A/N: I stole this idea from a twitter conversation; it's a great idea, so thanks to the awesome peeps that had it and agreed to let me steal it. Possibly a one shot, could be more. Read, review and enjoy.
For a while Kenzi had been observing things from a distance, she noticed a lot more than anyone gave her credit for, because she was always there, but not always noticed. She always picked up on the little things, the looks, the glances, the weird touching.
She'd known for a while that Tamsin had feelings for Bo. She hadn't been on-board the ship from the start, she hadn't liked Tamsin, they barely tolerated each other most of the time. But all that changed after the Valkyrie drove her truck off the cliff to try and save Bo's life.
After her rebirth Tamsin was different, she'd changed. When she came back from 'finding herself' she had an element of the bitch back, but she still had the warm, innocent, caring side that had developed while she had been 'growing' at the Clubhouse. The two had become pretty close in that time, and Kenzi so wanted to be aboard the Valkubus ship, but there was one thing holding her back. Bo.
There had been a lot going on with Bo since the black smoke took her, she had changed. Kenzi hadn't wanted to see it at first because Bo was her best friend, the first person she had ever really considered family. The first person who had made Kenzi actually believe that she could belong somewhere. She would do anything for Bo and had done many times, but her best friend had changed. She was selfish, self-centred and in many ways cold. The only time Kenzi had seen Bo genuinely smile since her return was Yule night, when they were standing out by the car talking to Tamsin. Her smile actually reached her eyes. There was something different about her that night. It hadn't taken Kenzi long to get the gossip about what had happened while the rest of them were stuck in the time loop. Kenzi had spent most of the night making out with Hale, over and over again. Dyson and Lauren had spent the night in Bo's bedroom with Vex; Kenzi really had no wishes to find out what had gone on there. Trick spent the night passed out in the bath. Bo had told her that Tamsin kissed her first. The second time was a mutual thing, and the third time was all Bo.
As much as Tamsin was now an adult, in Kenzi's eyes she was still all kinds of vulnerable. She had lost part of that tough outer shell she used to have; she was more open and honest about her feelings. But in Kenzi's experience that would only lead to pain in the long run. She really didn't think that Tamsin could deal with having her heart broken by Bo, it would drive her away from them all, and it would break her. As much as Kenzi loved Bo, she was all too aware of the Succubus's track record in love. She didn't want Tamsin being nothing more than another notch on her bedpost, the Valkyrie deserved so much more than that.
Kenzi was all too aware that Tamsin had been responsible for the Wanderer finding Bo, she knew all about the rune glass, the bounty. But that had been in a past life, heck taking the bounty in the first place happened so long ago that neither Bo nor Kenzi were alive at the time, Kenzi doubted even Dyson was around at that time. That Tamsin didn't exist anymore. Kenzi didn't really understand how Bo couldn't see that Tamsin had feelings for her; she had literally blurted it out in the bathtub while drunk. If a hot woman, drunk or not, basically tells you that you're perfect there's got to be something there.
Now Kenzi was sitting at the bar at the Dal watching, helplessly, as someone she cared about fell deeper and deeper in love with her best friend.
x-x
"Have you ever been in love?" Tamsin asked Kenzi.
"I thought I had," Kenzi said, drinking her drink, "but then I met Hale and realised I knew nothing about love. What about you? Do Valkyrie's do love?"
"As a general rule, no." Tamsin said, "But sometimes rules are meant to be broken right. Do you ever get the feeling that you've been waiting forever for someone to come along, someone so perfect that they shouldn't exist…?"
"This is about Bo…" Kenzi said, with a little laugh.
She didn't make it a question, because she already knew the answer.
"No it's not." Tamsin replied, her face turning ever so slightly red.
Kenzi couldn't help it, she smiled a little. Her little Valkyrie was all grown up, finally for probably the first time in any of her lifetimes, accepting love, opening herself up to love.
"Okay," Kenzi said, "so it's not about Bo… so we're talking hypothetically?"
"Have you been looking at Lauren's books again short stuff," Tamsin said with a laugh, "that's a long word for you."
"I'll have to know that underneath all this awesomeness there is actually a brain." Kenzi replied with a laugh of her own.
Months ago they wouldn't have been able to sit and talk like this, Tamsin was so guarded and Kenzi was always suspicious of her motives. Now Kenzi wouldn't change their relationship for the world. Tamsin growing up in an environment with feelings and honesty had changed her as a person, and Kenzi loved the woman she had become.
"So hypothetically speaking," Tamsin said, "have you ever felt that you've been waiting forever?"
"Well your forever is slightly longer than mine," Kenzi said, "hypothetically or not. I think we can go through our lives thinking we've found that one person who…"
"Completes us," Tamsin said, looking in the direction of the Succubus, "gives us the reason we need to fight, to survive… to live…"
Kenzi saw the look on Tamsin's face as she looked at Bo.
"But sometimes that person, who we think is so perfect, turns out not to be," Kenzi said, "everything we want with that person, no matter how good it may seem, might turn out to be something really bad for everyone."
"How can something that feels so right be so bad?" Tamsin asked.
x-x
"Where's Tamsin?" Bo asked as she walked into the Clubhouse, probably just getting back from another feeding session with some unsuspecting Fae.
"She's asleep," Kenzi said, "she hasn't been sleeping too well recently, in the last week or so…"
"Since the time loop thing?" Bo asked, grabbing a bottle of water and dropping herself down on the sofa next to the human, "might be some lasting effects from nearly being made into candy. I'll talk to Trick about it tomorrow."
"She loves you, you know." Kenzi said, realising that this conversation needed to be had.
"Who? Tamsin?" Bo asked with a little laugh, "She's a Valkyrie Kenz, they aren't exactly known for their feelings."
"How many other Valkyrie's have we met Bo," Kenzi asked, "all we know about Valkyrie's comes from books and the one that's sleeping upstairs. Hardly enough to form a generalised opinion on them as a species."
"If this is about what happened at the Yule party…" Bo started to say.
"It isn't," Kenzi said, "well it is, but it's not. She kissed you first, and you said it yourself it was more than just a kiss. She's vulnerable Bo."
"She's Tamsin." Bo said.
Neither of them knew that the Valkyrie was sitting on the stairs listening to their conversation.
"She drove her truck off a cliff to save you," Kenzi said, "She took a bullet for you. At the Yule party she got sucked into a wall by a crazy-ass candy making dwarf, for you. Are you starting to see a pattern here?"
Instead of answering her Bo just took a drink from the bottle.
"She's different to the Tamsin we knew Bo," Kenzi said, "she's got this innocence about her… her heart is on her sleeve this time around, without alcohol putting it there. And if you keep leading her on you're going to shatter her heart into a million little teeny tiny pieces. You're going to force her away."
"How have I been leading her on?" Bo asked.
"The third kiss at the party," Kenzi said, "you said it yourself, that was all you. You wanted to kiss her."
"I wanted more than that…" Bo replied, "And I know she did too… which is why I didn't follow her when she left."
"You care about her?" Kenzi asked.
"Of course I do," Bo said, "and I'm not stupid Kenzi, I'm a Succubus, I know when someone has feelings for me. Plus she kinda made it pretty obvious after the second kiss…"
"Don't break her heart Bo," Kenzi said, "don't add her to the Lauren and Dyson list. She's worth so much more than that."
Sitting on the stairs Tamsin pulled her legs up to her chest and rested her chin on her knees.
"I didn't intentionally hurt either Lauren or Dyson." Bo said, getting defensive.
"I know you didn't," Kenzi replied, "you can't help who you fall for, I know that. Heck I'm in love with a Siren. That's not really going to score me big points in the reputation game at the Dal."
Bo laughed. Most Sirens were women, Hale was different, he was special, and he meant the world to Kenzi.
"I don't want to hurt her Kenzi," Bo said to her friend, "I don't want to be responsible for breaking her heart… That's why I've been trying to keep my distance. But it's like the more I try and stay away from her the more she's there."
"It's hard to stay away from someone when they live in the same house." Kenzi said with a laugh.
"I like having her here," Bo said, "it's nice. She just has this way of making everything okay again, I mean; everyone knows I've been a little off for the last few weeks… Tamsin makes me feel like I can be me, no matter who I am. It scares me. It scares me that she makes me feel so safe, yet so conflicted at the same time. A few weeks ago she was sitting in the station eating a donut while me and Dyson flirted openly in front of her, and she innocently believed we really were talking about going shopping. Then just last week, when she kissed me… the world started to make sense again Kenz…"
"She's been waiting for you, you know." Kenzi said, "Earlier at the Dal she asked me if I thought that you could spend forever waiting for someone to come along, someone so perfect that they shouldn't exist… she basically said you complete her, give her a reason to fight, to survive, to live…"
"She said all that?" Bo asked.
Kenzi nodded.
"Wow…" Bo said.
"Don't hurt her Bo," Kenzi said, "unless you are sure she's what you want, don't go there. You get an itch; go somewhere else to scratch it. She's not there for you to feed on, to use when you're bored. She loves you more than life itself, that's worth so much more than a one night thing."
Kenzi stood up.
"And another thing," Kenzi said, "you hurt her, I will hurt you. I don't know how yet, but I will."
Bo smiled to herself as she watched Kenzi head up the stairs, she knew that the human meant every single word she said.
