A/N: This is my first fanfiction for Drop Dead Diva so I hope it is okay and that if the characters are not exactly as you believe they should be then feel free to speak up, in a nice constructive way because I do not respond to flames. Anyway hope you enjoy!

Dreams are Subdued Desires

Grayson sat in his office for a while after Jane left considering what she had said. Had Stacy told her about his dreams, and had Jane being the smart woman she was come to the conclusion that they meant something in the end. After all most people knew that dreams are the manifestation of our real desires that have been subdued or unexpressed. But would Jane believe, as he had come to, that the desire he felt was for her. That she somehow possessed this innate ability to make him smile, laugh, and just genuinely feel great in the way that only Deb had previously. Would she believe that he was truly ready to move on after he had informed her just the other day that he was not ready to move on?

Suddenly a knock on his office door awoke him from the daydream he had been having. He looked up to discover Parker standing there with an odd sort of look on his face. He wondered what Parker would be doing there so late, he was sure that it had been only he and Jane in the office earlier.

"Hey, Parker, what are you doing here so late?" he questioned glancing at the clock and noticing almost five hours had passed since Jane departed.

"Just left something on my desk and ran back to get it. What about you Grayson?" Parker questioned somewhat suspiciously Grayson noticed and wondered why.

"Just doing some work. Jane was here too but she left a little while ago."

"Grayson did you speak to Jane before she left?" Parker questioned immediately drawing his attention.

"Briefly, she said something about it having been a pleasure to work with me, why?" he questioned suddenly realizing the oddity of that statement.

"She decided to pursue a course of action that she was asked not to. It may cost her the career she has been working for and it will definitely cost her the position I was going to promote her to at the firm." He stated in a casual voice that was betrayed by the sadness and panic coursing through his eyes.

"What do you mean? Is she gone for good? That isn't fair. She was just doing the right thing, she is the best lawyer you have." Grayson said the panic he could feel emitting from Parker coursing through him as well.

"I know Grayson and I wish that I didn't have to do anything but she gave me no choice. If there was anything I could do to change it I would and the moment she gets cleared by the bar, which I am really hoping happens, she will be given back her position at this firm."

"Did you speak to her? How did she take it, or did she speak with you?"

"She left me a letter informing me that she had made her decision. She said she became a lawyer to help advocate for the innocent not help the guilty. She was deeply sorry and she would truly miss this place but she felt that her conscience would allow her to make no other choice." Parker stated a mixture of awe and disappointment in his voice.

"Well if it is alright with you I have to go now," Grayson stated grabbing his coat from the chair near him and walking toward the door.

"Sure, and Grayson tell her that I think she did the right thing and we will all miss her here."

"Okay no problem," and then Parker turned around sighed and walked away into the unknown night.

As Grayson made his way toward the house which he knew Jane and Stacy shared he wondered what invisible force was drawing him there. For some reason the moment her heard Parkers explanation everything that Jane had said and done made sense but his reactions didn't seem real enough, not genuine enough. He had sat there and watched Deb drive forever out of his life (without knowing it) and he would be damned if he was going to let Jane go without at least putting in some effort. He hadn't known how strong his feelings for Jane ran until Parker had spoken to him, but suddenly the thought of going through day after day in that law firm without her by his side to make the hard cases more bearable and the easy cases less irritating seemed an incredibly impossible situation.

When he arrived outside her apartment he stopped a moment to catch his breath and in that moment noticed a car situated outside, one he didn't recognize. It wasn't Tony's car that much he knew and he let the momentary fear stop him from moving. What if Jane had truly decided to say goodbye to him earlier tonight? What if she intended never to see him again? Would this be an unwelcome visit that was disturbing her in a peaceful contemplation? Or perhaps the car belonged to someone Stacy would date, though it really did not look like it belonged to anyone Stacy would look twice at, after all he did know a little something about her, she used to be Debs best friend and all.

After sitting there a moment longer unsure of what course of action to take he let his feet guide him to the door of the apartment building. He heard voices inside but couldn't make out any particular voice. In fact the only voice he could hear emitting itself through the wall didn't belong to a woman at all. He heard laughing at which point intervening seemed the only appropriate measure, because if that laughter was coming from Jane he deserved to be the cause of it, or at least be in on the joke.

When Jane opened the door her somewhat awkward smile faded and her jaw appeared to drop down to somewhere on the ground below. He smiled the most charming smile he could muster and then glanced around the room. The man who was sitting on the couch got up and made his way toward where Jane and Grayson stood.

"Grayson!" Jane shrieked in a slightly exasperated voice.

"Jane, I just heard about what happened. Parker left something in his office and came back to get it and discovered your note."

"Yeah well I had to do the right thing. I couldn't have that on my heart. You understand you're a lawyer." She smiled up at him and briefly he wondered if this would or could somehow all work out in the end.

"I do understand completely and I'm proud of you for standing up for what you believe in and standing by your morals." He smiled.

"Uhhh-hmmmm," he heard from somewhere behind Jane. When he turned to glance it was a man. He was tall with curly brown hair and an odd expression on his face.

"Oh sorry, I forgot to introduce you, Grayson this is Ethan my…" she trailed off.

"Her husband." He finished smiling and thrusting a hand out for Grayson to shake. All of a sudden the world got dark and his breath seemed unable to escape his throat. Jane was married? That he did not see coming.

Well I hope you like it! Like I said I am not sure if I really have the characters down yet but I am hoping they are at least close.