Chapter One Boy issues

I was in my senior year of high school. My friends were Alice, Emily, Leah, and Rachel. I didn't like Rachel at first, but once I got to know her she wasn't that bad. Rachel and I didn't get along at first, but now we all were very good friends. We all like to hung out and go to the mall to shop and Go to the movies to see a movie once in a while.. We also like talking about boys that we like.

Alice and I grew up down the road from each other. It was nice; we were like sisters. She was always over at my house or I was always at her house. She knew most of my secrets and I definitely knew hers But that started to change when she met my older brother, Jasper

My brother thinks he's in love with Alice. She's a very shy girl and had never actually had a boyfriend before. That makes me afraid that Jasper is going to hurt Alice, but I was getting tired of Jasper asking me to ask Alice out all the time so I told him to go for it

My love life was awesome. I had two all-star jocks in the palm of my hand: Edward, and Rachel's brother, Jake. Edward played basketball and hockey, and Jake played baseball. Two all-star jocks. Yeah, you heard me: two jocks in the palm of my hand.

Edward's brother is Emmett. He's easy to love, except he's engaged to Jessica . (I was surprised that she said yes to him.)

But life wasn't perfect.

Mike Newton, a total dork, has a crush on me.I can't say anything bad about him since we are all friends, but his girlfriend, Rose, is a first-class peach...not.

I play softball and field hockey, at least I did until I found out that I was pregnant. I told you, life isn't perfect.

You see, I had been with Sam since 7th grade; but in my freshman year we had a fight because I wanted to go college and Sam didn't want me go to college for some reason. that's why we had our fight. He wanted me to stay here, but I wanted more out of life. My goal is to be a teacher. I know the pay isn't great, but I love kids. Sam wants to be waiter. My dad told me that Sam was useless and he's right; waiters only make eight dollars an hour and plus tips. Anyway, our relationship came to an end after that fight. So it was time to move on with our lives. But Sam and I are still friends.

Jake and Edward will be going to the same college as I am They are both more serious about an good education, like me.(*) I think it is a competition to see who gets me first. They are always arguing over me

One day after a game , Alice told me that Jake and Edward were arguing over who would take me to the prom. I fooled them because I asked Alice if I could borrow Jasper and we made it a group date. Jake and Edward showed up, too. It was fun to get them back it was fun. I usually am not like that, but they both our fighting over me. By the end of the prom I ended up with Jake, and Edward was very disappointed.

Some people think Edward is no good because he was in juvenile hall for badly injuring a little girl when he was only 15 years old . He had stolen a car while he was drinking, which he was underage in the first place, He took off like a bad out of hell, he didn't pay much attention to where,So he hit the young girl and took off a few miles down the road, His buzz wore off by than, that's when he realize what he done, so he turned around and headed back to the girl to try to save her,he tried to save her but when he did, the cops were there ,that's when he got arrested. I know my parents. That's why I know my parents won't let me be with him. Phil and Rene won't accept him, and that's how I ended up with Jake. I not saying Jake is perfect; he was busted last year for underage drinking. My parents don't know that because they wouldn't go for him either. They really wanted me to date Mike. I am Miss Prim and Proper. I never got into trouble until this year when I went to a friend's party and made a mistake. I got knocked up

Yes, I am pregnant. I haven't told my parents yet. I haven't told Jake yet. I don't know what to tell Jake, but the only reason I would stay with Jake is for the baby. I really want to be with Edward and it will break his heart to know that I am pregnant with Jake's baby.

Alice is going with me to the doctor, she's the only one that knows . I can't tell Rachel because she is Jake's sister. I want to wait for the perfect moment to tell Jake. Maybe he will tell Edward. I can't bear to tell Edward myself.

I can feel the tension in my body when I mention both names. I just want to be happy. Am I happy now? I don't know. My life is going to be upside for a long time. I don't know if I want to keep the baby or have an abortion. I'm only 18 yrs old. I'm supposed to be heading out for college in a few months. I might never get my degree now.

But let's get to the present day. I was on my way to the library to study for a big test when I heard someone call my name. I turned around and, sure enough, it was Edward. He followed me to the library.

" Bella, what's wrong ?" he asked.

" Oh, sorry Edward. I was just thinking about something," I answered.

"Is everything okay with you and Jake; you know you are always welcome to be with me," he said

"Yes, I know, but my parents won't accept you," I admitted.

"No matter whatever is bothering you, you can tell me Bella," he said.

"No, I'm fine."

"You don't look so okay.

"I am just tired; I was up most of my night studying and thinking," I went back to my studies. I didn't have time to to talk; I needed to keep my grades above a C or else I won't be able to go to the college that I want to attend . Edward looked over at me and smiled. I wanted to tell him what was wrong, but I was afraid that he would be upset with me. Edward and I were closer now than we ever were.

"Bella, please tell me , I can tell something is wrong and that something is bothering you."

"Edward listen; I am fine."

"Fine. Be that the way," he said.

" Please Edward," I begged

" I though were were close."

"We are close. It's that I don't want to talk about it." I looked down at my textbook.

"Do you want me to come over tonight?" he asked.

"I can't; I am going somewhere with Alice," I answered.

"How about later when you get back?" Edward asked.

" Look , I have to study for tomorrow's test."

I tried to ignore Edward; I could feel his foot playing my mine. When he put his arm around me, I wanted to kiss him and I did. I shouldn't have kissed Edward. Yeah, I know I am dumb. When I pulled way from him there stood Alice. She looked shocked. She pointed her finger at me. I just looked at Edward and back at Alice. She grabbed my hand and walked me out to the hallway.

"What in hell are you doing?" she asked

" I couldn't resist," I answered truthfully. "Jake's not here."

"Good thing or he will kill Edward," Alice said.

"Alice, just calm down; it was only one kiss

"You can't go out with Edward; your parents will kick you out ."

"Yes, I know, so it's better if no one know what just happened," I said, as Edward walked out of the library

Later, I wasn't feeling that greatest. At the doctor's office, I was my nervous, and I had to wait for a little while before I could be seen. I kept thinking about things, like how I didn't eat much of my lunch because Edward was staring at me . I know I was looking at him too but... And then there was the library. I didn't know why I kissed him. Maybe because my boyfriend wasn't there or maybe I really wanted to break up with Jake. How would that be fair to Jake; it is his child that I'm carrying?

Alice and I were reading parenting magazines when the doctor's assistant called me in to the exam room. Alice came along with me. I looked over at her and smiled. She didn't smile back as she sat down.

"So Isabella , how have you been?" the assistant asked.

"Well, I have been okay. Just tired and miserable," I answered.

"Yeah, she has been," Alice chimed in.

"That's normal for a pregnancy," the woman said

"It is?" I didn't know

"Yeah, everyone that comes here during their pregnancy says that."

I just looked over at Alice and shrugged my shoulders. Alice nodded and smiled at me for the first time since she saw what happened in the library. I was starting to regret kissing Edward. I don't know why I even did it, but it is all over and done with so I should stop thinking about it.

"The doctor will be in to see you in a few minutes," the assistant said before she walked out of the room

Neither Alice nor I said a word. It was strange; usually Alice talked my ear off, but this time she didn't. A few minutes later Dr. Charlie came in with a warm smile.

" Hey Bella, how are you today?" he asked

"Tried and grumpy," I answered

"Yeah I know , so your here for a check up."

"Yeah, but my parent don't know," I said.

"Yeah, she is afraid to tell them the news." Alice had to open her mouth.

" You didn't tell your parents yet?" he asked.

" No, I am not going to until I tell the father of the baby," I replie

"Have you made up your mind about what your going to do?" he asked, as he checked my vital signs

" I want to keep the baby but sometimes I don't." I answered.