Hey everyone this is my first post so far and I just wanted to get out that if you may not like this then please go ahead and tell me why you don't like it. All criticism is welcomed here! I just want to improve my writing skills and not always write something you guys may not like. So thanks for reading ahead of time. Stephenie Meyer owns all Twilight and related.

P.S. I know my summary is probably silly that was all I could think of at the time :-p

Bpov:

I wrote her more than a thousands letters than I could count. None of them she answered back. I felt like I was going crazy. I didn't just lose my boyfriend by such an impeccable way to break up with someone but I had also lost a family and a best friend.

After awhile I noticed something strange. I couldn't wrap my head around the fact that I was not hurt much by Edward leaving but I was heartbroken that his sister, my best friend, Alice left with no goodbye. It wasn't about the goodbye because that did not mean crap. What meant so much was that she had left me.

I rationalized that maybe Edward did not hurt me so much anymore cause time has finally help some, or the fact he was a tad bit controlling and my wants were always second to his. I am sure he didn't mean it in a mean way but he was just always too much into himself and use to being alone for all those years. With Alice she at least tried to give me a choice unless she saw a party in the future and no matter what it seemed to come true.

Charlie had forced me to go back into the world or else I would have to go back to Jacksonville. The last thing I wanted to do was leave this place, just in case she would come back. Hanging out with Jacob has really help take my mind off everything that made the muscle in my chest take a break from the pain. After finding out Jake was really a wolf I couldn't help but laugh. Seems like I was destined for the supernatural world no matter how Edward didn't like it.

Jacob kept making it blatantly obvious how he felt for me and I tried everything to not lead him on. I was too afraid to crush him so I always tried to put him down easy but perhaps I needed to stop being too kind cause I really was just leading him on. It didn't help that all the wolves could hear what he was thinking and a few of them kept egging him on. Steal that leech's mate really screams romantic for most girls. I got to hear the boys all the time since I was now under watch since Victoria would not stop trying to find me.

Paul turned out to be an actual okay guy. As long as if you were not in front of his warpath that is. Sam was a good guy he always wanted to be there if you ever needed him. He was the only one out of the boys who was willing to try and understand things. Jacob he was always watching me. He was on me like flies attracted to shit. Most of the time I didn't mind cause I didn't want to be alone and allow myself to even think. When I started to think it allowed the pain back in. This usually happen every night when I would go back home to Charlie. I would lie in my bed left to ponder on every single detail of why and what if. The major why was why do I still feel so much pain for Alice? When I would think back about all the time we spent I couldn't help but feel a tug in my stomach. As if I already knew the answer to why but now I am more afraid to realize it all by myself.

I was hanging out with Jake at his place when of course another one of his relentless hit on me attempts infuriates me. He pulls me into his arms. "Bella, Bella, Bella when are you going to move on and go to the right kind of monster for you?"

I tried to push him away, "Its not about what you are. It's about who you are." I could feel him tense around me, locking me even tighter around his arms.

"Are you saying I'm not good enough for you?"

I tried to wiggle myself around to look him in the face. "No I am not saying that. What I am saying is that after…Edward I have been question everything about myself." I know a look of disgust must have crossed my face when I said Edward's name because Jacob let go of me and busted out laughing. "Why are you laughing?" I tried to come off as a playful angry.

"Oh, Bella you should have seen your face! Something must really be changing if you can even make that kind of face." He smiled which in turn made me smile.

Sam was making his way to us. A little far off he called out, "Hey Jacob I need you take over Embry's watch."

Jacob looked down at me, "But on a more serious note I am more than willing to wait for you. Take all the time you need to do whatever you need to do. I'll call for Paul to watch you."

Before I could show my annoyance of always having to be watch as a little kid Jacob ran off to Sam. I yelled out to him, "Don't hold your breath Jake!"

Wolf patrols it always kept them busy around the clock. All of a sudden a light bulb went off over my head. I have been dying for some time alone and not just before I am about to fall asleep. I wanted alone time outside as if I was a normal person again. Jacob is going to be busy and if Paul is not in his wolf form right now I have a good chance of running far away enough that I could have some alone time. Of course when Paul wolfs out all he has to do is catch on to my scent to find me. So I didn't have enough time. I didn't know what time I had. I took off running towards the forest. After I was deep enough in the forest where I could look around and only see trees I decided this was a bad ideal. God knows I'm a klutz and I don't have speed to reach anywhere fast. Yet alone know where I am going. I had this feeling that I couldn't fight anymore I just had to run. I ran as far as my skinny ass could go. I ended up crossing a river and trodden on deeper in the forest. I came to a clearing which I stop running bending myself over taking in deep breaths. I was surprised I made it this far. When I was able to glance up that is when I saw it, the Cullen's house.

Right then I felt the pain exploding in my chest. I squeezed my eyes shut I would not cry, not here. I felt my legs carry me forward. As if they spoke on their own. My body and my brain never did agree on the same thing. To my amazement the door was unlocked. I had walked right in expecting to hear the booming of Emmett's laughter. Nothing. There was nothing left here. I looked around and just saw dust and nothing of importance was left here. Everything looked grey and lifeless. I knew I could feel my heart wishing she were here. Wishing that they all were. Esme always had a way of making you feel better. Even though Rosalie hated me but emotions towards me was better than dead end silence of nothing more. Seeing their house like this just made my chest hurt even more.

I started to head out of the front door. I guess things were really over. I was looking down when I walked into a hard object. Great here we go Bella the klutz I just walked right into a tree. I put my hand on my head. "Of course I would be the one to run into something."

I heard a giggle and then felt cold hands cup my face, "Silly Bella! You need to watch where you are walking or is that just how you say hello now a days."

Her voice shook every inch of my core. It felt like all of my life I was deaf and for the very first time I could hear. It was sweeter than any Angel's voice could ever be.

"What…what are you doing here? Alice?"

"I couldn't shake the feeling that Edward had lied to us."

I knew again I must have had that disgusted look on my face because Alice had to pause with a confused look on her face.

"Lied about what," I said softly

"That you wanted us to leave. That you didn't even want to say goodbye."

I swatted away her hands away, "He did what! Oh my… He told me he didn't want me and that you guys are just going to be gone. Its going to be just as if you guys were never here…Well I got news for you, every single day it has felt like you guys were once here. Left in my heart like a burning pain that I can't wash away. You guys didn't just leave you took a part of me with you."

I knew I was yelling and shaking by now. I couldn't finish on with my rant that has been boiling up. Alice pulled me into her arms. It didn't take long for me to stop shaking but then again she had the strength to hold me down with just one hand. Then again I felt reassurance within her arms. I let out this huge sigh. I could finally breathe again and with that I felt cold lips brush the top of my head.

Apov:

I had wanted to come home and what I found there made my abandon home felt even more like home. There she was my Bella. She was more beautiful than the last time I had laid my eyes on her. For so long I have hold back my feelings and kept everything a secret. Now it is my time, Edward had not only left her, but he had also dump her. I now don't have to hold anything back for fear of tearing up my family. No matter what in the end Bella is already part of my family.

Holding her felt better than great, it felt right. I was glad she had not removed herself from me yet. Perhaps she had secrets of her own to share. Hopefully they were the same as mine. Then the beautiful girl spoke.

"Why did you come back?"

"I couldn't leave you behind. I needed to find you and tell you something… tell you everything"

We both could hear a growl. The scent over flowed my nose. The smell of wet dog took place of my sweet Bella. The growls had doubled for I too was growling now. I was pissed off that this wolf had to come right along and ruin such a perfect moment not only with his presence but his smell too. I pushed Bella behind me for the wolf was Paul and we all know how Paul gets.

"Can I help you mutt?"

He glanced at Bella, "I followed your scent here. I am suppose to be watching you and here you are with a leech!"

Paul was shaking with rage. He was angry that I had come back. "Paul calm down. Right now you are way too close to Bella to wolf out."

"Calm down! I show you leech how to calm down."

Paul reared upward changing into a wolf. I went to push Bella back inside but she had surprised me. She had actually pushed me backwards to step in front of me.

"I don't care who you are but you are not going to hurt Alice."

The wolf stared at Bella and so did I in shock.