Fumbled Explanations and Relationships
"Come on Moony! Just one??" whines a very miserable Sirius, gazing down at his friend who lay beside him, showing only his back. "No Padfoot, I'm not giving you a goodnight kiss. You don't deserve it." Remus glared at the wall of their dorm as he spoke, his arms folded over his chest in a defiant position, irritation and hurt visible on the features of his face. Sirius groans trying to wrap his arms around his partner only to be denied a pout forming on his lips. "Aw Remus, you can't still be mad! I swear she came on to me! Please Rem," he shifts so he's laying over the young werewolf, their hands linked together and fingers entwined as his soft lips run over the delicate skin of Moony's cheek. "I care about YOU… Not here… I've been with you A LOT longer than Andréa Parkinson…" The young wolf's eyes widen slightly as he feels the soft touch of Sirius' lips on his skin and he turns away biting his lip to hold back a sigh of pleasure. "Then… Why did you kiss her back…?"
The kisses that Sirius was giving stop slowly and he looks down at Remus. "What…?" he uttered softly, his arms slowly wrapping around Remus' waist. Moony slowly glances up at him, his eyes glowing as he lays his hands on Sirius' chest slowly pushing him away. "I said why did you kiss her back…?" The young wizard didn't know how to respond. The man that he deeply adored and was by his side since first year, asked him a question that he did not know how to answer.
Why did he kiss his ex-girlfriend back…?
Why did he feel like he was flying when he kissed her as he had when they had first snogged on the Gryffindor Common Room couch…?
"Well…? Why did you kiss her back…?" repeated Remus, his lovely brown eyes glowing more, hurt surpassing the irritation no his face. In complete despair and confusion of how to reply, his eyes narrow gazing down upon his the features of his lover. "Uh… Well, I… I don't quite… know…"
Before he could be stopped, Remus gets up quickly, pulling his shirt over his head and stands swiftly, turning away from Sirius while buttoning up his shirt. "Remus…?" Sirius whispers looking at him with sorrow and confusion as he sit up. The werewolf shakes his head continuing to stare at the floor as he spoke. "Save it… If you don't know why you kissed your ex-girlfriend or don't think it important enough to tell me why, then I guess you don't care as much as you say…" Remus grabs his cloak, throws it on and quickly moves over to the door, Sirius right at his heels. "Remus! Come on Moony, you don't really want to leave!" He growls as his partner continues to ignore him and made no response gripping his shoulder tightly to stop him. "Moony please listen to me - -!!"
SMACK
Time seemed to stand still… Everything felt as if it had lost all color and feeling along with it… Sirius gazed to the side with wide eyes, Remus' hand still in the air after making contact with the young man's cheek. The red mark still burned on his face. Finally, Remus broke the long drawn out silence, speaking softly his voice shaking, as he grows closer to shedding tears. "Don't… Touch me…I thought we had something… but I guess… I was mistaken… Goodbye Sirius Black… I hope you enjoy the rest of your life…" After that final word he turns quickly and moves out of the common room, his billowing cloak the last part of him that reached Sirius' eyes, the pain that was reflecting in his lover's lovely brown orbs etched in his memory as he falls to his knees gazing down at the floor as tears start to stream down his cheeks slowly dripping onto his pant legs.