A/N: This is long ya'll, so get a glass of wine (if your old enough) and enjoy!
One Final Night…for Now
Seven years…..
Seven excruciatingly long years.
It has been seven years since I had seen my husband.
Seven years since I've seen his face, heard his voice, felt his touch….
Why?
Because I left him.
I left my husband. I left the love of my life.
But not a day goes by that I don't think about him. I always wonder what he's doing or if he's thinking about me too.
Thinking back, from the beginning Edward and I have had an odd relationship to say the least. In fact, relationship isn't even the correct term of what we had. Traditionally, a relationship is formed through two consenting individuals. That rule didn't apply to Edward.
See…
Edward was twenty four years old when he was getting ready to graduate college and began his residency at the local hospital in town. The only thing he felt missing in his life was an attractive, respectful, and obedient wife.
So Edward's father, Carlisle, began searching for his wife as a present for his son's accomplishment. He spent months searching nonstop. He would send Edward countless photos of girls that could be his possible wife. Edward shot down every one.
Then one fateful day, Carlisle saw me at the grocery store in our hometown of Forks, Washington. I was staying with my father, Charlie. My mother, Rene, just died of breast cancer after fighting with it for two years. Without me knowing, Carlisle took a picture of me and sent it to Edward.
Edward said it was love at first sight. He told his father that I was the one for him. That no one else would be acceptable. So, Carlisle made a deal with Charlie for my purchase. At first Charlie was hesitant. He wasn't sure if he wanted to sell his daughter, but Rene's hospital bills put him in serious debt. Carlisle offered to pay the rest of the debt and much more.
Charlie had no choice but to accept.
Sad thing is I knew Charlie was done being a father. With all the medical appointments, surgeries, and all the problems I would bring up…he was just done. He wanted to live for himself and no one else. I could tell this decision wasn't too difficult for him.
He is a terrible father and I hate him for doing this to me! He should have sent me to fucking military school….
I was only sixteen years old at the time, merely a junior in high school! And Carlisle was quick to tell me that I was going to be his son's wife.
I was shocked. I didn't want to get married! I wanted to finish high school and then go to college. Marriage was the last thing on my list.
But I had no choice. Charlie let Carlisle adopted me.
When Charlie said goodbye I was hysterical. Tears kept falling from my eyes. My thoughts were everywhere. I didn't want to leave. I didn't want to marry someone I didn't know. I wanted my mother! She never would have let this happen.
As soon as Carlisle and I left the house he grabbed me roughly by the arm and said, "Don't make me give you something to really cry about."
I stood there stunned. He just threatened me. My tears quickly stopped as he violently shoved me into his black 2002 Mercedes. I was willing my tears not to start leaking again while he was entering the driver's side. Giving me a warning look, he started the ignition and we left. I saw my home disappear from the review mirror.
"You sure are a pretty one, aren't you? God, what I wouldn't give to pull us over and fuck you senseless right now." Carlisle mused.
I couldn't stop shaking. This old man was talking about…raping me like it's nothing. Like he has the right to just pull me over and have me however he wants
I have never been with a boy like that before. Gosh, I have never even had my first kiss yet! I was really close once though. Me and my best friend Jacob were curious about kissing. We leaned in to try it out when his dad, Billy, interrupted us. We never tried to kiss again, even though I could tell he wanted to. But he's just my best friend and I didn't want to overstep any friendship bounds.
I looked back to Carlisle and panicked. I don't want to do this. I don't want to be here.
I got to get out of here!
I don't care that we're still moving; I reached for the door handle to jump out when-
"Don't you even think about it girl!" Carlisle turned on the automatic locks. "You have no choice in this matter."
Carlisle pulled to the shoulder of the street.
Oh god! He's gonna rape me! He's going to fuck me; it's going to hurt so much!
No
No
NO!
Carlisle turned off the ignition and looked at me. His blue eyes look pitch black. He grabbed my shoulder roughly
"Stop fucking shaking! Listen, this is what is going to happen. I'm taking you home. You are going to meet your future husband. You are going to please him however he wants. You two are going to get married in three months…which is four days after your seventeenth birthday. My son has already purchased your guy's house. You'll live there. You will do whatever my son tells you! Do you understand me? Have I painted a good enough picture for you?" He impatiently waited for my answer.
"Y-yes...I understand" I whispered. I really don't want to make him any angrier.
"Good. Now, let's get this show on the road" Carlisle turned on the ignition and we left.
I don't know how long we were driving, but next thing I knew we were pulling up in front of a very large white house. I just gasped. It really is a beautiful house.
At least my personal hell was located at a beautiful place, I thought sarcastically
"Well. Here we are" Carlisle said. He got out of the car and opened the door for me.
Carlisle opened the front door and let me in the large house. I didn't even get a good look on in inside. I just stared at the gorgeous man with green eyes staring intently back at me.
Without a word, this man quickly walks towards me and grabs me by the wrist to pulls me up the stairs.
When we reached the third flood, I was panting and trying to catch my breath. I was shoved into a large room, still trying to get a gust of air. He shut the door behind him and locked it.
He turned around and just stared at me. I felt like his prey. His green eyes seemed to have gotten darker and he hasn't said a word to me. Moments later he took one step towards me and I took one step back. He eyed me suspiciously and finally spoke
"Isabella. I know this may be difficult for you but I assure you as long as you listen to me you have nothing to worry about"
"W-what do y-you mean?" I stuttered.
"I mean you do as I say and nothing…drastic has to occur"
"Drastic?"
"Yes. If you commit any form of disobedience to me I'll have to take certain….measures to correct your transgressions"
"M-measures?"
"I realize that I have gotten you untrained and rather ignorant to our lifestyle, so I'm willing to train you. But I do warn you Isabella, I am not a patient man. You will learn quickly and we'll get past this tiny episode in our lives together"
"I don't understand" I faintly whispered
"What don't you understand, this is simple"
I don't know where my voice came from, but it came
"Simple! How is this simple? I just got ripped out of my home and now I'm expected to be your servant!!!"
"Watch your tone Isabella" he warned
"No! I won't. I can't believe your actually telling me this. What world were you raised on. How is any of this at all appropriate or legal?" I fused.
"Enough!" he yelled. I saw him take quicker steps towards me and I tried to take them back but I hit the wooden desk behind me. I honestly think he's going to hit me. Instead he grabbed me by the hair and said "Now, you will never speak to me like that again, do you understand?" he hissed. He pulled my hair roughly in order to get his point across.
I struggled to get away from him but he didn't let me. So I jumped back from his arms and slapped him in the face…hard. I swear, his eyes turned blood red for a moment.
He turned on his heels and went to a dresser to pick something up. When he turned back to me I saw he had two neck ties in his hand. He grabbed my wrist and I struggled against his grasp but he shouted "Move one more time and I swear to anything in me you'll regret it!"
I froze and he began to tie me up. He put my hands behind my back and bent me over the big wooden desk. He quickly unbuttoned my jeans and pulled them, along with my panties, down my legs. This is the first time anyone has ever seen me without clothes on. I turned bright red and tears started pouring rapidly out of my eyes. Too soon I faintly heard him taking off his belt.
Then I felt it
SMACK
I felt burning across my backside and more tears fell out
SMACK SMACK SMACK
I couldn't take it. My butt is burning worse than ever before. This is the worst pain I have ever felt in my life. This man was spanking me. I have never been spanked before and this hurts so much.
I don't know how long he was beating me until he finally stopped.
He then untied me. I didn't know what to do. This man just hurt me worse than I have ever been hurt before. I have never felt this defenseless in my life. I wish I could just run out of the room, but I know Carlisle is out there and I bet he wouldn't be any kinder than this man in front of me. So, I did the only thing I could do. I dropped to my knees and cried. He let go of me once I hit the floor.
I sobbed violently for the pain going through my body and I began to mourn. I mourned for everything that I lost and will never have. I cried for what my life is becoming and how powerless I am to stop it.
Out of nowhere I felt his arms wrap around me. I flinched to his touch, but otherwise stayed still. I felt a bed under me before I fell to a black out sleep.
I don't know how long I was asleep but I woke up in a cold sweat. I shot up and grimaced. My butt is still burning like hell, so I leaned to the side. I quickly looked around the room. For a second I forgot where I was…that was…until I saw him. Right there sleeping next to me was the man that hit me. The one I'm suppose to marry.
I turned away from him and laid on my side. Tears were freely falling from my eyes and I couldn't stop the sobs from coming out. Then I felt arms wrap around me and I was too tied to move away from him, but he held on firmly.
"Why are you crying?" he asked
"You…you….hurt me." I sobbed. "And I still don't understand any of this."
"What don't you understand?" his tone seemed softer, so I turned around to look at him. He was laying on his side and stared back into my eyes.
I was too scared to talk. I don't want him to hit me again, but I have to know…no…I need to know
"Why me?" my voice cracked, "Why am I here? Why do you want me? Why can't you just go find someone else who wants you?" I pleaded.
He furrowed his eyebrows together like I hurt him and softy he said "You don't want me?"
"Of course I don't! You hurt me and I don't even know you"
He sighed and let out a breath. "What do you want to know?"
I couldn't believe he was asking me this. He made this whole situation seem normal and it's not. This man in front of me is supposed to be my new husband and I don't even…
I laughed dryly. "What's your name?"
"Edward."
I sighed. This all feels so trivial. Like no matter what I do or ask, I'm stuck in this life.
"Why me?" I whispered
"It's really simple Isabella. You were made for me. I knew you were mine the moment I saw you. Look…I know our first night together didn't….go as planned. But I realized something while you were sleeping, I want you. I want all of you. I love you Isabella. I've loved you from the moment I saw your picture. And I want you to want me…no….I want…no…I need you to love me too"
"I can't" I stated simply, not after what happened just hours ago
"Why?" he asked
"I don't want to love a monster" I stared right into his eyes
"What would you have me do then?"
"What are you willing to do?" I asked him back
"Anything…within reason of course. Remember who my father is"
"As long as you treat me equally, I may learn to like you. But Edward, if I do something wrong your can't hurt me. If you hurt me again, I'll never let myself fall in love with you. Ever."
"Then how are we suppose to correct your mistakes?" he asked. He truly looked confused
I was shock. Correct my mistakes?
"Do you hit everyone that makes a mistake in front of you Edward?"
"No."
"Then I would beg for you to give me the same courtesy as you do to anyone else"
He looked down for a moment and looked back up at me. He seemed defeated. I patiently waited for him to get his words out. After what felt like hours, he finally spoke
"I want to Isabella. I really do, but I need you to help me. I don't know any other way to treat a woman" he sighed and continued, "Look, let's make a deal. I'll let you do anything when it's just the two of us, but I need you to appease my father. I need you to be the obedient, respectful and dutiful wife when he's in our presence. If you do that for me, I'll change for you. I love you and I want you to love me too. Can you do that?"
I thought about what he said. He says he loves me, but I don't understand why. I looked back into his deep green eyes and studied them. I saw no lies or deceitfulness in them. He really wanted this…he really wanted us. I can forgive him for hurting me this one time, but not if he does it again
"I can, but only if you never hurt me again Edward. You hurt me bad both physically and mentally. I don't think I can handle another night like that again"
"Okay" he kissed my forehead, "I can work with that" he smiled.
And he did. For our first three months he turned into the man I wanted. I quickly found out that he is indeed my soulmate and I love him. I can't even express how ecstatic he was when I finally said those three little words to him out loud. He threw me in the air and spun me around. Every day and every night since then he would tell me he loved me and I would repeat those words to him.
A year later, the wedding came and passed. Carlisle was the one that walked me down the aisle and frankly I didn't care. I just kept my eyes on Edward and he never broke eye contact with me. He mouthed 'I love you' as I slowly approached him. I kept chanting in my head he loves me he loves me over and over while Carlisle held my arm.
That night, we finally got to stay in our own home far away from Carlisle. We made love for the first time that night and Edward was perfect. It wasn't his first time, but I didn't care. He knew my body better than I knew it. He knew what I like and how I like it. I have never felt so whole in my life. From then on, Edward did everything and anything I asked him to.
Of course we gotten into some heated arguments, turns out we both have hot tempers, but we found other things to do to settle all that adrenaline without resorting to violence. Turns out make up sex was our perfect solution. I noticed, sometimes, Edward would piss me off on purpose just so we could have it out. I have to admit I did the same.
Life was starting to be perfect….
So what the hell lead me here!
Here I am, waiting for the home pregnancy test results to appear. My heart is pounding out of my chest. I bought five of them just in case. God please, don't let me be pregnant.
I don't want to be a mom at the age of eighteen. My belly is going to get so huge and I'll have to…push it out. Ouch.
I know Edward wants a family, but I don't. I'm too young. I told Esme that I didn't want to get pregnant yet, so she has been sneaking me birth control pills everyday whenever Edward's not looking. I accidentally missed one pill and now I'm here waiting for the results in our bathroom.
Luckily, Edward left for work early this morning. I had to wake up a five in order to have his breakfast ready by 5:30am. He explained that he had to take over another doctor's shift. But Edward was very appreciative of the fact that I got up so early without any complaints or whining. He gave me a big kiss and an 'I love you' before he left the house.
Hmm, I love Edward.
He's changed so much for me. He kept his word and never punished me since our first night together. His patience with me did not amuse Carlisle. Carlisle always got on Edward for not punishing me more, but Edward would stick up for me. He would just remind Carlisle that I was his and only he can determine what is best for me. I knew Edward only talked about me this way to Carlisle. He would constantly remind me that I'm more than a possession. That he loves me for me. He really is a great husband
But could he be a great father? Could I be a mother?
I faintly heard the alarm clock go off behind me, interrupting my musings.
Here we go…
I looked over at the pregnancy tests and ALL five of them were positive.
Shit!
I'm pregnant.
I let out a big breath of air.
Okay…I'm pregnant with Edward's baby.
…
OH God!
I can't stay here.
I can't…no…I won't raise a baby here!
This is a toxic place to raise a baby. God, I can only imagine Carlisle being our doctor and delivering our baby. Have his hands pulling out my baby into this world….NO!
I got to draw a line somewhere!
That's it. I have to leave.
But I need a plan. A well thought out plan.
Okay, first things first. I collected all the pregnancy test and threw them back inside the Walgreens plastic bag. I want no evidence of my current situation. Edward never digs in the trash, but I want to be extra safe. So I grabbed the plastic bag with all the tests and stuffed it at the bottom of the brown trash can.
While slowly stepping back inside our bathroom I knew I need a place to go. Well, I can call my best friend Jacob Black. I know he'll help me out. We haven't spoken since Charlie sold me, but I know in my heart he'll help me with anything. He'll give me money for a plane ticket and fly me over to his house in Phoenix.
It's perfect. Edward never knew about Jacob. I didn't want to be the one to tell him that my best friend was a guy…
When I leave, I'll have to change my name. Actually, I think Jake knows someone that could forge ID's.
I know Edward would go out of his mind looking for me. That can't happen. If he found me, he'll try to take our baby away from me. If it's a boy…he'll raise him the same way Carlisle raise Edward. With the same twisted beliefs that women are nothing but child barriers and sex toys. That it's okay to 'punish' your wife for her mistakes.
Oh god! If it's a girl….he'll raise her and train her and then sell her off to be someone else's wife!!
THAT. WILL. NOT. HAPPEN.
I checked the clock on the wall. Edward won't be home until late tonight from the hospital and Carlisle is out of town with Esme on business.
Now is the perfect time to leave. I'll never get a chance like this again.
I ran out of the bathroom (extra careful not to fall) and grabbed my suit case out of the closet. I went to my drawers to pack a week's worth of clothes and the only picture I had of my mother. I'm not a material girl and I could do without all the jewelry Edward has gotten me. But I do want to keep my wedding ring.
I was about to leave the house when I suddenly stopped.
Edward would be worried. He's going to go berserk. He'll think the worst...I should leave him a note. I went to the coffee table to get the notepad and a pen. I wrote:
Edward,
I can't stay here with you anymore. I can't live like this. I know deep in my heart that you could find someone better. Please don't go out and look for me. I can take care of myself.
Always Yours,
Bella Cullen.
I quickly wiped the tears from my eyes while writing the note. I placed the not on the coffee table and walked out the house. With only my suit case and two quarters for the pay phone in my hand, I left…
I left the love of my life.
As much as I truly love Edward, I love our baby more. I want our baby to have a better life than me or Edward. I want it to have something we didn't have: a choice
"Mommy! Mommy!" I turned to the noise. I tried to quickly ignore the sharp pain in my chest from remembering leaving my husband.
There stood my beautiful six year old daughter. She's stunning. She has my skin complexion and big brown eyes. Everything else in her is pure Edward. She has his bronze hair, his perfect nose and his domineering attitude. I swear, she has never met him and yet they are so similar. Sometimes, when she's stressed out or agitated, she would run her hands through her hair just like Edward.
I smiled
"Yes angel" I leaned in and picked her up. I always love rocking her back in forth when we're talking. It's like we're in our own world.
"Mommy, Jake said that you're leaving! Where ya goin' mommy?" She scrunched up her little face while waiting for my answer. I could tell she's worried. Ever since she was born we've always been together. This is the first time we'll be apart for a whole weekend.
"Well, I'm going to visit a…old friend" I told her
She asked me once about her father a while ago. I told her the basics. That he's handsome and loves her very much. When she asked why she can't see him, I just told her I'll tell her when she's older. She sighed but conceded.
"Why can't I come?" she asked stubbornly.
"Emma, you can't always come with me. Don't worry. You get to spend a lot of time with Jacob. I know how much you like to spend time with him, Leigh and Jackie. Don't you like playing with Jackie, angel?"
Jackie is Jacob's daughter. Jake and Leigh got married eight years ago and only had one child. Emma and Jackie are not that far in age, so their close
"Duh! Of course I do. I luv Jackie! But…I don't wanna let you go!!!!" she whined.
It makes me laugh how truly similar she is to Edward.
Having Emma around always gave me a consistent reminder of Edward. Not a day goes by without me thinking about him. When I noticed that our seventh year anniversary was coming, I made a decision.
I am going to see him.
I just miss him so much. Some days, when I wake up in the mornings, I would reach for him on his side of the bed. My heart would break a little every time I remembered he's not here...even worse…he's not here because of I left. Gosh, I just want to spend some time with him. Take advantage of all the things I miss most about him: his smell, his hair, his body, his touch, and of course his returned love for me.
But I need a plan. I just can't show up without a plan.
So, I told Jake. He told me this was a stupid idea and Edward would somehow find out about Emma. Jake love's Emma to death. Our daughters got along like sisters. If Edward would try to take Emma away, it would crush Jake too.
I explained to Jake that I really miss Edward and I need to see him. I told him that seven years is a really long time to go without seeing your other half. I told him I haven't been able to take a full breath since I left. Jake tried to argue with me by suggesting the possibility that Edward could be with another woman, but I know Edward. I'm the only women he'll ever love. If he is with someone else, which hurt me just thinking it, he'd leave her for me.
That night Jacob and I started forming our plan. We made sure to take extra precautions. I'm going to fly back to Forks on our anniversary day. I'll make sure to leave my return tickets at the airport locker. Jake suggested for me not to carry a purse. Edward might get sly by looking for any information to my current whereabouts. I made sure that I was going to take a cab to his house. So I wouldn't leave any trail of my new identity: Isabella Rene Thomas. Nickname: Izzy.
I also decided to tell Edward the truth when I'd see him. I would tell him that I'm only here for the night and that I'll leave in the morning. It would be very immoral of me to just sneak off while he slept. I know Edward; it would break his heart again if I just left him without a word.
I looked back to my daughter and smiled.
"Emma, I'll be home in two days. Okay? Look, I promise to get you something really nice while I'm gone" I winked at her. Her face lit up
"Really? For me? Awe thanks mommy. Ya gonna tell me whatcha gettin' me?" she asked.
"No angel, it's going to be a surprise" I told her. Frankly, I don't know what I'm getting her yet, but she doesn't have to know that. And I'll most likely get Jackie something too.
Jacob, Jackie and Emma took me to the airport. Jackie fell asleep in Jake's arms when my plane was called to board.
"Thanks for the ride Jake and for watching Emma for me." I turned and gave him a tight hug.
"No problem Bells. Me and Leigh love having her. You just call me if something happens, okay? I'll be in Forks in a second if he even thinks about keeping you." Jake sternly told me.
I smiled at him and turned to my daughter.
"I love you Emma. I'll see you soon" I picked her up and held her to me. I rocked her back and forth for an immeasurable amount of time. As I held her I had an epiphany: Edward may be my life, but I'd give my life up for her. She's worth more than my own life. I've proved that.
But now I need to do this for me. I need to give me and Edward one more night.
"I love you too mommy" She leaned in and gave me a peck on the cheek.
I held back the tears and sat her on her feet. She went over to Jake and held onto his big leg.
I waved back at them as I turned to board the plane.
Wow. I'm really going to do this.
I'm finally going to see Edward after seven years. I can only that hope everything works out…
Entering our password to open the gate made this situation more real. Huh, I'm going to see him. I just…I can't believe I'm going to do this. I can't believe after all this time I'm going to see him…my husband, my love, my (unknowingly to him) child's father. Gosh, we have been separated for seven long years. Even though we didn't have a normal beginning, he's still the love of my life. Edward is the only man I want.
I gave the taxi driver his money plus a tip. I reminded him to be here at 7:00am tomorrow. I watched the gate close as he left the property. I quickly noticed the driveway had two cars in it. The silver Volvo is Edward's, but I don't know who's the second car, an Alexis, belongs to. Edward must have company. I walked up to our house and looked for the spare key. He always kept it above the front door frame. With shaky hands, I unlock the door and walk in.
"Oh honey, I can't find the bottle opener" yelled some female from our kitchen.
"Ish en the cabinet above the sheink." Edward voiced from the living room. I know that voice, he's drunk. He's here in our house drunk with another girl on our anniversary. My heart ached as I wondered how many other women he's had throughout our separation.
"Found it! How about we open another bottle honey?" yelled the women.
*RING* RING* RING*
"Oh, honey do you want me to get it?" the women yelled
"Naw, the messhinge will get it" Edward slurred. I think he met the answering machine.
*RING* *CLICK* "This is Edward Cullen's residence. I apologize for missing the call, but please leave a message with your contact information and I'll contact you at my earliest convenience."
*BEEP*
"Edward, it's your father. Even though I know today is not the best day to call but I have to tell you I'm proud of you son. John, from the office, told me that he saw you leave with our receptionist Tanya this evening. That's great. This will defiantly help you get over that slut of a wife you had. Fuck, I'm still reeling over how much money I lost with that one. But anyway, call me in the morning and we'll have lunch."
*BEEP*
Oh, I could recognize that voice in my sleep. That was Carlisle. He's still in Edward's life and from the sound of it they work at the hospital together now. I bet they are closer now since I left. I hate that. I don't like the idea of Carlisle forcing more of his morals onto my Edward.
I took a deep calming breath and looked around. I'm in our hall and it's too late to turn back. I could only hope Carlisle didn't rub too much on Edward already.
Well. Now or never….
I walked into the living room. I could easily see Edward laid out on the couch with an almost empty bottle of scotch in his hand. I looked at the bottle with his fingers tightly wrapped around it and noticed he still wore his wedding ring too. I then took in his appearance. He's still unbelievably gorgeous. This man truly is a god. Even through his clothes I could tell his body is still toned and perfect. His angular face still made my knees weak. He did have slight differences though. He looks older, a little aged. It also looks like he hasn't shaved in weeks. His hair is still chaotic but more so now. It's possible he hasn't showered in a while.
I walked in closer and he quickly looked up to see who the intruder is when he suddenly took in a sharp breath and paused
We locked eyes. We both ignored the commotion in the kitchen. We were in our own world together.
His eyes widen in shock for just a moment. Then suddenly he laughed, not just a normal funny laugh, this was an insane hysterical laugh.
"Ha ha, oh damn. Guesh I finally went all crazy." He snorted, all the humor quickly ripped from his voice.
I walked over to him slowly, his eyes never leaving me as I walked. Right when I was inches away from him, he automatically buried his face into my stomach wrapping his strong arms around my waist to bring me closer to him.
"I'm crazy to think you are actually here" He sighed, almost to himself. I noticed his speech is clearing up.
"You're not crazy Edward. I'm here" I whispered. I grabbed the top of his head and squeezed his hair for reassurance.
"Honey, what do ya say we-"
The women walked in the living room and paused when she saw us. Edward didn't give this woman a glance; he just pulled his arms tighter around me and continued to bury his face in my stomach.
"Who the fuck are you?" the woman yelled at me.
I am not in the mood for this
"I'm Edward's wife. Now, get the fuck out of our house" I stated. I didn't scream or yell at her. I just stated a fact.
"He doesn't have a wife" she replied with venom in her voice
"Didn't you notice the ring on his finger? That should have been your first clue. Now get out of our house or I'll call the police" I looked straight in her eye.
"Ed-"
"You heard her." Edward said from my stomach, not even looking at her. He continued to hold me tightly as if I was going to disappear at any moment.
I looked back at the top of his head and stroked my fingers threw his hair. He sighed into my stomach and held me tighter. I heard a loud 'hump' and the front door slam.
Silence took over for a few minutes. I just stood there with Edward. He didn't let go of me and I rocked us together as I ran my hands through his hair. Finally, Edward spoke
"You're really here."
"You're drunk" I stated.
"I'm always drunk on our anniversary." He retorted bitterly. "I've been looking for you for years, you know? Where did you go?" He asked. He looked up and his eyes were rimmed red. I saw anger in his eyes, but there was also something else….relief?
"No." I told him
"No?" He questioned.
"No. Edward I miss you more than I can say, but you have to follow the rules"
"Rules?"
"Yes, rules. I promise to stay the night here with you on our anniversary, but only if you can follow the rules." I kept my voice strong. Even though in the inside, I was a mess. I have only talked to Edward like this once, and that ended with him punishing me. I shivered.
"What are your rules?" He asked.
I couldn't believe it. He's going with this.
"Well…um. You cannot ask me where I live. You can't ask me anything about the present. And you cannot stop me when I leave in the morning."
"What makes you think I'll let you leave?"
"If that's how you feel, I'll leave now"
"What makes you think I'll let you leave?" He repeated. His voice was getting stronger. This situation must be getting realer to him during his drunken stage.
"I'm not like I was before Edward. I'll call the police. I'll put you in jail if you hurt me. I have friends waiting for me to a reply to them. If I don't contact them tomorrow, they'll call the police for me." I countered. He has to know the facts. He has to know that he won't keep me here against my will.
"Then why, love? Why did you come back to me just to leave me again?" He whispered.
I got on my knees so I could look right into his eyes while I stroked his cheek with my hand.
"Because Edward. I miss you." I sighed. "I miss you so much. I want to be with you. I want us together tonight"
"If you miss me so much, why don't you come home? Please baby, come home to me." He said. His eyes were so pleading.
"I can't Edward….it's complicating. Please don't ask me again."
"Yeah, I forgot. The RULES." He laughed dryly
"You're drunk" I restated
"I'm sober enough to pleasure my wife" He wiggled his eyebrows at me
I laughed.
"You smell too Edward. When's the last time you took a shower?" I asked
"I don't really know. These past few days have been hard on me. The faster our impending anniversary kept coming the drunker I would get. I guess I ignored some human details" he said sheepishly
I stood up without another word and grabbed took his hand in mine. He stood up without question and followed me. I lead us towards the master bedroom, our room, foregoing our bed and heading to the master bathroom.
I turned to him and he was just watching me. His eyes were so intense I had to look away. I went to the shower and turned the hot water on. Waiting for it to heat up, I turned around to Edward and walked slowly back to him. Without a word, I went to the hem of his shirt and lifted it up. He raised his arms and let me take his shirt off. I stood back and just stared at the naked upper half of his body. It's so perfect. His muscular shoulders, strong abs, his board chest…everything is just perfect.
"Like what you see?" He smiled
I got closer to him and planted a tender kiss on his right shoulder. I heard him hold his breath while I kept kissing him towards his left shoulder. I kept kissing his chest. I finally got on my knees and kissed my way down his abs and stomach. I quickly took off his socks and shoes. Then I got back to worshiping his body. While kissing anywhere I could, I started unbuttoning his pants. Edward ran his fingers threw my hair encouraging me to continue. I pulled down his pants and boxers all in one swoop. I moved his clothes over and began to kiss up both of his legs. I took my time on each one of his thighs. I made it to the middle of his stomach and noticed his erection. I would never admit this out loud, but I was happy I still could get this reaction out of him. I leaned in and kissed the tip of it just to taste him for a bit before I stood back up.
Without a word, Edward pulled me to him and kissed me on the lips with so much passion and desire that a tear fell down my cheek.
He kissed my tear away
"Care to join me in the shower, love?"
"That's the plan" I whispered as I tried to regain my composter.
"Then let's get you out of these clothes" he affirmed
I reached to take my shirt off when he stopped me. I looked up at him questionably.
"Allow me"
He kissed me tenderly on the lips again. He started swiping my mouth with his full lips and tongue. I felt his scruffy cheek rub against my skin. It's not a bad feeling, but I miss his smooth skin. He sighed and started kissing me along my jaw line to my neck. He reached under my blouse and rubbed my bare back pulling me closer to his naked body. I moaned. He feels so good. He raised my shirt over my head to take off my shirt. Then he just stared at me. He smiled. He leaned down and kissed my collarbone while unhooking my bra. Finally releasing me, he threw my bra with the rest of our disregarded clothes. He stopped and looked at me, his eyes trained on my bare breast.
"Beautiful" he exhaled
He leaned down and rubbed his face in between the valley of my breast, just enjoying the feeling of me surrounding him. He began rubbing my flat belly up to my where I wanted him. He massaged my breast and I moaned against him.
"You like that baby?" he asked.
I nodded, not trusting my voice
He continued to massage me so tenderly. He lowered his mouth onto my right breast and started sucking my nipple into his mouth while massaging the left one with his other hand. I moaned again. He knows my body better than I know myself. He knows where to put his hands and mouth; he knows where to apply the right amount of pressure in order to make me go insane. His mouth started heading south. He kept his mouth on my stomach while he quickly removed my socks and shoes. Soon enough, I felt his hands brush against my jeans unbuttoning them. Placing kisses all along my newly exposed skin, he removed my jeans and panties all at once. I stepped out of them and he held me steady so I don't fall. He rose up to check out my naked body
"I can see your body is fuller now." I blushed at his words. He smiled. "I like it love, see how perfect you fit in my arms now?" He tightly wrapped his arms around me.
I know my body has changed. After having Emma, my breasts are bigger and my hips are slightly rounder. My frame is still petite though and I'm proud of that. Not that many women can look this good after having a baby….but of course I can't tell him that
"You've changed too Edward" I kissed chest. "Come on" I turned around and changed the water to the perfect temperature for the both of us. The shower is quite large so we both comfortably fit in.
I turned to him and watched water beading down his skin making it so warm and inviting. I wrapped my arms around his shoulders and kissed down his chest; I even sucked some of the water off of him. I reached up for the shampoo and began to wash his hair. He leaned into my hands, enjoying the feeling of my fingers running through his hair. I backed into the tile wall allowing the water to rinse out the soap from his hair. After thoroughly wising his hair, he leaned in and kissed my lips chastely.
I kissed him back. I reached up and grabbed the soap from its place. I lathered the soap up into the lofa. I ran the lofa all over his glorious body. I was in no hurry. I took my time massaging every spot in his body. I paid particularly special attention to his muscular chest.
"That feels so good Bella"
"The view isn't too bad either" I giggled
"Glad you approve." He laughed, "Oh…oh Bella…do you see what you still do to me baby?" he moaned
We both looked down and I saw his hard cock pointing straight up at me. I smirked at him. I gently grabbed it and stroked it with my soapy hand. I felt it twitch when he moaned loudly and said my name like a prayer. I smiled to myself and let him go. He groaned but I continued cleaning him with the lofa. Once I finished, I rinsed him off, making sure not to miss a spot.
Finally, he's clean. I smiled at him and he gave me my favorite croaked grin. He slowly leaned in and brushed his lips to mine. I wrapped my arms around his neck and held him closer to me. I felt his tongue on my lips and quickly I opened my mouth to him. Both our tongues tangled in the most wonderful way. I started moaning against his mouth and he pulled me even closer. I felt that familiar warmth spread between my legs and I shivered. Edward pressed his hard cock into my stomach and I moaned again. God I love him.
Then Edward suddenly stopped and turned away from me
When he turned back around I gave him questionable look. He smiled and showed me my strawberry shampoo. I gasped. He kept my shampoo here in our shower. All this time…
"I always hoped you come back home to me. I wanted it to feel like you never left" he whispered.
I gasped. Seven years? Right then I knew that he missed me more than he would ever say.
"Thank you" I murmured softly, trying to hold back my tears, I feel so bad
"I'm just glad you're here love" he reassured me, "Now come here." He poured my strawberry shampoo in his hands and began massaging my scalp with it. I turned around and leaned my back into his chest while he continued to wash my hair.
"Hmm…Edward" I sighed.
Once he finished, he grabbed the shower head and pointed it toward us. He gently rinsed off my soapy hair.
I closed my eyes and leaned my head back into his shoulder. He sighed and wrapped his arms tightly around my waist. We just stood there for a long while. He just rocked us and I hummed against his neck enjoying this feeling he's giving me. I always feel safe and warm in his arms.
I felt the water start to run cold, so I quickly turned it off. I opened the shower curtain and helped him out. I reached for the two towels and wrapped one around myself. I turned to Edward and slowly ran the towel all over his body. Once he was perfectly dry, I wrapped the towel around his waist.
I grabbed his hand and lead him towards the sink. I turned the water on and spun around to look at him.
"Now let's get rid of this" I rubbed my hands through his scruffy cheeks.
"Yeah, I've been meaning to do that" he laughed.
"Allow me" I repeated his words from earlier.
I went inside the cabinet and picked up the ignored shaving cream. I squeezed a lot in the palm of my hand and tenderly massaged it around his cheeks and neck. He hummed against my hands in pleasure. I smiled again, bet no other women have shaven him like this, I thought smugly
I turned around and grabbed the razor from the cabinet.
When I turned back around to face Edward I quickly frowned. Right then I noticed that our angle is all wrong. He's too tall.
He noticed my little pout and chucked
"Need help?" he asked
Without an answer from me, he picked me up and sat me on top of the sink.
I giggled at him and the force of my giggle made me fall backwards towards the inside of the sink. Startled, I quickly locked my legs around his waist so I wouldn't fall in. He placed both of his hands on the outside of my thighs to keep me close to him. He grinned at me and I smiled back. We like this new position.
I ran my hand through his hair and gently tugged the back of his hair. He got the hint and leaned his head back, looking up towards the ceiling, so I could start shaving his neck. Careful not to cut him, I ran the razor up and down his face.
With smooth strokes and careful swipes, I finished him. I ran a damp towel over his face to take off the access shaving cream off of him. I paused for a moment to take in a look of my own handiwork. He looks great. This is the Edward I missed. This is the man I fell in love with all those years ago. I looked into his stunning green eyes and they smoldered more back at my brown ones.
"Thank you" Edward said. He leaned in to give me a chaste kiss, but when he tried to release I held onto him by the neck longer. He wordlessly understood and deepens our kiss. I felt his tongue moving around my mouth and he moaned with the sensation. I kissed him back, just completely enjoying the feeling only he could give me. He firmed his grip on my thighs and pulled them further apart. The towel started ridding up my waist and exposing me more to him. I crossed my legs tighter around his waist, so I don't fall in the sink, but otherwise allow him total access to my body. When I pulled my lips off of him to breath, he rubbed his now smooth face against my neck.
I started grinding my hips against his. He groaned as he kissed me with more passion. He slowly put his hand between my legs and started stroking his fingers between my slit. When he hit my clit I moaned even louder.
"Oh…Edward…"
"Yes love?" he replied almost innocently
"Please…."
"What love? What do you want?" He smiled against my neck. He's teasing me. He knows exactly what I want. He just wants me to say the words….God…I hate it when he does that! He knows I don't like to say it
"You know…" I whispered. Hopefully this is good enough. When his hands are doing these wonderful things to me…well, I'm not really thinking all that clearly.
"It's been a while love. I'm not that in tune with your body as much as I use to be. I need you to tell me what you want"
"Too many other girls flogged up your memory" I teased bitterly.
He added a finger inside of me and I moaned out his name loudly.
"No love. No other woman could replace you," he moved his finger faster in me and I moaned again at the feeling. "Oh Bella, you're so wet for me baby"
"Edward…"
"Let's go to our bed" Without word he took my towel and his towel off. We were both naked. He secured my leg's grip on his waist and picked me up by my ass. He led us toward our bedroom without taking his lips off my neck.
I felt the bed under me as he gently laid me down. I thought he was going to lay on top of me but he didn't. He just stood in front of the bed and stared back at me. He looked deeply at the scene before him: me on our bed naked. He couldn't stop the crocked smile that passed his lips, which made me smile back at him. He knows I love that smile.
Slowly, he crawled to me pressuring his body against mine. He looked deep in my eyes and rubbed my cheek with his right hand
"God I've missed you" his whispered
"I love you Edward" I told him, tears welling up in my eyes. I haven't said those words to him in so long
"Really?" he sighed cautiously
"Yes. I love you so much Edward" I cried. I really do
"I love you too baby, so much it hurts….God…it hurts so much. I wake up here every morning without you, just waiting for you to come home. Oh my love, don't leave me again. I can't-
"Shhh. Edward" I put my finger against his lips to silence him. "Please, just make love to me" my eyes pleaded.
"I have to know something baby, please just answer me truthfully, I won't get mad…" his eyes bore into mine and I knew exactly what he want to hear. So I told him the truth
"No one. I've been with no one. You're the last person I've kissed Edward. You're my one and only" I looked straight at him. I know he can tell when I'm lying, so this should prove to him that I'm not.
Without another word, Edward crashed his mouth with mine. I moaned into this kiss. It's so passionate and loving. I never want to leave.
He left my lips and traveled down my neck. I ran my fingers through his hair while he continued down. He reached between the valley of my breast and kissed where my heartbeat is. I looked down at him and smiled. He bent down and took my left nipple into his mouth while kneading the other with his hand. I moaned loudly. Oh, he knows exactly what I want
"Hmmm, baby I want to hear you" Edward mused
He switched breast, giving it all the love and attention the other got. He worked himself down and kissed my belly. He held on longer there than I would have thought. Flashes of him kissing my pregnant belly went through my mind. I wanted that. I wanted him there for me when I was round with our baby so badly. Just thinking of that made a tear fall from my eye
"Why are you crying love?" his voice was so tender that more tears fell from my eyes
"N-Nothing. I just love you so much. God Edward I missed you" I sighed
"I love you too" he planted another kiss on my belly and continued down. He bypassed where I wanted him and kissed down my left thigh
"Tease" I whispered
He chuckled. "Impatient are we?"
He kissed my ankle and thankfully starting moving his lips up. Painfully slowly he reached my right thigh
"Is this where you want me?" he licked inside my thigh
"Um-nh" I muttered
"No? Hmm, what to do?" he moved over to the inside of my left thigh
"Here?"
"Edward"
"Oh well, how about here…" with that he plunged his tongue deep in me.
"Holy Shit!!!!" I yelped. I totally forgot how good this feels….
I felt him chuckle from between my legs. Frankly I didn't care if he thought I was funny, just as long as he doesn't stop
He separated my folds with his fingers and sucked on my clit. I moaned. He inched his two long, piano fingers in me
"Fuck Bella, you're so fucking tight"
"Edward"
"I know baby, I know what you want" he circled my clit with his tongue as his two finger pulled in and out of me.
Time just stopped. I couldn't think at all clearly. This feels so good, but this isn't how I wanted my first orgasm
"Please….Edward…s-stop…"
He shot up. "What? Did I hurt you? Are you okay" he turned all doctor mode on me in like .5 seconds
"Yes fine, but I need you"
He sighed knowing I was okay. "You have me."
"No, I want you. I want you're…" I didn't want to end the line
"Say it"
I blushed looking down at him. He rested his head on my hip. "Edward make love to me please. It's been too long."
Without another word he gave one nice long lick and kissed his way up my body. Once he reached my neck moved and sucked on my earlobe. He whispered
"This might hurt you. Seven years is a long time"
"I know, please Edward. I need you"
"Okay." He looked deep in my eyes and I stared right back at him. He cupped his hand on my cheek and kissed me softly. I kissed him back, grazing my tongue on his soft lips. I felt his other hand go down to position himself between my legs. He kissed me harder when I felt him. He's right at my entrance. Just one easy thrust and that's it
He pulled away from the kiss and looked back at me
"I love you my wife"
"I love you my husband, always"
With that he quickly pushed into me, hard and deep. I screamed in pain. I forgot how big he is, in hindsight, two fingers were not enough to get me ready.
I turned my face into the pillow and I felt his breath on my neck. He was completely still, waiting for me to adjust. I know that must take a lot of his control to not move.
I slowly started moving my hips up to him, letting him know I was okay. He understood and grabbed my hips. He thrust in me very slowly. He was treating me like I was made of glass.
As we continued the burning in my stomach kept growing and Edward wasn't moving fast enough
"Faster Edward, please"
"Anything for you" he groaned as he picked up his pace. I felt a little pain but it was quickly gone and replaced by sheer pleasure.
"Oh baby, you so wet and tight for me. Oh…oh…god…I don't think I can last any longer"
"Edward don't stop. This…feels…so…good…"
He didn't stop; instead he pounded harder and faster in me. Oh, how I love this man
Nothing but our body noises and moaning filled our room. I couldn't grasp words to describe this moment, I was so close. He continued to pound harder and then he finally spoke
"Oh Bella, tell me how much you missed me" he groaned as he continued to pound himself harder in me
"I…missed…you so much Edward…please oh…please Edward…" I moaned with every thrust
"That right you did…uh…yea…say I'm the only one…oh…I'm the only one that can make you feel this way…"
"Oh"
"Say it!"
"Only you Edward. Oh god Edward don't stop. Please please please…" I chanted. I'm so close
"That's right baby! Only me. Your mine!" he yelled and bit my shoulder…hard
I screamed!
"Oh yes, I'm yours. Only yours!! Edward…I'm…..I'm…."
"Come for me baby, come hard for me"
"Ohohohohohohohohohohohoh….." I screamed. He continued his hard motion without missing a beat while I rode out my orgasm. I was seeing stars when I felt him still him me
"Bella!" he yelled and I felt his hot come flow inside me. It felt so good I came on him over again.
Somewhere deep in the back of my head I thank god that I'm on birth control
He laid on top of me for a while without moving. His head was in between my shoulder and neck. He was still inside me and I could feel his dick softening. I'm so comfortable right now that I didn't want to move. Sadly, Edward pulled out and rolled off of me, but he pulled me with him to lie on his chest
"Oh Bella…that was…"
"Amazing…Edward that was amazing" I breathed out.
"The best I've ever had"
"Hmmm. I guess absence really does make the heart grow fonder" I laughed
"No baby. We were always amazing, you just forgot"
"I've never forgotten, but it has been a while for me"
"Yeah, I could feel the difference….care to do it again?" he wiggled his eyebrows at me.
"I don't think you could handle me again Mr. Cullen" I teased. I placed my hands on his strong chest in order to sit up and straddle him
"Oh I think I might Mrs. Cullen" he lifted my hips off him and angled me on top of his already hard cock. Without another word he slammed me onto him and we both screamed in ecstasy.
Oh!!!! I know I'm not going to last long.
We made love three more times that night before Edward fell asleep. I didn't sleep the whole night though. I just watched him sleep in total bliss. I ran my fingers threw his hair and just watched his face twitch in a smile. He loves me; he really does love that I'm here with him. I wish I could just stay here with him. Just stay with him in our happy bubble. But I have to get home to Emma. I can't have her here around him. Carlisle is still too involved in Edward's life. We'll never be happy together as a family. I'll have to wait
I checked the clock and it read 6:50am. I have to get ready to leave. I extracted myself away from Edward, his smile quickly faded. He started stirring awake. I was at the closet when I heard him
"Where are you going?"
"I have to leave Edward. My cab should be pulling up soon"
"Don't go love. Just…just stay for breakfast. I know this good-"
"I have to go" I tried to sound cold, but it really came out more like a whimper
"Please baby. I'll beg if that makes a difference" his voice cracked and my heart just broke. I turned around and saw the painful look on his face and I couldn't help it.
"Edward" I cried. I ran to the bed and he opened his arms for me.
"Shhhh. Please baby I'm here. Don't leave me. I'll do whatever you want. We can go anywhere you want. I don't care. These seven years have been hell for me. And then last night….God Bella…I can't live the rest of my life without you" he whispered. I felt a foreign tear fall on my cheek and I quickly realized it was his. I just stayed in his arms while he rocked us together. I kissed his chest
"I have to go. I'm sorry Edward. I love you, I always will. You're the love of my life. I'll never be with anyone else, I promise"
"I know Bella. I know you love me" he kissed my lips. He looked into my eyes and said "I'm not stupid you know, something is keeping you away from me. I'm not going to stop looking for you. I need you too much. I will find you and bring you home."
"I understand. But I won't stop running. Please just let me be. We'll be together again….just not for a while"
"I'll find you soon love," he said completely ignoring what I said. "I love you so much baby. I promise you this isn't goodbye" he kissed my forehead
I leaned in and kissed his lips. I put all the passion and love I had for him in this last kiss. I could even taste the mix of our tears. I gave him one last peck before I shot up and headed out of the room.
I walked out the door and saw that my cab was outside the gate. I turned towards our bedroom and saw a shirtless Edward staring back at me. I waved at him and he waved back. I won't forget his promise he made me but I've made one too:
This is our final night…
For now….
A/N: Hope you all liked it. This story was inspired by rmcrms5. Thanks for supporting me and allowing me to do this story!
Just so you know, I'm not making this a story. It is, however, going to be a three shot mini. So, part two (One Final Night…An Angels Vist) is next…and it's in Edward's POV. So, please review. The more reviews, the faster the next update will be.
Lots of Love,
Roxy