Disclaimer: All characters within belong to Kim Harrison.
My life had become so messed up over the years, "why had I wanted to see that black magic book in the first place?" I said, if I had never wanted it I would never have met Al and therefor never would have ended up dealing with demons.
I was standing in my kitchen finish up some spells, and going through a bought of self-loathing, "Rachel who are you talking to?" I spun around, startled. I let out a relieved sigh when I realized that it was just Ivy. "How many times have I asked you not to sneak up on me?" I asked exasperated. Ivy just smiled "sorry" I didn't believe she was sincere at all. Stupid vamp.
Ivy walked over to our big farm table and sat down at her computer. I always admired the way she moved, at first I was just upset that someone could have that much grace, but I have gotten over it, kinda.
I guess I didn't realize that I had been staring when she broke me out of my inner thoughts. "Rachel why are you staring at me like that?" I quickly glanced away my cheeks heating up with embarrassment. "I was just thinking about something." yeah you were thinking about her again. Gosh Rachel get your head together. I glanced back at her, she had one eyebrow raised, "sure" was all she said, she didn't believe me at all.
I went back to cleaning up I had placed my spell pot in the vat of salt water before rinsing at cleaning it. I have been having the weirdest moods lately; I keep thinking about... well my love life. This consisted of Nick, Kisten, Marshal, and Pierce. I had loved almost all of them, (I had never gotten to know Marshal long enough) but in the end they all left me, well Kisten didn't really leave but I had still lost him. Just thinking about it made me want to cry all over again. Why couldn't I find someone who loved me unconditionally?
That thought made me glance over at Ivy again, she was just clicking away at whatever it is she does on there. Ivy loves me, she has never left me, and she has been there through everything and no matter what she has never left. And I had always thought she was beautiful, but not I love you way! Just the way that any would notice... right?
Ivy must have sensed my inner turmoil that isn't normal when cleaning, "Rachel?" I didn't look at her "Hmm?" was my oh so amazing response, I risked a peak at her, she looked skeptical. "Are you okay? your emotions are all over the place." "I'm fine." "Rachel, you know you can tell me anything right?" was her frustrated reply. well I can't tell you about how confused I am, I can't tell you that I might love you but not in the friend way... well I could but I can't tell you because I don't know myself! I just nodded, Ivy let out a sigh, "okay Rachel, I will be in my bedroom if you need me."
I watched her get up out of the corner of my eye, I didn't want to admit it, but I liked watching Ivy, you might call it a guilty pleasure. She walked out of the kitchen into the hallway, I heard her door shut, then I slumped against the counter in defeat.
Why am I thinking like that Ivy isn't my guilty pleasure she's my friend and only my friend nothing more, I don't swing that way.
I finished cleaning and putting my spell pots and books away. When I heard the familiar clatter of wings. "Hey Rach, whacha doing?" "Just finished spelling, Jenks." he flew over to the table landing on it. I slowly followed him before sitting down in my seat. "You have to get ready to go to the everafter Al, will be here in 10 minutes." My head fell onto the table, I hate going to the everafter, why did I have to be such a stupid witch.
Maybe I should try and be more productive this time though. Al sometimes leaves me to finish some spell or to look up something in one of his demon texts; I could try and find out more information about Vampires. I have left the whole saving Ivy's soul on the back burner of my life for a little too long; I should probably get back to it.
"Thanks, Jenks" "sure no problem" he flew out the back window. The sun was rising I used to like the sunrise but now it just signified that I had a demon mark and a demon teacher I had to appease.
I made my way to my bedroom, dragging my feet as I went. I grabbed my bag and my leather coat, putting it on I sat down on my bed to put on my boots. After I had finished I left my room, I glanced at Ivy's bedroom door, "Ivy, I'm going now, see you tomorrow." I yelled through the door. I was about to continue on my way when her door opened, I turned back around, she was just standing in her doorway. "Be careful" she looked so worried I smiled at her "yeah, of course." she smiled but it didn't reach her eyes. "bye" was all she said, I felt guilty for leaving, but why would I feel guilty it's not like Ivy and I are a couple or anything. Just suck it up Rachel and get going, you're going to be late. "Bye" with that I turned and left,
Walking out the back door I pulled up my second sight, seeing if Al was here yet. He was. I dropped my second sight and walked over to him. When I was standing in the line he finally spoke, "well my itchy witch took you long enough" I was not going to apologize to him. He reached out with his hand and grabbed my arm. Without any warning I felt myself being pulled through the lines, I looked back at the church, wait Ivy is standing at the window. I raise my hand and wave; just before I disappear I see her wave back.
The feel of the lines running through me was uncomfortable as I felt myself being returned to a solid, I land awkwardly in Al's kitchen. Another day in the everafter.
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