I sat there staring at the cave wall. I can't believe this has happened. I can't believe I let it happen. All these years I was so careful. Now this. I looked down at my stomach. It was still flat for the time being. I knew that would change in a couple of months. It would slowly grow as the tiny life inside me grew. I smiled at that. That tiny little baby girl or boy that would be mine. My own child to take care of and love. I hoped they had Jared's smile.
Jared.
The smile faded off my face as I imagined his reaction. Hadn't he always said that he didn't ever want to bring a child into this world as it was? Didn't he say t would be the cruellest thing to do? And yet, here I was smiling and fantasising about it. I'm a horrible person. I'm going to be a horrible mother... oh god maybe I can convince doc to get rid of it? Maybe... maybe I wouldn't have to... tell Jared...
I broke down into tears right there in the middle of the bathroom. Damn hormones. They don't make it any easier for me! I walked over to the wall I was staring at and punched it. Hard. The skin on my knuckles split and blood ran down my hand. Not that I noticed. I was too busy sobbing, thinking the dark thoughts that I had never hoped to have to think about. Killing a child was always something I had condemned yet here I was, deciding whether I should or not. What if Jared tells me to get rid of it? What if he told me he didn't want to be with me anymore? What if...
My thoughts were interrupted by a small voice at the back of the cave. "Mel?" I heard quick footsteps behind me before I turned around and looked straight into Wanda's silver rimmed eyes and broke down again crying into her abnormally small frame on her shoulder. "Shh Mel what's wrong? What's happened?" She sounded so worried. I hated that I had made her sweet voice sound that way. It didn't sound right in her new body. She had only had it for two months but it still took some getting used to, by everyone.
"Oh Wanda," I moaned into her shoulder miserably. "Jared is going to kill me. Everyone here is going to hate me. Why did I have to do it? Why couldn't I just keep my hands to myself?"
It took her a moment to reply but when she did she sounded even more worried. "Mel, you're not making any sense."
"I – I'm p-pre..." I couldn't even bring myself to say it aloud. Saying it aloud made it true. I didn't want it to be true because I didn't want to have to tell Jared. I started sobbing again hard. Too hard. I turned back to the small river and began gagging falling to my hands and knees.
Wanda kneeled beside me looking at me with worry but also a thoughtful face trying to make the connection that her memories had never seen or heard of before. I could almost see the cogs in her head turning as she sifted through Pet's memories. I pulled back a little wrapping my arms around my knees. Suddenly I saw a flash of realisation spread across her face. Then jealousy, then worry. Clearly she remembers my memories with Jared too. She moved in closer to me and whispered, "Mel, are you pregnant?" It made me shiver to hear someone else say it, especially Wanda. I nodded slowly still unable to open my mouth out of fear of throwing up. I started shaking waiting for her reaction.
I didn't expect the strong arms to wrap around me two minutes later. It was not Wanda's voice I heard but Jared's concerned one. I froze in his arms going stiff. No no this was not happening I wasn't ready to face him yet. "Mel?" he whispered in my ear. "Mel, what's wrong?" I shook my head, glad that he hadn't heard Wanda's question to me. His hand came up and cupped my chin pulling my face to his slowly. He searched my eyes for a moment before wiping away my tears. The tenderness he held made me want to break down even more. I knew that his gentle nature wouldn't last. Not when he knew what I'd done... what we'd done. I smiled a little comforted by that thought. Jared and I... our beautiful baby. I leaded into his hand slightly, wishing he would hold me and tell me everything would be okay. That we could do this, together. But I knew he wouldn't. If he knew he'd recoil, repulsed by me... just like when I first came here with Wanda.
I began shivering at the thought of the angry Jared. My face tingled a little as I recalled the moment he'd slapped me. I did not want that Jared back. I loved my Jared. The happy Jared who could laugh about anything and just feel happy that he'd found another human being. The guy who went back out for hours looking for my bracelet when I'd lost it in the sand outside the caves. The man who took one look at me after I'd woken up a human once again and swore that if it were possible he'd marry me right now, just to make me his because he didn't want to ever loose me again. The man who swore he would stop at nothing to keep me with him, alive and happy.
Suddenly I felt his arms wrap around my body and lift me up to carry me bridal style out of the washroom caves. I leant my head on his chest and let him carry me back to our room. He laid me softly on the bed before laying beside me and twirling my (now long again) hair around his finger. The calming movements of his hand coupled with my overly high emotions made my eyes begin to droop before I drifted to sleep... I would have to tell Jared tomorrow that I was, once again, pregnant.
AN; this is my first story on the host so you'll have to bear with me... i just wanted to read a story where mel was the pregnant once, not wanda for a change so i decided to write one :). hope you like it, dont forget to drop a review :)