Inspired by Far from Home by Hinder

I do not own Criminal Minds

You said I'm always saying sorry for the same old things

Morgan gave me that look. You know…the one that says you're babbling, kid, shut up already. "…Sorry."

"What for?"

"For boring you."

"I've told you before, there's no need to apologize."

I'm sorry for the drugs and how much I drank

"I'm sorry I'm weak."

"You're not weak, Spencer. No one could resist that drug."

"I had the choice of leaving the drug or taking it. I stole drugs from a dead man!"

You said I say it so much it doesn't mean anything
I'm sorry, my love, but I had to leave

Derek,

I'm sorry. I know that it probably doesn't mean anything anymore, but I'm sorry.

I need to leave for a while.

Spencer

I hope most of you will never know what it's like to let a love go
Leaving everything at home, everything you've ever known

"What do you mean he left?" Rossi asked.

"He just up and left. He left a note saying sorry and that he was leaving for a while. He left everything. All his books, clothes, shoes, furniture," Morgan said.

I can't fix this from a phone
I'm sorry you feel so alone
It's like I told you, "You're better off without me, I'm sick of saying sorry."
So far from home

Derek's calling. Again.

"Look, Derek, you can't fix me. The team is better off without me messing things up. I'm sick of being weak and getting myself into trouble."

You keep calling and complaining that I just don't care
Would you say that if I was there?

"Don't you care about us? JJ and Garcia are heartbroken. Emily, Hotch and Rossi don't show it as much but they are upset too," Derek said.

"And you?"

"I want you to come home, Pretty Boy."

It's that picture you keep painting that's causing your tears
I could set you straight if you were here

I'm weak. I'm weak. I'm weak. It kept going like a mantra in my head as I stared at myself in the cracked mirror.

I hope most of you will never know what it's like to let a love go
Leaving everything at home, everything you've ever known

Sliding down the wall of the motel, I started to sob. God, I missed them all so much. But I couldn't go back.

I can't fix this from a phone
I'm sorry you feel so alone

"Keep him on the phone, Derek. We're tracing his call this time. My baby genius needs to come back," Garcia ordered.

It's like I told you, "You're better off without me, I'm sick of saying sorry."
I don't want to string you along
And that's why I'm letting you go

"Pretty boy, come home. We miss our boy genius. We'll help you."

"I don't want to bring you down with me. No one needs to take the fall for me."

It's like I told you, "You're better off without me, I'm sick of saying sorry."
So far from home
And you don't know how many times I talked to you
And I can't count how many fights I fought with you

All those talks with Derek did they mean anything?

Do they know how much I love them?

I don't want to string you along
That's why I'm letting you go
It's like I told you, "You're better off without me, I'm sick of saying sorry."

I can't fix this from a phone
I'm sorry you feel so alone

"I GOT IT! He's in a motel!" Garcia screamed.

It's like I told you, "You're better off without me, I'm sick of saying sorry."

"We are not better off without you. We are so worried. Come on home, kid."

I don't want to string you along
That's why I'm letting you go
It's like I told you, "You're better off without me, I'm sick of saying sorry."

"You're better off without me. Goodbye, Derek," I said, shooting up the amount that I figured would make me overdose.

So far from home

As I slipped into the blackness, I wondered how long it would take them to find my body.

A few minutes later, the team arrived and I was rushed to the hospital.

"SPENCER REID! IF YOU EVER PULL A STUNT LIKE THAT AGAIN, I WILL HAVE TO SPANK YOU!" Garcia screamed when I woke up.

"I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry."

"Stop saying sorry. We love you," JJ said.