Hello reader!
Thanks a lot for taking the risk! This is my third published fan fiction and my first star wars thing and a song fic to boot, so please, be forgiving! I know this is really long for a song fic so I'm publishing it in chapters, to make it easier to read but I insist on the fact that this IS a song fic!
The song I use is called "Unforgivable sinner" and it was written in 1998 by Lene Marlin. Now, I think that you will be amazed, just as I was when I first listened to the lyrics (and it was not that long ago, but you must know that I wasn't born an English speaker), to see just how fitting the whole of this song is to the Star wars movies and especially to the story of Anakin Darth Vader, on the light of ROTS. So maybe the force was strong with Lene Marlin when she wrote this and I thought it'd do well as a song fic. Besides, the music is brilliant too.
You must also be aware that the knowledge that people care (even a tiny bit) about me helps me through every passing day. I enjoy being read, I love being reviewed, I don't even object on being flared, it helps me getting better and besides, it's kind of your right as a reader to flare whoever you don't like! (No really, please, DO review, I only live for that!)
One last thing you should know before reading is that I am insane and that in my crazy mind, Star Wars is a mixture of the legends around King Arthur, the Kurosawa movies and Sigmund Freud's Oedipus complex. So, if you can accept that, you might not get mental out of reading this stuff.
Anyway, now, enjoy!
This chapter is set right after the battle of Yavin (just in case you had doubts)
Enjoy!
Chapter one:
When was the last time he had had time to think? To think really? Of something else than the galaxy to rule, the death star to manage, the Rebellion to crush, Tarkin to get along with? Now, he knew for sure, Tarkin's days were over and it felt like something brand new was at hand. With the destruction of the Death Star, he sensed something was coming. Something even the emperor had not expected. The destruction of their major ship, their best weapon, by an unknown and completely unexpected enemy, this was something big, bigger than anything that had happened since… Since it had happened. Curiously enough, he couldn't remember how many years lay between now and then. A sharp pain erupted inside his chest. Odd. The machinery should have erased that, along with the rest. He thought hard but couldn't quite find how long it had been since then. Or since he had last thought of it.
Kinda lose your sense of time but the days don't matter no more
All the feelings that you hide gonna tear you up inside
Yes he did remember the last he had thought of it. When he had set foot on this Alderaanian ship less than a week ago. Just a fleeting thought, he had learnt not to dwell on these, and to shove them out of his mind. But there it was again. Just beneath the surface. Just where he couldn't put his finger on it. It couldn't be that. But then, all this shouting was most unlike him. He was strong. He was a Lord of the Sith. Nothing could reach him. So what was it that had made him so angry at this rebel princess? What was it that had made him want to see her suffer, to see her die? Why had he felt this strange, unwanted thing rise inside him? He had hated her like he hadn't hated a living being for a very long time. But what is hate but the bitter side of love? Now, why was this long since forgotten saying coming back to him? Wasn't that kind of teaching as dead as those who had once tought them? That kind of teaching had not saved her. It had never been enough.
You hope she knows you tried
The pain erupted again, stronger, colder. He would have to see to it that it got fixed. And he had to find out who was this force sensitive rebel pilot. And wipe out that rebel princess. So many things to do…
He focused on his surroundings. The tiny inside on the fighter. The vast void outside. He had to find a way out of it.
So? Liked it? Please, R&R!
Next chapter set at the end of ROTJ with a few flash backs!