Disclaimer: I don't own CSI or the song Bittersweet
A/N: I was reading Summer Reigns' fanfic 'Only The Brave' when Within Temptations song 'Bittersweet' came on my iTUnes. this fic was inspired by both. if you haven't read the fic i suggest you do it's great! Also the song is beautiful and fits GSR so well!
Bittersweet
If I tell you
Will you listen?
Will you stay?
Will you be here forever?
Never go away?
For years these questions had plagued me. I knew I had loved you since I first set eyes on you all those years ago. I wanted to tell you for so long, how much I loved you, how much I needed you and just how much you meant to me. But I was scared, scared you would turn and run, scared that I wasn't good enough and scared that I would love you too much.
Never thought things would change
I thought I was to set in my ways for us to work. I had been a loner for so long I didn't think that could change. It did. I let you in. I'm so glad I did, you made the change. We created a new solitude where we had each other and that was all that mattered. Once we had that I never expected that to change either. But I guess no-one can predict what will happen next.
Hold me tight
Please don't say again
That you have to go
I know I'll never understand what you went through that night. What Natalie put you through will always be a part of you know. I know you need to face your demons, sort out this problem which is haunting your every move, but please don't go.
A bitter thought I had it all
But I just let it go
Hold your silence
It's so violent Since your gone
I did have it all. I had you, you were everything I ever needed, and on top of that we had a life together with Bruno in our home. Everything fitted when you were there, I don't know how I let you go, I understand you need your time to get through your problems, I just wish I could have been there to help you. It's so strange without you around, the house I so quite, empty, without you.
All my thoughts are with you forever
Until the day we'll be back together
I will be waiting for you
You are my everything; I can never give up on you. You need this time to figure out how you can carry on. But I need you to know it's my turn to wait for you. You waited 7 years for me to finally give in to you, if it takes you 7 years to come back to me now I will be here waiting.
If I had told you
You would have listened
You had stayed
You would be here forever
Never went away
It would never have been the same
All our time
Would have been in vain
Cause you had to go
There was so much I had to say to you before you left. I wanted to say I would go with you help you sort this out. I wanted to say I would be with you no matter what. But I couldn't. I'm not scared anymore; I just understand you need to do this alone. If you had stayed with me, and not worked it out our lives together would always be tinged with sadness or regret, these problems and concerns building over time until they were too big to solve. You had to go, you needed this, we needed this.
The sweetest thought
I had it all
Cause I did let you go
All our moments
Keep me warm
When you're gone
I did have it all. I do have it all. You're not here with me in person but I know your heart and soul are still here with me. I still have Bruno who keeps me company, he reminds me of the good times we have had together, and will continue to have when you come home. You're not here in person but my memories of you keep you here in spirit.
All my thoughts are with you forever
Until the day we'll be back together
I will be waiting for you
I'll be here waiting for you until you're ready to come home. I will never give up on you Sara.
A/N2: I'm so sad Sara is leaving, but i'm a firm believer that she will be back (she has to be) and that GSR is still alive!! Please r'n'r i love to know what you think!