"Dear Sheldon,

I am sorry but I cannot give up my dream, I know it is not fair and I know you may never forgive me. But I am not ready to be a mother to our child. I love you so much and but I am feeling so trapped and like I am settling. Please take care of Anna.

Your wife

Penny Cooper"

Five years later

A lot of things had happened in Penny's life since that day she left her husband with their 8 month old baby girl. Many times Penny had wanted to return to him and be the wife she had wanted to be but she had found success with her acting and was living the dream of her childhood.

She was torn and she did not know what to do.

She had never divorced him or had she received any notification that Sheldon had divorced her. She kept in touch with Bernadette and Amy when she could, but she had made them promise that they would not tell Sheldon.

So far they had kept their word. Though unknown to Penny, they would have not told Sheldon anything even if she asked them to.

She had received the letters and photos that Sheldon had sent to her agent, photos of a daughter she had abandoned. Never once had Sheldon written anything cruel or mean in his letters, he was loving as ever, keeping her up to date on her daughter's progress.

She was amazed at the love that Sheldon had for his little Anna Blossom as he called her. She was not smart like her father, but she was smarter than others her age and by his descriptions of her, she was like her mother, full of dreams and full of emotions. She must be driving him mad.

Sheldon never mentioned how much her daughter hated her mother, always ending each letter with an expression of love from her. But she had learnt from Amy that Anna would get angry and mad at the mention of her name and scream that she had abandoned her. What Amy failed to mentioned that no one other than Howard or Sheldon actually spoke well of Penny to her.

Will Wheaton had become a good friend to Sheldon, and he was continually telling her to go back to her man and how much he missed her. He had told her that she could make it work and she needed to get back into their lives for her own sake.

So here she was sitting at her home, with her three dogs, reading the latest article on one Sheldon Lee Cooper, wondering if she could fix what she had broken. Could she win back the man that she loved, yes she could because he never stopped loving her.

However winning the daughter she left behind was going to be harder. She knew that and she would lose them both if she failed because she would not come between them. She owed them that much.

She turned off her IPad and laid back to have a sleep, tomorrow she would begin that journey, she just hoped she would succeed