Hello! My readers! This is a new story that I'm starting, but, with my short attention span and inability to keep with one story for long, I can't guarantee that I will update very fast if at all. If you read Vampire Academy then please check out my Vampire Academy MSN. People tell me its pretty funny. I'm not sure if this is good, but whatever.
Disclaimer: I don't own the characters but I do own the story and the story idea.
Warning: This is yaoi or slash, which means boyxboy. The pairing is either RenjixByakuya or RenjixIchigo, I haven't decided yet. I do hope to have a lemon or two later on down the line, but I will put up plenty of warnings.
Flames Will Be Laughed At. Hah.
Renji's P.O.V
Forbidden love. We all want it yet refuse to acknowledge the truth. We want forbidden love for the simple reason that it's forbidden. We want to rebel. Fight the system no matter how useful it is. The rules hold us back from doing what we have to. They keep us from surviving on nothing but our instincts. But, deep inside, those instincts are still there. They tell us to disobey and do what we want. They are that little voice that tells us that the rules are stupid and we have no reason to follow them. So, to survive, we break the rules.
One of these rules is one all teens know. DON'T FALL IN LOVE WITH YOUR FRIEND'S BOYFRIEND! Yet it is for exactly that reason that we do. Since he is your friend's boyfriend, obviously, he is off limits. So the voice of our instincts tells us that we must take him.
Of course there's always the possibility that he won't want you. Especially if you're a boy, like me. But you've already decided. He will be yours. Your instincts have already taken over and your mind is set. You won't lose him. I won't lose him. God, I sound like a fucking Zen audio book.
Rukia and I have been best friends since before I can remember, and I would never do anything to hurt her. Well except steal her boyfriend. But we're teenagers, I mean, how attached can she be to one of her many high school boyfriends?
Okay, so actually she's really attached. Why him? Why not that Shuhei guy? I don't see what's so special to her about him. He's just a boy. A boy that I have to have. I'm not possessive or anything… Well, usually. I like him though, a lot. His beautiful orange hair is so silky. Oh, that sounded kind of bad. Okay let's get this straight. Yes, I have touched his hair, but it was an accident. I accidentally tripped and I fell on top of him. Yes, it was a real accident.
Still, his hair was so soft. And his eyes are such a nice shade of cinnamon brown, much like my own actually, but lighter. And his slight, lithe frame, not quite girly, but it has a certain femininity to it. But the way Rukia looks at him. Like he's a life boat in the middle of the Atlantic Ocean.
Rukia's always been a very dense person, especially when it comes to other's feelings. Especially when it comes to my feelings. She doesn't notice that I look at him the same, if not more. More like he's the cure to fucking leukemia and I have stage three terminal cancer.
I sometime's get the feeling he feels the same. A look, a soft touch, but then it's gone, just as soon as it came. And then he's with her, laughing, smiling, looking like the happiest person in the world. And so does she.
It's not like I don't want her to be happy, quite the opposite actually. It's just that I can't stand around and watch her be happy with him. Not when I'm standing right there, not even two feet away, practically drowning in my own depression.
Rukia says that as soon as I get a girlfriend we can double date, so that she's not just dragging me around to the movies. I don't mind though. I don't have many friends, just two other than Rukia, and they barely talk to me now that they have boyfriends. Hinamori and Toshiro are a pretty cute couple, they're both midgets. But Izuru's boyfriend, Gin, kind of creeps me out. I will admit though, he's hot. Actually, if I'm being honest with myself, Izuru's hot too.
But anyways, I'm getting off track. Ichigo, that's his name if I didn't mention it earlier, is definitely becoming one of my close friends. We have the same taste in music, clothes, websites, and food. He just transferred here from some other boarding school. I'm not really sure why. I'll have to ask him.
By the way, my name is Renji, I'm about 5'12 and fairly muscular, I mean I definitely have an eight-pack. I have long red hair I usually keep tied up and dark cinnamon brown eyes that I mentioned earlier. I also have quite a few tattoo's in random places on my body, including on my forehead(Damn those hurt), and my chest.
Hmmm. I wonder if Ichigo likes tattoo's? What if he hates them or thinks they're weird? Okay, okay, calm down Renji. You're just thinking irrationally. "Damn, I'm suffering from a common and extremely painful decease."
"What?"
Ichigo's P.O.V
"What?" I asked, coming up behind Renji. He had been sitting there, staring off into the distance all class period, he hadn't even twitched when the bell rang. "You do know class is out right?"
He looked up, a startled expression on his face. "Huh? Oh." He got up quickly and started to walk away, and at that moment I was once again hit with his beauty. His long red hair and gorgeous eyes. And he was strong too, not, like, ripped or anything, but subtly muscular. I loved his tattoo's too.
I caught up to him on our way to the cafeteria. "What disease do you have?" I asked, confused. Was he sick? He had said it was common… A cold? The flu? I hoped it was nothing serious.
"Oh it's nothing," he said carelessly, " Just a little bug. Must be something going around." But I could see something in his eyes, something he always seemed to have. It looked almost like… "You said it was painful."
He flinched. "Not really. Just a sort of… dull ache. That's all." He was lying, I could tell. We were good friends now. I could tell these sorts of things. I was going to say something but just then Rukia bounced up to us and gave me a light kiss on the cheek. I saw another funny look cross Renji's face.
"Tomorrow's summer!" Rukia was practically bursting with excitement. "Ichigo you should invite some of you're other friends from your old school to come here! I would love to meet them! And you're parents!" I wasn't paying attention to her, I was too busy watching Renji's face become darker and more shadowed. I flinched slightly, though, at her words. They can't meet my parents. Or my 'friends.'
I looked up again though when I saw Renji turn around and move to walk away. "I have to go to the bathroom." He said carelessly over his shoulder, but I could read him. There was one thing I was sure of.
He's hiding something.
Renji's P.O.V
He's hiding something.
I saw him flinch, and he looked almost like he was in pain when Rukia mentioned meeting his parents and his friends. Was there something bad that happened before he moved. I am sure it was something painful to him. I'm become to accustomed to the expression of pain. After all I do see it every time I look in the mirror, which I am currently doing.
My face is well enough, I guess. My eyeliner is smudged though. Oh yeah, I wear eyeliner, so do Ichigo and Rukia, although I guess for her it's not that unusual. Our 'clique' at school is considered the 'emo' or 'goth' clique. People stay away from us, they're scared of us. We're just scary people.
I get annoyed when people get the definition of emo wrong. I mean, really, it's not that hard. Emo stands for Emotional as in, showing your emotions. That's why you'll see some 'emos' walking around with totally random, super-bright neon clothes, and others with black, dark and evil seeming clothes. It all depends on their emotions. Also, not all 'emos' are cutters.
Okay, sorry about that little rant. I just got kind of out of hand. I do that a lot it seems. Ichigo seemed worried about me earlier, he was asking what disease I had. It's not like I could just say something like, Oh yeah it's nothing, the disease I was talking about was love, and just incase you were wondering it's actually you that I'm in love with. Just a little FYI for you.
Damn. I'm losing it. I'm using sarcasm on myself. Although, I have always considered myself to have a few loose screws in my head. I started to suspect when I saw a picture of Alex Evans and told my best friend (At the time), Hinamori, that he was hot. After a small amount of freaking out over my gayness, she agreed. I mean, it's not like she was a homophobe, but apparently, according to her and Izuru, I never 'Showed any signs of liking the same sex.' Whatever.
I guess I should probably go eat lunch with the others soon or they'll all come looking for me. I walked out of the bathroom slowly and cautiously looked around. No point in getting stopped by someone I really didn't want to talk to, like-
"Abarai."
"Kuchiki."
"Are you on your way to the lunch room?"
"Of course."
"Well then, I think you should go."
"And why is that?"
"Because you are blocking my entrance to the bathroom."
Damn! He got me! I hate that Byakuya bastard. If he wasn't Rukia's adoptive brother and idol, I would have beaten him up long ago. He was also hot, another mark in his favor. I might've even considered dating him if it weren't for his Gods cursed attitude!
I moved out of the way so that he could walk in but I made sure that there was barely enough room to pass through, so he would have to squeeze in. He did so with a glare.
"Abarai."
"Yes Kuchiki?"
"You are a bastard."
I smirked. "Oh, I know." I said calmly and walked away.
Ichigo's P.O.V
Where's Renji? He said he was just going to the bathroom, really it shouldn't take- Oh, never mind, here he comes. "Renji!" Hinamori called from her perch on one of the highest branches of the tree we were currently sitting under. I guess she was average looking. If you like really short people. She had an interesting personality though, almost completely opposite that of her boyfriend Toshiro. He was a young genius with white hair and silvery- purple eyes. Very manly.
"What took you so long?" Asked Renji's other friend, Izuru. Now him and his boyfriend where what I would call hot. Izuru had his blonde hair cut so that it hung over his face and covered one of his eyes, which were blue. And Gin, who was always smiling, had pretty silver hair that fell across his face and would probably get in his eyes if he ever opened them. Though neither were my type. I like guys with long hair.
I mean, if I liked guys at all that is. 'Cause I don't. I like girls. Like Rukia. I turned to look at her, she was smiling and waving Renji over, but I could see the mischief in her eyes. She's planning something. "Renji." She said, her voice carefully neutral.
"Yes?" He asked, his face and voice wary. He could tell something was up. "Well, we, meaning Hinamori, Toshiro, Izuru, Gin, Ichigo and I, are all going to the beach tomorrow," She started and he frowned. I myself was surprised, and judging by the looks on the others faces, they were too. Rukia had conveniently forgotten to mention this trip to the rest of us. "You can come," Renji smiled and Rukia held up a finger, "If you can find a date." Renji's smile faded into a pout, which I will admit was cute. I mean… Never mind. "What?" He asked.
"Well, it's a couples thing." Rukia said, the triumph plain in her voice. "If you can find a date, then you can come." By now Renji was glaring. "How am I supposed to find a date before tomorrow!? Not to mention that I'm gay and I don't know any other gay guys at this fucking school!" He half yelled, half whispered it to Rukia. I already knew he was gay, we all did, but it seemed like he didn't want the whole school to know.
"Oh come on Renji, we all know that over half the male population at this school is gay. It must be something in the air." Hinamori said smugly, apparently she accepted this 'Cruelty to Renji' thing wholeheartedly. "And, for a guy with long hair, you're pretty hot. It really shouldn't be that hard to get a date."
Man, these people are mean. Is this how it usually works with this group? I have to wonder though, how does Renji feel about all this…?
Renji's P.O.V
Oh, God damn those bastards! How could they!? What's wrong with them. I mean seriously, isn't it pretty obvious that I don't want to be in a relationship!? I don't even like any of the guys at this school! Well, except Ichigo. I like him. A lot. But anyone else can go to hell! I got up to storm away, Rukia's smirking face burned in my mind.
From the looks on the others faces Rukia 'forgotten' to mention the trip to the beach. How convenient. But they just went along with it anyways. Damn them. Damn them to hell. I walked away, sulking, and almost bumped right into Byakuya. "Fuck off!" I yelled at him, watching with satisfaction as his eyes widened in shock and….Hurt? Whatever. I walked around him and towards the door. Then I was struck with a sudden idea. I turned around and started to follow him towards were he was going to sit, and caught up to him right in front of our tree. Perfect. "Hey, Byakuya," I called. He turned to look at me, his face cold. Rukia and the others were watching with confused expressions, they had no idea what was going to happen.
"Do you want to go to the beach with me tomorrow?"