B'Elanna's Dream
By Tenel Jade
His eyes are bluer than the
sky. His heart is sweeter than sugar. His feelings are purer than the purest
silk. His hopes and dreams are bright.
But
by day he wears the mask. His face is that of a man I do not recognize. His
eyes are though they are shut. His smile is casual. When we are alone, it is
pure and simple. Intimate.
This
man has many faces. But only one is the man I love.
The
quiet, simple, gentle man who emerges late at night. The man that I have
entrusted my life to. The man that I will devote everything to.
Don't
hide from others, Tom Paris. You do not hide from me, and I would like to think
your life is better for it. I know mine is.
Please.
They all want to be your friend. But you even shy from Harry Kim. He only knows
the person who walks in your body. He knows nothing of the person under the
mask. Let him in.
The
captain. She loves you like a son. You are her pride and joy. But still, you
show her only the mask.
Chakotay,
Tuvok, Seven, the Doctor. They will all welcome you. I know you are scared. But
please. Let go of your anger.
Tom
Paris is a wonderful, caring, sensitive person. Sharing of him will bring you
greater love, and the family here on Voyager, will grow even tighter.
Why?
You
owe it to me. I have loved you, and I have helped you, and I have held you. I
know you are only frightened. But you hurt me, by being unwilling to share the
gem that is your soul, with the people who love you, unconditionally. Do it for
me.
You
owe it to Captain Janeway. She took you in, when a prison was your only home,
and gave you a spark of hope to tend, when there was none before. Do it for
her.
You
owe it to Harry Kim. He has looked upon you like a brother, followed your every
move, and worshipped the ground you stand on. To him, you might as well be a
god. Do it for him.
You
owe it to Seven. She likes you, and she needs you as a friend. This is not
easy, living with humans for the first time. Unconditional friendships have not
been easy for her to find.
Think
about that one. The captain treats her like a daughter, always wanting more
from her. Always pressing. Harry Kim wants nothing, but in the crush he had on
her, he leaves her more puzzled, with one more thing to figure out. Do it for
her.
You owe it to your friends,
and you owe it to the crew. They have loved you, supported you, and helped you
through the best and worst times in your life. Do it for them.
But
most of all, do it for you. Do it for all the faces of Lieutenant Thomas Eugene
Paris. Let yourself be free of the lies you live, and other's lives will be immeasurably
better for it.
I
love you, Tom.
Legalities: None of these characters belong to me. Don't
sue me, please!
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