Ok, here we go.

This isn't a new story.

Just a little something I think I needed to do.

I was sad when Whitney Houston die a year ago, but I didn't cry. I was devastated when Michael Jackson left us, but I didn't cry either. I don't think I've ever cry for anybody's death - famous or not -. I've never lose someone that I cared about and for that, I felt blessed.

Until yesterday when I woke up and learned that Cory Monteith was dead.

I laughed thinking it was some kind of sick joke.

I stopped laughing when I received a text from my best friend which was saying:

"I'm so sorry for your loss. I'm not a devoted gleek like you, but I know that Glee won't ever be the same without him."

I couldn't breath. I couldn't move. I just couldn't believe - I still can't- I don't want to believe it. My cellphone fell out of my trembling fingers and I bursted into tears. I cried for three hours before going to my room, lay in my bed and listen to my music.

I never thought that I would become so dependant of a TV show and so fond of its actors and characters. When I first saw Glee, I was like 'what the fuck is this?' and now, I'm like 'oh my fucking god, I can't live without it !'

Cory Monteith is one of the main reasons I became addicted to Glee.

I know that there wasn't a lot of people who liked Finn but I love him to death ! I guess he's like the big brother I wish I had, even if he can be a jerk, sometimes. But, honestly : who's perfect ?

Now, I can't believe that I won't see him smile that goofy half smirk of his that everyone is so fond of anymore.

Cory is one of a kind, he's unique. He's an amazing drummer, singer, dancer (in his own way) and actor. He's an amazing human being who isn't afraid to show his flaws, even make fun of it. I envy everyone who got the chance to meet him and to work with him : I hope you guys realize how lucky you are !

Today, all the fandom is devastated. Gleeks are mourning.

Again, I don't want to believe it. In this text, I didn't use the past when I talked about Cory. I guess I'm still expecting to wake up from that nightmare.

In Glee, Actually, Rory has that replique that I just love, which is "No Glue, No Glee."

Cory Monteith is the real 'glue' of Glee. And he'll be missed terribly.

My prayers goes to the Glee family (cast and crew), Cory's friends and family.

RIP, May 12th 1982- July 14th, 2013

CORY MONTEITH DIDN'T DIE : HE TOOK THE MIDNIGHT TRAIN GOING ANYWHERE;

"I've got the rest of my life to be a grown up. And for now, it's okay to be young." -Finn Hudson

A/N : ***bawling my eyes out*** Well, that was... emotional. I wanted to do something to pay tribute to Cory but this isn't enough. So if you guys have ideas, please tweet them to me ! My twitter is Kadi9497 or Cory's Girl.

If you don't have a twitter account, just review!

PS : I just saw Riker Lynch's tweet and it made me smile for the first time since yesterday

"In times like these, we have to remember to celebrate life. Think on the positive side :) "- Riker Lynch, on Twitter.