Chapter 1
I had been working for the metropolitan Police, since I left school at 18, it was what I'd always wanted to do, so did my best to make sure I studied hard at school, then went straight into the police, with 5 A Levels, one of which was Sociology, I needed this to get into the police force, I even got the highest mark in my class, so I was later told whilst a probationer, I then went on to study criminology, I seemed to have a natural knack of being a police officer and fitted into the role really well. I was fair and didn't take no nonsense.
Within 4 years I was already a sergeant, when I was asked if I had considered, C.I.D Criminal Investigation Department, as I had shown natural talent in investigating, various crimes, even practically solving crimes for the C.I.D, which always resulted in a conviction of some sort, I was able to look at someone and tell straight away if they were lying or were up to no good, I guess you would call it psychoanalysing. So I jumped at the chance to join C.I.D, because it was what I wanted to do since joining the force but never had the opportunity until now that is. I had to do a training course to get familiar with the different policing in the C.I.D.
I hid the fact I was Gay and had a hard time at first when I came out to admit I was Gay, because you weren't allowed to be Gay in the police force, it was very taboo to even talk about it, so I never mentioned it to anyone, but then things changed and it was then accepted because of new equality laws etc. Up until it was accepted that being Gay was allowed in the Police Force, I had never had a relationship, I never really had time I just concentrated on my work, but then I met Melanie Johnson, she was on the same training course as me, Mel was a bit older than me, but had a very outgoing personality which is what attracted me to her. I was a bit slow and, had no idea she liked me, until a few days into the course, we got pared up together to work on a bogus case just to get us used to the way C.I.D operated.
I thought Mel was a little bit too over friendly, which I did not realise was because she was trying to get my attention because she liked me, I just thought that was how she was, I didn't even know she was gay at first, until a colleague told me, then things started to make sense, she eventually got fed up with me not realising she was interested in me, so she thought she would just come out and say it, when she invited me to dinner with her one evening. I was a bit surprised at first because I didn't think she felt anything for me other than friendship. I did however admit I liked her too, but felt out of my depth, that didn't seem to faze her at all and, she did everything she could to make me feel at ease and was happy to take things really slow until I was ready to spend the night with her.
We were together for 6 years, we moved in together and, even bought a house, we shared everything including our child hood, mine wasn't that great and I told Mel how I hadn't seen my parents since I left to join the police force, Mel was great she never pushed me to tell her why she waited for me to tell her when I was ready, which I did, I told her I was abused by my father and my mother didn't believe me, so I had to leave. Mel's child hood was good compared to mine, her father died when she was very young and her mother brought her up on her own.
Things were fantastic between Mel and I, I met her mum Blanche, who wasn't best pleased at first that we were together, she was always cold towards me, which I knew hurt Mel quite a lot, but I did try to be friends with her mum, but I thought I was wasting my time because no matter what I did, she wasn't going to change, so I just put up with it for Mel's sake.
Then one day I had really bad flu, I had been working on a really big drugs case and, was supposed to have been part of a drugs bust, but on the morning of the raid I couldn't even stand up without being sick, being as supportive as ever, Mel said she would stand in for me, she had been transferred recently to where I was but was in charge of a different team to me. Mel told me to stay at home, I told her to be careful, because the gang we were about to bust were dangerous and there was a big chance they would be armed. Mel assured me it would be ok as the Armed Response Unit, would be there too, so nothing could happen.
I will never forget the look on my boss's face when he had to tell me that Mell had been killed in the drugs bust, that morning, I was in complete shock, my boss really felt for me, it was the first time I realised he actually accepted Mel and I were a couple.
The funeral was a week or so later, it was hard but I got through it as best I could, Mel's mum was giving me daggers but I just ignored her because I was too upset to care what she thought of me.