A Night To Regret

Background: Martin had moved in the beginning of November in to Sam's old apartment. They were now officially a couple; an "item" and now they were going to get married. Martin proposed to Sam in a romantic Thanksgiving dinner. The engagement is a secret, only Danny knows. It is a week before Christmas.

Disclaimer: Unfortunately I do not own any of the characters  but I do own the plot!  Muahahahahah!

Authors Note: My first fanfic YEAH! I love M/S so please read and review cuz I need major help! And also see if I should continue the story!

Sam and Martin drove home to their home in silence. Sam massaged Martin's hand; she knew he was obviously upset by the day's case. Tears rolled down his cheeks as she parked the car. He got out and Sam embraced him in a full hug. She slowly kissed the tears that rolled down his face. She hated seeing him this vulnerable, and he hated being that vulnerable. She slowly opened the apartment door. Martin immediately went into the kitchen, "You want anything, Sam?"

"Tea will be fine, thanks," she sat down turning on the fireplace. Martin came back in, his eyes filled with sadness and tears, his hands filled with two beers and a big mug of tea for Sam.

The case that day had been about the disappearance of two girls from a school bus stop, the same bus stop that his nieces use. Martin had found both girls dead in a dumpster, the eldest beaten and raped, and the younger strangled.

"They were so young…" Martin started sobbing as he lay down on the couch, his head on Sam's lap. Sam gazed into his eyes full of sadness and remorse.

"Shhh… I know, I know." She held him tight just as he had done for her many a night. Martin began calming down and enveloped her in a soft, but passionate kiss. Sam could taste the beer on his breath. She looked down and saw the two empty beer bottles. Martin looked up and saw Sam's beautiful engagement ring hanging around the necklace on her neck.

"You know what I think Sam?" Martin slurred his speech looking up at Sam. "Hmm…what do you think?" Sam answered playfully looking at his drunken state.

"I think we should get married." He said lazily while looking into her eyes.

She just laughed it off "We already are!" She took her engagement ring off her necklace, and slid it on her finger and clasped hands with Martin.

"No!" Martin shouted, shocking Sam. "No! Why can't we get married during Christmas! Why won't you tell anybody about out engagement? Are you ashamed of me? That must be it; I'm just the rebound back from Jack. I understand! You're too ashamed of me!"

Sam stared shocked into Martin's cold betrayed eyes. She stood up, running to her room crying. Martin grabbed her wrist and pulled her back down onto the couch.

" Oh my god, I'm so sorry!" Martin sobbed trying to make it up to Sam. But Sam just stared into his loving remorseful eyes, and he stared back between his tears and saw the stone cold look in her eyes, as she relived her memories of abuse from her drunken father. She got up and ran back to the room.

"Damn it!" Martin screamed punching the table, he grabbed his keys and left hearing Sam sobbing as he left the apartment. He drove to the only place he could think of at one in the morning, Danny's apartment.

"Danny! Open up its Martin!" A half asleep Danny slowly came to the door, "Wow! What's wrong?" Martin was drunk, his hair disheveled, and tears streaming down his face.

"Where's Sam? Did you guys have a fight?" Martin walked over and sat on the couch. "It's worse than that, I hurt her!" A worried look came over Danny's face; Martin knew that Danny was like a big brother to Sam.

"I was drunk, I don't know what happened, and I just remember her getting up and trying to run to her room. But I grabbed her wrist and pulled her down onto the couch. And the look in her eyes, she must have thought I was like her father! I love her Danny!" Martin was shaking uncontrollably; Danny had never seen his friend in such a vulnerable state. Danny grabbed his keys and went out the door to check on Sam.

"Sam! Open up! It's Danny!" Danny said knocking on the door to the apartment. Sam came to the door. Her face showed no expressions but her eyes showed into her soul. She was sad, betrayed, hurt, and Danny knew Martin was the cause of all of this. Danny scooped her into a great hug but Sam just shrunk away.

"Do you want anything to drink?" Sam asked trying to sound cordial.

"Sam, he really cares about you. He doesn't even remember what happened. But are you okay?" Danny glanced at her wrists; light bruises were beginning to show. "He did those didn't he?" Sam could only nod.

Danny looked deep into her eyes, "You know he didn't mean it. He loves you so much; he would never want to hurt you. He's over at my apartment sobbing because he knows what he did. Your father never cared, but Martin is at my house about ready to jump off a bridge because of what he did to you. He realizes it and regrets everything he did. Please Sam, you guys were so happy together. I have never seen you or Martin as happy as you guys have been. Please Sam you have to forgive him." Danny took a deep breath. Sam just looked at Danny. She needed to think about this for a while. "I'll get a bag together with his overnight things."

She slowly walked to their room. She grabbed Martin's suits, pajamas, and proceeded to the bathroom to get his toiletries. She opened up the cabinet and started grabbing Martin's cologne when she looked over and saw the pregnancy test (still in it's original packaging) she had bought earlier that day. She hadn't wanted to talk to Martin about her situation until that night. 'Now I might never have the chance,' she thought. She walked out with her eyes tearing. She saw Danny looking at the picture that sat in front of the couch. It was their best picture together; Martin had his arms protectively wrapped around her and she stood smiling up at him, it had been taken during the 4th of July at Martin's Uncle's house. "Here you go," she said handing the bag to Danny, "it has all of his stuff that he will need for work tomorrow." She smiled meekly at Danny. "He loves you, you know." Danny said walking at the door. Sam turned and looked at the clock that said 2:27 am. She walked over to her bed and cried herself to sleep.

Martin woke up and looked around. Suddenly his hangover and last night's events hit him. He groaned, not only for his headache, but for what he had did Sam. "Good Morning Pal!" Danny sung from the kitchen. 'He must be a morning person' cursed Martin. "Come on, you have half a hour before work." Martin just groaned and grabbed his bag off the floor. He walked into the bathroom and stared at himself in the mirror. 'Sam doesn't deserve me, look at me, I'm a drunken slob.' He took a shower and changed into his clothes, everything reminding him of Sam. He sorrowfully dragged himself into the kitchen. Danny saw the misery in Martin, "Ready for work?" Martin groaned, he didn't want to have to face Samantha.

Meanwhile, Sam knocked her alarm clock off the table. She turned over hoping to be greeted by Martin's warm hug and morning kiss, but she just stared at the empty space next to her. 'How can I face Martin today? I know he's sorry and he loves me, but what about me and possibly a baby.' She just groaned and dragged herself to get ready for work.

Sam dragged herself into work. She didn't feel well, her stomach was upset, and she had had barely any sleep the night before. 'How did I let my self get this way over a guy? Actually I know why. Because I love him.' She just shook her head and put her things down at her desk. She glanced at the picture of her and Martin that she had taped up on her computer screen. Suddenly she felt somebody behind her. "Good Morning Samantha," said Vivian, "ready for a day of paperwork?" Sam just groaned and mumbled back a reply. She didn't feel very social today. Vivian looked at Martin who looked absolutely awful. 'Something has happened between them' Vivian always had a sixth sense about people's emotions, especially when it came to Martin. They all had to file the paperwork from the case the night before.

" Hey Viv!" Samantha called from her desk, "Do you have the credit card files from the case?" Vivian walked over and handed her a stack of papers, "I believe Martin has the other half." Vivian watched her wince at his name and then quickly pull down the sleeve of her jacket.

" Do you want to go for lunch later, Viv?" Samantha asked with a hint of plea in her voice. Right now, Vivian is the only person she could bare to talk to. "Of course sweetie." Vivian reassuringly patted Samantha's arm. She could feel her immediately tense up under the touch. Sam immediately returned to her work. On the computer screen was the picture of them with Martin's cousins. 'I was so happy. Martin would be such a great father' Her eyes began to tear as she ran off to the bathroom. She heard someone coming after her. She turned around and saw…

PLEASE! Read and review! My first fanfic! YAY! Also reader's poll: Whom does she see? Martin, Danny, Vivian, jack, or some random robber dude?