Dear Kurt,
I can't begin to describe how badly I don't want to be sitting here right now at my desk writing this letter. More than anything, I wish I could ignore my instincts. I wish I could go against everything everyone has ever told me and just… rebel. Unfortunately, I can't. You always told me I was good with words, Kurt, but I don't see that as true anymore. No words or phrases come to mind right now, I haven't the slightest idea how to begin to express what I am trying to say.
This is it, Kurt. For us, I mean. Once you've finished reading this, our relationship has ended. Please, Kurt, please don't think that this has anything to do with how I feel about you. I love you more than I have ever loved anything in my life, so much that sometimes it terrifies me. I'm assuming you've heard the saying "If you love something, let it go"… well that's what I'm doing, Kurt. You belong in New York, and I'm not going to let you be held back by your younger boyfriend who's stuck in Ohio. You deserve so much more than that, you deserve the best this world has to offer, and you won't get that with me tethering you down.
If you hate me for this- I understand. Maybe I should have told you in person about how I felt and my plan about this, but… I couldn't. I can't bring myself to say the words out loud or even consider vocalizing the words "I'm breaking up with you". That is something I won't do, and I'm sorry for that. I'm sorry that I don't have the courage I always insisted that you should embody. You're stronger than me in any way.
Kurt, you're the most amazing person I have ever met. Don't let anyone tell you otherwise or let you doubt yourself. You are so talented and beautiful in every way, you're practically perfect. Sing your heart out, show them what you've got up there in New York City. You'll definitely be a catch, that much is for sure. All of the guys are going to swoon over you the minute you speak, that angelic voice of yours is sure to break some hearts.
Don't be afraid to find love, Kurtie. I won't take it personally, after all I am the one ending things, aren't I? Open yourself up and let people in, don't let me be the only person to ever see the beauty that is Kurt Elizabeth Hummel. Give someone else that honor, as well.
As for where we stand, I will never in my life stop loving you. Forever and always, you will be the greatest love of my life. If by some chance we are given the opportunity to be with each other again, I'll be here for you. I understand if you won't want me after this terrible thing I am doing to you, though. Hell, I wouldn't take me back. All I need is for you to know that whenever you need something, no matter how much time goes by or what hour at night, I'm here for you. I will always be your best friend, first and foremost. Goodbye, Kurt.
Love always,
Blaine
Kurt stood motionless in his dorm room, motionless except for his hands which were now violently shaking.
To be continued…