I feel awake but then not awake and I'm having these dreams that don't make sense even as I dream
them. Even not all the way awake I know I'm not home but I don't know where I am. I try to open my eyes
but they are so heavy. I whimper at the effort and then I hear my name. That voice… I know that voice.
I slowly open my eyes… "Jake?"
"Oh Bells I'm so glad you're awake. Let me go get a nurse." He starts to get up.
"Jake no! What do you mean nurse? Why am I here? Where are I? Where are my mom and dad?"
"What do you mean… I really need to get the nurse, I'll be right back honey. Sam should be back soon
too… he's been sitting here but he's not sure if you'll want to see him." He walks out before I can ask
him who Sam is.
The nurse comes in and asks how I'm feeling and tells me she's going to check my vitals and then she'll
page the doctor. She walks out telling my friend will be right back in, she asked him to stay outside for a
minute.
Jake comes back in and he looks like he's been crying.
"Jake what is going on? Where are my parents and who is Sam?"
"Bells you need to wait for the doctor to explain everything but I will be right here with you."
I want to argue but the doctor comes in before I can.
"Bella, good to see you awake. How are you feeling?" The doctor asks me and I tell him annoyed. I want
to see my parents. "Bella this is going to seem random but I need you to tell me what year it is."
I'm even more annoyed as I tell him it's 2010. I don't miss the look on both his and Jake's face but then
some man I don't know walks in.
"Sam now isn't a good time." I hear Jake tell him even though he's trying to be quiet. Jake has never been
able to be quiet though. Sam looks hurt but walks out.
"Who is that man?" I ask Jake and he sighs and looks at the doctor who shakes his head yes.
"He's your ex-boyfriend Bells. You loved him, were talking about marrying him…" He stops and looks at
the doctor and he shakes his head yes again. "… then your dad was killed and you and your mom took
off. You meet him three years ago, in 2011. Your dad died two years ago. You haven't been back here since
but you and your mom were in a car crash and your mom had my dad listed in her phone as her ICE
contact and now here you are. I'm so sorry honey."
No… none of this makes any sense. That would make it 2014. But it's 2010 and I'm going to graduate
soon and go to college with Mike.
"Where is Mike?" I ask him and he gets that look again."I don't know honey, probably at home with his little girl. You are not with Mike anymore. I don't know
where you live or anything about you. It's been a year since I've heard from you."
"Where is my mom?" I know as soon as I ask she's dead. Jake has always been easy to read. I start crying
and Jake sits next to me gently rubbing his fingers through my hair.
"Sam really wants to come in and see you. I know you don't remember him and you haven't been with
him in a year but he loves you and it's killing him to not be right here. Can he just come in and see that you
are fine?"
"I'm not fine!" I snap at him. My parents are dead, my boyfriend isn't my boyfriend and he has a kid and
this man I don't know is desperate to see me.
"What happened with my dad?" I ask him and he tells it was a home invasion, he had just come home
from work and the guy had the gun pointed at me. My dad moved to get his gun but the guy shot him.
Then he got scared and ran but they got him. Apparently my mom and I took off a week later.
Then I ask him about Mike and he says I broke up with Mike for Sam. I ask to see Mike and he says fine he
will go call him. I tell him to send Sam in before he goes.
"Oh Bella I was so worried about you. I mean I've worried about you for the last year but then they said
they were moving you here and you were unconscious and I'm so sorry if I'm overwhelming you. But
you're staying now right?" Sam is going on and on and I think Jake didn't mention I have no idea who he is.
"Sam I'm really sorry but I don't know who you are. I feel like I'm still dating Mike, I'm in love with Mike
and then I find out both my parents are dead and Mike has a kid. I really just wanted to tell you I'm sorry
but there is no reason for you to wait here for me. I don't know who you are."
"I want to be here for you though, you loved me once and I never stopped loving you. I'll wait for you."
"I need to deal with the death of my parents and getting over Mike. I don't have the energy to worry
about you too. So please just go." He looks like I just broke him but he says good bye and walks out.
Jake walks back in and tells me Mike will be here in about an hour, he just has to drop his daughter off
with her mom first.
A/N I suck at math and timelines so if that ever seems off let me know and I will fix.