This story is set in season 1 and runs its own course from there using bits a pieces from the show in desperate need of beta if anyone knows of one .This story well slowly reveal its secrets it well mostly be in Lily's POV but may change that later

STUCK IN THE PAST BUT WANTING OUT

It had been two years since I had been to mystic falls and I knew I shouldn't return but Matt had called he was a mess Elena had finally gone and broken he's heart and I couldn't stay away he needed me and he was my weakness .When I got there Elena was already gone left some place to grieve so I went straight to Matt's the minute I got there he dragged me into he's familiar arms and when he kissed me roughly I didn't protest I knew he needed an escape and I knew I couldn't say no to him one look at his eyes and I was lost he looked so much like him so much like my Jacob I needed this just as much as Matt did. I had been so lonely for so long when it was over we both knew that what we did was wrong but we just stayed in each other's arms needing the comfort.

When I woke the next day I grabbed my things and snuck out I know it was silly but I just couldn't look at him right now because every time I did I saw Jacob and he wasn't Jacob even though they looked alike they were polar opposites in every way and I felt wrong for using Matt even though I knew he was using me too.

When I left I headed straight for the mayors and when I drove up that gravel driveway to the mayors house I felt sick to the stomach I hated this place and when the mayor answered the door my hate grew .

What are you doing here Lily? Your presence wasn't requested.

But Uncle Richard can't your dear old niece just come for a visit?

What Do you want Lily?

I want to be normal have a bit of a life for a change go to school all that stuff so how bout be a good little mayor and hook me up.

And hook me up he did he really couldn't say NO to me I had all my fake documents ready even a fake birth certificate and school transcripts forms already with a week to spare he even gave me the pool house to live in probably too scared to have me living in the house with him. So what was a girl to do with still a week till school started party that's what .When Tyler and I put our heads together trouble always followed he really was the bestest fake cousin a girl could have.

Tyler and I had stolen the keys to some old factory he's dad had purchased and in no time it was filled with drunken teens all making the most of there last week of summer .I was chatting away with Caroline when I seen him walk in to the party I was really surprised he had been avoiding me and I him since we slept together at the beginning of the summer. When I saw him heading my way I made some excuse to Caroline and moved away she and I had become really close friends since I had first came here two years ago but I knew she loved to gossip and Matt was pretty private person.

Matt grabbed me and quickly dragged me outside apparently the dark corner I had found wasn't private enough for the conversation we were about to have.

Look Lily I'm sorry I didn't call or anything but I woke up and you where gone and I didn't know what to think and I didn't know what to say.

It's ok so we slept together I mean you were hurting and I was lonely so we were there for each other it's not a big deal I just don't want it to affect our friendship I mean I miss you Matt we talked on the phone everyday that I was gone and I miss my friend I miss not talking to you every day.

I Miss you to Lily! Come on let's get back to the party.

We had a great night that night we danced and drank the night away but I can't help but feel like I upset Matt somehow that night with what I'd said he had been a bit strange around me the rest of the week. Oh well I was always known for putting my foot in it perhaps he will cheer up when he sees me at school tomorrow I'm sure he well be excited to see I'm staying and not just for the summer like last time.

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