My vision of him hasn't changed. Really, it hasn't!
Just...he seems to have lost his sparkle.
When we were kids, I secretly looked up to him. He was so cool! I went out of my way to be his rival, because I thought that having some sort of relationship -anything at all- with him would somehow make me cooler.
Now, I'm not so sure.
He's been the one thing propelling me forward, but somehow, I know he holds me back. I could be so much more, if my existence was entwined with his. But I'm powerless to resist, at this point. I'm so deeply entrenched and there's no going back.
I'm often told by others that I have my father's eyes.
He has his brother's eyes.
Does that really make us so different?
I look at him, and I see myself from years ago. Hating everything, simply because that's all I knew how to do. He's lost.
Everyone tells me to give up on him.
But...that would be denying my own past. After all, I had someone who never gave up on me. That's what saved me.
Is it so wrong to want to continue that legacy and save someone else?
Perhaps I'm the one that's really lost. Maybe I'm just looking for someone to find me. Maybe I'm seeking someone who's also very lost to make myself feel better.
Using him to make myself feel more worthwhile- now that's wrong. But I can't stop myself.
Somehow, my whole life has become about him. I act tough, but in reality, I'm not really much without him.
I told him that if it really came down to the two of us fighting it out, we'd both die. But I don't think I've got it in me to kill him. That'd be like killing a part of myself.
What do I do? What can I do?
I want to backtrack-figure out a different path, but I can't stop. And neither can he. So, if we continue to move forward at this feverish pace, why does it feel like I'm being left behind? Why am I the only one standing still?
Without him, there's no me.
Don't leave me. Please, don't leave me.
~0x0~
This was just practice. I wanted to explore Naruto's deeper side, since you don't get to see it a whole lot, and I already did a Sasuke POV. I might take this down later, I dunno. Tell me what you think?