This is set for roughly after new moon. There are many changes and some of them truly rough, but remember Bella is a truly strong woman and overcomes most.

Stephanie owns all rights to the Twilight series.

Chapt 1.

I had been feeling very odd lately. I did not know what was wrong and did not know how to explain the changes in my body but I kept them to myself until I could figure it out. I usually keep anything painful or difficult from Edward because I know how he worries but I think I am going to have to go see Carlisle about this. I mean after all it's great to be strong but if you know something is wrong with your body, wouldn't you want to know about it?

"Edward, I am going to drive myself home after school today."

Edward looked confused by my statement since he now drives me everywhere. "Why Bella?"

"Because I have to run an errand before heading home," I said nonchalantly.

Edward's eyes narrowed in suspicion, "What errand do you have to run?"

Bella had a feeling that Edward was not going to let this go, I think he had been noticing lately that I have not been feeling right.

"I am going to go see Carlisle at the hospital. It is probably nothing but I just want a check up."

Edwards eyebrows furrowed in concern. "I knew there was something going on with you lately, but you are so stubborn and keep everything inside I just thought I was imagining it," he said almost accusingly. I think he had been noticing lately that I have not been feeling right.

"I am going to go see Carlisle at the hospital. It is probably nothing but I just want a check up."

Edwards eyebrows furrowed in concern. "I knew there was something going on with you lately, but you are so stubborn and keep everything inside I just thought I was imagining it," he said almost accusingly."

I bit back what had first come to my mind. I did not want to bring up the time of Edward leaving back. I did not want to say anything that might bring the guilt or emotional pain back. He would just start blaming himself if I were to tell him the reason for my silence was because I did not want to cause him anymore additional concern. My entire life has been made up of pain even though the majority of it was due to my clumsiness and the other part to my uncanny bad luck.

These thoughts took me back to about two years before I moved to Forks. I had been visiting a friend in California when we were kidnapped by a few Mexican Gang members. We had stumbled upon a deal that was obviously supposed to be seen by none. My friend, John, was on his way to becoming a police officer, and knew the gang we were taken by and did not hold much hope for us surviving. Edward did not know about this event in my life because I am too ashamed to tell him knowing that if he were to find out what really happened, then he would never be able to look at me the same.

"Bella?" Edward asked, "Where did you go?"

"Sorry, just got distracted by my own thoughts."

Edward took a breath and said firmly, "I'm going to the hospital with you"

"Edward really, you do not have-"

He cut me off and said "Yes, I do have to. Please don't argue. I just want to hear everything that Carlisle might say. Just in case."

I knew this was a load of monkey spit because all Edward had to do was read Carlisle's thoughts to know what was happening but I did not argue further. Edward had that look on his face that told me this was one battle he would not lose. How could I have known that this trip would be a disaster and that Edward would learn my deepest and darkest secret.