TITLE: Heartless

RATING: T (for language)

This is the first chapter from a strory that I'm working on. It takes place during "Take The Deviled Eggs" and the following episodes. Its going to be mostly canon but there might be where it veers onto AU territory. Sorry for the shortness!

I've got a knack for fucking everything up.

My temper flies and I get myself all wound up.

My fuse is short and my blood pressure is up

I lose control and I get myself all wound up.

Tension mounts and I fly off the wall

I self destruct and I get myself all wound up.

Petulance and irritation sets in

I throw a tantrum and I get myself all wound up.

Bab's Uvula Who? By Green Day

He was a moron. A complete and utter moron. And the fact that he knew he was a moron was not making his mood any better.

"What's up with you tonight?" Shane asked, from the passenger seat, as she filed her nails absently.

"Nothing."

"Well how come we aren't making out or you know, doing anything fun?"

He snorted. Making out with Shane was anything but fun. It was in fact mind numbingly dull, but the mind numbing was what he needed. He used Shane to forget about her. Rory. But even after a good half hour of necking he couldn't get her out of his head.

("Oh, and by the way, you left your bra in the back seat.)

He threw his head against the headrest and sighed. He had wanted her to be jealous (not that he'd left the bra there intentionally. Well…..) but she had looked more disappointed in him than anything. He shouldn't care what she thought. But in reality her thoughts were the only ones he did care about.

Why had she kissed him if she had no intention of being with him? He knew she knew what coming back to this god-forsaken town had meant, ("Just wanted to" Translation, "I came for you.") And when she had kissed him, he had felt elated and even as he watched her run away he had felt that his luck was beginning to change. For once he was going to get the thing he wanted most.

Then nothing. For weeks nothing. Then to see Dean walking about clutching a pile of letters from her, he saw red. She wasn't interested! She'd made him believe in her, in them and the future and now…..nothing.

He'd went out, managed to get hold of a few beers and met Shane as she came out of the Beauty Supply Store and that was that. He had forgotten about those sapphire eyes for the first time in months and it had felt so fucking good.

And now, there she was on his brain again. And it sucked.