Rule one, The Doctor lies, that doesn't make him a bad person though, he has to. He is a man of many secrets, not even his oldest enemies know his name. He's changed me, and in turn I should change him. In Berlin I was murderous and vengeful; I thought he'd tore my family apart. It was almost as if he dropped out of the sky and it was crazy, he knew so much about me. I still can't believe I wasted so long wanting to kill him, it was part of my conditioning and if I'm honest, it's still a blur and that makes me feel sick. So hard not being able to remember my own childhood, but I like to count leadworth as part of my childhood. Enough thinking of the past now, I'm a different person, I'm River Song.