Another Night Pondering
I could feel it.
The chakra under my skin.
Flowing to every part of my body.
I hate this.
I want this to be over.
It feels as if I'm covered in blood.
All those innocent lives I've taken.
I know what I'm doing.
Yet, I can't stop myself.
It slowly feels like I'm losing control over my body.
It's like there are chains in my mind.
Trapping me inside.
Soon I won't be able to break free.
Sakimaru?
Was he just an alternate personality of me created by Orochimaru?
I don't know, but he's gone.
I kinda miss him.
Even if it was just me.
So many things have changed.
And nothing can go back.
I wonder how long it will be before I lose complete control.
Deep inside of me, I want to lose control.
I don't want to do this anymore.
I want it to be over.
Naruto.
Sakura.
Sasuke.
Konoha.
Nothing will be the same.
I want to die.
I want to be free.
I'm tired of the feelings under my skin.
Sometimes it burns.
Sometimes it's cold.
Is this what Naruto feels?
I wonder how much he's suffered?
Does he feel what I feel?
If he does, I want to free him.
I want him to live a normal life.
Without having to worry about hurting those close to him.
But, that's impossible.
In order to extract the Kyuubi, would only result in death for Naruto.
He has to live.
He has to accomplish his dream.
Me,
I never had a dream to accomplish.
The moon is out.
I can hear my demon howl in the back of my mind.
Another day gone.
Another night arrives.
I allow the moon light to shine on me.
It's comforting, yet, painful.