After my parents died I thought that I would never be able to love again, but Damon changed that. His outlook on life changed mine. He was the love of my life but would I risk my human life to spend eternity with him? I wasn't sure yet but I did know I never wanted to lose him.

When I woke up I looked over and there he was; the most beautiful man I had ever seen. I couldn't help but stare, I couldn't believe I had found someone who I could love so much or that could love me so much. There was only thing I wasn't sure about, if I wanted to become a vampire to be with him forever. I knew I wanted to be with him forever but being a vampire could change the way I felt about him. And things were perfect right now; I didn't want anything to change.

"What are you looking at?" Damon asked.

"The most beautiful man I have ever seen in my life. The man I want to spend the rest of my life with. Then man I want to marry. The man I'm totally and completely head over heels in love with."

He leaned over and kissed me passionately. He pulled me closer to him. Our bodies got tangled. He unbuttoned my shirt slowly, kissing my stomach all the way down to my –

I wanted to make love to him but I was scared. What if I don't satisfy him? He had been with so many other women. What if I don't live up to his expectations? What if he hurt me?

Damon started to remove my shorts...

"Stop Damon. I can't do this right now."

"Why not? You love me right? What's the problem? I don't understand this Elena! You say you want to be with me but every time we get to this point you stop me! I don't understand!"

"Damon, I want to more than you can imagine but I just can't."

I looked at him and I could see the disappointment in his eyes.

"Elena, please talk to me. I love you."

"I'm scared!"

"Scared of what? Me?"

"Yes you!"

"Elena I would never do anything to hurt you. You know that. That can't be why you won't have sex with me."

"Yes it is. But what if I don't live up to your expectations what if I disappoint you."

"Elena you could never disappoint me. You're everything and more than I've ever wanted. I know that I've been with a lot of other women but none of them looked at me the way that you do. None of them kissed me with the passion that you do. It doesn't matter how many women I've slept with. All I want is you. I love you."

"I love you too."