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Dwelling Amongst the Living
(Sequel to Laying Amongst the Dead)
NOTE: I'm not sure if I like this starting point, yet, so bare with me. I need you guys to tell me if you like it or if I should toss it. I love you guys so much. Thanks for all your help and lovely reviews. Any pointers as to how I should start out will help so much and be greatly appreciated. Love yas.
Dee Zuki
Chapter One
I laid in the middle of the black silk covered bed and laid beneath the man that tricked me into becoming his mate. I felt him move and looked over just in time to see him raise his head and meet his black eyes with mine. He smiled and revulsion hit me so hard that I had to look away. It was times like these that made me wish that God would just kill me and get it over with. Being with…HIM was slowly draining me away. I was slowly sinking into the dark part of the back of my mind and giving into his wants, his needs, his every whim and desire.
I shuddered when he placed his lips against my shoulder, his breath cool against my heated skin. "It is not as bad as it seems, little love," he whispered, looking up at me from my shoulder, a wistful look filling his eyes.
I felt my heart sink into my stomach when I recalled that look on someone else's face when I was taken into hell. I felt a sob claw its way up my throat, but I clamped my mouth down to keep the keening noises inside me. I would not cry. I couldn't cry. Not now, not when HE was watching me so closely. Gazing up at me with love plain in his black eyes.
I looked away and wrapped my arms around his shoulders, a tear sliding from my eye and vanishing into my raven colored hair. He changed so much for me just to make me happy. Just so he's be able to at least show me how deep his love went…but it wasn't his love that I was wanting. It was someone else's.
"I'm sorry, Kagome," he whispered, burying his face in the hock of my neck, "if I could change things…I would, but I can't and I'm sorry for that."
I blinked in surprise and tightened my arms around him when I felt something wet hit from shoulder and roll down, dripping off my back. I felt my eyes water as I hugged him to me as if I were a dying woman and he my only lifeline. It was the first time I've ever seen him cry, well, felt him cry, and it was the first time that he had ever said sorry. He never showed remorse or guilt, but now…he was quivering with it. Trembling in his silent sobs against my body, guilt and pain radiating from him in waves that nearly suffocated me.
I stroked his short black hair and felt the silkiness of it against my palm. He had done so much just to take all the pain he caused away. He even…stopped being Death for me. He changed his name, his appearance, everything…for me and I gave him nothing back in return.
"If you want," he paused, clearing his throat, his voice so thick with tears that I sobbed, "I'll go away. I leave and you can find another lover…whether or not you're mine," he murmured against my throat.
I stilled and the thought of him leaving me here, of all places, scared me. "No," I breathed, my voice so hoarse and faint. I sounded as if I hadn't used it in a long time…and I hadn't.
He stiffened against me, his breath stilling as his heart skipped a beat against my naked chest. He pulled back gingerly, slowly, as if he were afraid that I would slip back into my nothingness. The emptiness that had consumed me until now.
His black eyes rose above mine and I saw the wavering tears hanging to his black eyelashes. "Kagome?" he asked, touching me cheek, fear swirling up in his dark eyes. But just below the fear was a flame of hope burning bright there, burning bright in all that blackness.
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Well, that's my first chapter for the sequel to my last story, Laying Amongst the Dead. As I said above .. I'm not sure how I like the new beginning yet. This just sort of came to me and I kind of liked the idea, but I'm still kind of iffy. Say yah or nah to it and tell what you think of this spiffy new chapter. I love you all so much.
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