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They are already 17 years old here.

Chapter 1: Without You

Natsume sat under the Sakura tree. He misses Mikan. He missed her when she was angry with him. When she smiles at him. When she is with him. When she is annoying him. Now, she is with another man.

He envies Ruka he is with Hotaru for the past three years. Three months past Yuu and Sumire got together. Nonoko is with Koko for two years. Anna and the levitating person for two months (I do not know his name). He envies all of his friends. Mikan has no permanent boy friend; she kept changing boy friends months by months. Boys follow her everywhere even her ex-boy friends wanted to be with her again. As for him, many girls are with him but just for a fling or a one - night stand, (I know that they are too young for that matter, but that is how the story goes). He misses her. He wants to hug her, to kiss her, to be with her. As in to be with her in bed! (Please spare me).

He remembers the day when he and Mikan have their own separate ways. It has been four years…

Flashback…

Natsume sat under the sakura tree reading his manga when a certain brown-haired girl approaches him.

"Good afternoon Natsume" she greeted him cheerfully.

"…" no response

"Natsume, can I ask you something?"

"Go on don't waste my time" he said coldly.

"Well, you see there are some boys who purposes to me to be their girlfriend. Do you think it's alright?"

Natsume looked at her faced. Natsume thought that she was so beautiful. He saw seriousness on her face. He looked away.

"Why should I care? Do what you want" he said. "No, of course it is not okay!" Natsume thought.

"Oh, okay" she said she sound a bit hurt.

The next day…

Natsume saw Mikan with another guy; they are holding each other's hand. Mikan just look at him and give him a small smile. Then look away and walked away from him with her boyfriend.

He feels his heart hurt. He knows in himself that his heart is breaking into pieces right now and it cannot be mend without her.

Since that day, they did not get along just liked before. She still greets him but she did not annoy him anymore.

Since that day, she kept changing boy friends and for him he kept changing girls too.

End of flashback…

She changed a lot since that day; she is not the annoying girl anymore. She is matured since that day.

Natsume feel the cool breeze of the wind. It makes him shiver. He feels so lonely for the past four years. He keeps his loneliness to himself; even Ruka asked him what is wrong with him he did not bother to tell him.

He heard footsteps approaching him. The person sat besides him and it suddenly speaks…

"You know what Natsume you should tell her what you feels," the voice said to him in a very serious tone.

"What do you want now Koko?" he asked in a very cold tone he could muster.

"You should tell her what you feel about her or else the two of you will be trap in darkness forever. You two feel the same way, why do not you let it out. You and Mikan make it harder for the two of you," Koko said with full of concern in his words.

"Don't lecture me or I'll burn you!" Natsume said to him. He was annoyed, he does not like this kind of Kokoroyomi, and he was so matured. He even talks liked a father to him.

"For god's sake Natsume! We are not 10 years old anymore for you to act liked that. We are not even 11, 12, or 13, we are 17 years old. I thought you are a genius, why did not you think of being matured. You play with boys liked they are some kind of a toy" he said to him in a very disgusting voice.

"Mind your own business. What do you know anyway? You do not know a single thing about how I feel and what that little girl feeling. Stop acting liked you know everything," Natsume said to him, now looking at Koko.

"Natsume do you forget what I have?" he look into Natsume's face eye to eye. I can read peoples minds, I know what they are thinking. I know everything around them. People's thoughts are just entering my mind, liked they are part of me. That makes mo know everything, which makes me know what you thinks" he looked away. "As for Mikan, she tells me everything, every night. You may not notice it but she is waiting for something rather for someone. It is up to you what you will do. If you want to be happy, do what your hearts tells you to do" after saying that, Koko stands up and brush away the dirt pants he walked away without even a single goodbye on him.

Natsume lay on the grass when Koko walked away. It kept echoing in his mind what he said a while ago. "She's waiting for something rather for someone". Who is this someone? It cannot be him. Who is it? These questions keep on repeating in his mind. He is losing hope to have her, to be with her. Someone approached him.

"Natsume are you coming at our gig tonight?"

He opens his eyes to see who the owner of the voice is. It is a pink haired girl with brown eyes. Probably one of his girls.

"Yeah" he stood up.

The girl clung to his arms. They walked together.