FAR AWAY
authour: revolutiongirl
summary: "Happiness has no shape, the minute you speak of it
It falls through the cracks of your fingers."--Hamasaki Ayumi,
"Far Away" Max understands.
FAR AWAY
"Newly, like myself, like yourself...
Once we still called each other lovers
I come alone to that beach we used to visit then
And while searching for those scenes that I forgot
The sound of the waves is somehow so tender
I feel like I'm going to cry
Newly, like myself, like yourself
We'll be reborn...
Happiness has no shape, the minute you speak of it
It falls through the cracks of your fingers
The ocean spreads out around the memory of
When you left, saying you were going to find yourself
And somewhere it meets up and flows together
Surely you're seeing the same scenery
Everyone said our love was too far down the line
But for us it was both the home station and the end of the line
Uh-lalalai
That's how it was
Soon summer will be here
Without you... "
--Hamasaki Ayumi, "Far Away"
MAX POV
we're sitting there, alec and i, above the broken world, on the space needle.
my eyes feel heavy in my head, everything feels heavy. i never wanted it to be like this.
"the world is broken, and so are we." alec says quietly, quite unlike him. i look at him
with an eyebrow sarcastically raised.
"profound." i say with a half-smile. but it's mirthless. the scar on my palm itches, and i have
to strongly resist the nasty urge to rip it from my skin.
"yeah, well." he says, looking around, then straight at me. the frankness of his eyes scares me.
"we're going to have to leave, you know." he says levelly, then looks back out at the city.
"i know."
"it's going to be hard, isn't it? for you. you've been here for so long, put down your roots.."
"don't try to be..." i say shakily, then regain myself, "i don't know if you could get it. i ran for so long.
then i got comfortable. i've always been in enemy territory. i forgot the most important rule when moving through it--
NEVER STOP."
he says nothing.
"you haven't been out in this world long enough to get that. your missions did give you borrowed time outside
of manticore, but it's not the same. what manticore doesn't teach you is that we ARE human too, and you can
only learn that through being out here as long as i have. the whole 'what the mind can concieve the body can achieve'
thing that manticore taught didn't comply with the real world. humans are vulnerable, chimera or not."
he says nothing for a long time.
"i..think..you might be right." he speaks haltingly, humbly, and i stare with wide eyes. "when i was
involved with rachel, i wasn't prepared. but i think if i had been out in the world as long as you have,
maybe things would have been different."
"you can't get caught up in those things. neither can i. we have to go. you were right..." i said, standing up, brushing
off my ass, looking at the sky, "we're dangerous to them." i walk away, like i always have.
"max!" he calls after me, and i look back with a few seconds' pause.
"we..aren't so far away from them."
i keep walking, and maybe, i realize, the asshole's right after all.
OWARI.
authour: revolutiongirl
summary: "Happiness has no shape, the minute you speak of it
It falls through the cracks of your fingers."--Hamasaki Ayumi,
"Far Away" Max understands.
FAR AWAY
"Newly, like myself, like yourself...
Once we still called each other lovers
I come alone to that beach we used to visit then
And while searching for those scenes that I forgot
The sound of the waves is somehow so tender
I feel like I'm going to cry
Newly, like myself, like yourself
We'll be reborn...
Happiness has no shape, the minute you speak of it
It falls through the cracks of your fingers
The ocean spreads out around the memory of
When you left, saying you were going to find yourself
And somewhere it meets up and flows together
Surely you're seeing the same scenery
Everyone said our love was too far down the line
But for us it was both the home station and the end of the line
Uh-lalalai
That's how it was
Soon summer will be here
Without you... "
--Hamasaki Ayumi, "Far Away"
MAX POV
we're sitting there, alec and i, above the broken world, on the space needle.
my eyes feel heavy in my head, everything feels heavy. i never wanted it to be like this.
"the world is broken, and so are we." alec says quietly, quite unlike him. i look at him
with an eyebrow sarcastically raised.
"profound." i say with a half-smile. but it's mirthless. the scar on my palm itches, and i have
to strongly resist the nasty urge to rip it from my skin.
"yeah, well." he says, looking around, then straight at me. the frankness of his eyes scares me.
"we're going to have to leave, you know." he says levelly, then looks back out at the city.
"i know."
"it's going to be hard, isn't it? for you. you've been here for so long, put down your roots.."
"don't try to be..." i say shakily, then regain myself, "i don't know if you could get it. i ran for so long.
then i got comfortable. i've always been in enemy territory. i forgot the most important rule when moving through it--
NEVER STOP."
he says nothing.
"you haven't been out in this world long enough to get that. your missions did give you borrowed time outside
of manticore, but it's not the same. what manticore doesn't teach you is that we ARE human too, and you can
only learn that through being out here as long as i have. the whole 'what the mind can concieve the body can achieve'
thing that manticore taught didn't comply with the real world. humans are vulnerable, chimera or not."
he says nothing for a long time.
"i..think..you might be right." he speaks haltingly, humbly, and i stare with wide eyes. "when i was
involved with rachel, i wasn't prepared. but i think if i had been out in the world as long as you have,
maybe things would have been different."
"you can't get caught up in those things. neither can i. we have to go. you were right..." i said, standing up, brushing
off my ass, looking at the sky, "we're dangerous to them." i walk away, like i always have.
"max!" he calls after me, and i look back with a few seconds' pause.
"we..aren't so far away from them."
i keep walking, and maybe, i realize, the asshole's right after all.
OWARI.