Death Sentence
Warmth and light ahead
Darkness and cold behind
I find myself turning my back against the former
to be speared by frigid fingers
For choice was taken from me
that fateful day years ago
with a thoughtless action
It sealed my fate.
As my feet carried me
as I trudged onto the dreaded path
The pain of death filled me
Haunting memory assailed me
guilt and regret so overwhelming
and I thought…
What if…
What if I had never turned away
What if I had cared
What if I had confronted
instead of running away
Those what ifs were slowly buried
by the dust of time
becoming wistful if onlys
and thoughts of what could've been
Perhaps fate would not be so cruel
Perhaps everything would be much better
Perhaps all could be different
and suffering be never
But Realisation has proven
much too late
So now unto my death
I was, am and will be
doomed to bear
this burden of pain
as punishment
For all that I did
For all the pain I caused
For this…
Repentance be never an option
Acceptance mine never be
Love of my kin fornever felt
Pain of memories' remembrance be eternal
Even as life giving blood spill out of me in torrents
My smile must never crack under the strain of sorrow
As acting has been the destiny of my life
so I let others' dislike pour unto me
Yet powerless to correct their views on me
And tears never to be shed
For deserve to cry I never did..
A/N: does this suit ayame's character?Its supposed to be aya's thoughts when he's dying…argh…at first it seem ok now it sux…someone please give me some ideas on how to improve it…ermm..i know it's too much to ask but..please review..(shows puppy eyes)
by the way...this poem (if u can classify it as that)is done when i was in depression...so dum mind...even i know it sux...