told you to stop eating that chocolate cake that Carole keeps bringing home from the hospital it's not good for you..."

"I'm not calling about me, I'm fine."

"Is it Carole? Is she okay?" Kurt's heart started to pound a little fast.

"Yes, Carole's fine." Burt lets out a long breath. "It's Finn. He was hit by a drunk driver around two hours ago, he's in surgery now." Kurt's heart almost stopped beating. Finn was hit by a drunk driver? He was in surgery? How did Carole react? How is Rachel going to react? He began to stuff his things inside his messenger bag, ready to bolt from the office, but Kurt was unaware through that his Dad was still speaking.

"- A few broken bones, but his spine took the most damage. The doctors tell us that he might not be able to walk again..." Kurt tightened his hold on his bag, his knuckles turning white from the force of his grip. His stomach felt like it was doing olympic type somersaults and was ready to stick their landing out of his ass.

"Wait, Finn can't walk?" His Dad sighed, his voice sounding tired and heavy.

"Well, with intense physical therapy and some medication, it might come back, but the doctors haven't fully assessed the damage yet. Now, Finn told us about his and Rachel's no contact rule, so I think it would be best if we respected it okay? Finn will tell her when he's ready to tell her." Kurt nodded before realizing his Dad couldn't see him.

"Alright, I promise not to tell her, but I'm flying out tonight, I'll text you my flight details alright?"

"Son, you don't need to do that..." Kurt cut his Dad off immediately.

"Dad, that's my brother? I'll text you the flight details."

Kurt had gotten into the first plane out of New York and into Columbus, where his Dad was already waiting for him. They drove in silence to the hospital, Kurt silently praying for his brother, looking out the window and watching Ohio go by. Ohio was beautiful and it was great to come home, but he never wanted to be home for this reason. They got to the hospital in around an hour and they've been waiting on news for Finn for almost a week, alternating taking turns staying with Finn at the hospital. Finally, they had gotten some news, and Kurt was standing outside his brother's room, taking a deep breath.

He expected things to be different. For Finn to be awake and to respond to him, but he was still asleep, just like all the other days he's been watching him. He moved to his spot on the chair next to the bed and smiled at Finn, who looked as peaceful as ever. The room's silence though was broken by the shrill ringing off his phone and Kurt panicked, digging his phone out of his pocket and answered the call, not even bothering to check the caller ID.

"Hello?" Kurt whispered into his phone, glancing at Finn and making sure he didn't wake him. He needed his rest.

"Hey Kurt! Sorry, did I catch you at a bad time? Why are you whispering?" Rachel asked. Kurt cleared his throat and stood up, crossing the room and opening the door, stepping outside.

"Oh... I was... watching a movie with my Dad and he didn't want to be disturbed so I left the room."

"Oh that's fine! I was wondering, when will you be home, you've been gone for a long time." Rachel said in a sad voice as Kurt sighed.

"Yeah, I'm sorry. It's just... some family problems came up at home and it's kinda tiring all of us out."

"F-Family problems? Is everyone okay Kurt?" Kurt shook his head, knowing fully well that no, nobody was okay. Carole was a wreck, unable to stop crying. His Dad could barely keep his head together to work at the shop and he himself couldn't eat or sleep well knowing Finn was still in the hospital.

"Yeah, everyone's fine. How is everything there? Brody?" Kurt asked, hoping to deter her away from the topic of his family. Immediately, her voice pepped up considerably.

"Oh we're great! Brody's taking me to an off-Broadway show tonight, it's apparently supposed to be spectacular, though I beg to disagree after I heard about the storyline from June, my friend in dance class, and I also heard that their lead singer was..." Rachel continued to ramble on about her new boyfriend and Kurt spaces out, thinking of how Finn must have felt when he discovered that he couldn't move his legs. God, that must have been devasting. Finn was an athlete, a football player, a basketball player. He loved to bike and he loved snowboarding. He might have not been the greatest dancer, but he still liked to dance and he just had all of that ripped away from him in one go.

"... Kurt! Kurt are you still there?" Rachel's voice interrupted his thoughts.

"Oh, oh yeah sorry I spaced out."

"Kurt, are you really okay?" Kurt looked back into the room, watching as his brother slept peacefully, smiling at the serene look on his face, his mouth open and drool spilling from the side in a single drop.

"Yeah, everything's going to be fine."

Hey guys! I re-did chapter one cause I did not like it. Hopefully, you guys like this one better! Follow, review, add this story to your favorites, and most of all, enjoy!

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