AN: I was watching Degrassi reruns today and I thought Ellie and Jimmy would be a cute couple so :)
I don't own Degrassi. Also the quotes in italics are taken directly from the show.
I took a deep breath, psyching myself up for what I was about to do. It's just Ellie I told myself. Yeah, Ellie who's been your friend since forever. Damnit I was psyching myself out instead of up. Is it too late to back out? Nope you're standing right in front of her. Sorry, sitiing I reminded myself with a measured dose of self loathing.
"Ellie, hi." Genius opening.
"What's up?"
"You look great. I mean you always look great, but tonight you look great." I groaned internally at my stupidity.
"Oh hey I was just wondering, how do I look? Could it maybe be great?" she replied sarcastically.
I laughed nervously. "Um look you've become one of my best friends and you've opened my eyes to a lot of things. I wanted to know if maybe we could talk about taking it to the next level." She stared at me blankly, completely taken aback. Saving us both the embarrassment of her rejection I spoke back up.
"But you don't.."
"Jimmy.." she started.
"No, I get it. I mean why would you wanna go on a date with someone who can't even pick you up for it." I said laughing bitterly at my own self deprecating humor.
The uncomfortable expression on her face quickly changed to one of anger.
"You know what I'm fucking sick of the Jimmy pity party! You think everything that's wrong with your life is because of that chair. Did you ever think that maybe some of the blame falls on the guy sitting in the chair?"
I opened my mouth to retort, but she kept going.
"No, it's my turn to talk now. You interrupted me before I could even say that I do want to have that talk. You just - fuck you surprised me. I mean I've had feelings for you for forever, but I never thought you would look at me like that. And so excuse me if I was caught off guard. But I guess you can't think too highly of me, if you seriously think I would reject you because you're in a wheelchair. If that's what you think then you don't even know me at all and maybe I don't know you at all."
She inhaled quickly, winded from her long rant and I sat there in shock.
"How long is forever?"
"What?" she asked, clearly not expecting that response.
"You said you've had feelings for me for forever. How long is that exactly?" I questioned.
"What does that matter?" she replied evasively. "Were you even listening to the rest of what I said Jimmy?"
"Of course, I always listen to you Ell. Look, what I said doesn't mean I don't have an extremely high opinion of you, because I do. Probably more than anyone I know. What I said is because of my own stupid issues. And yes it's something I have to work on, but I hope you won't hold it against me. Because I really like you Ellie, you've always been there for me. I feel like you get me more than anybody else." I said honestly meaning every word.
"I really like you too Jimmy. I'm so glad you finally saw me."
"I guess I had to lose my motor skills to improve my eyesight." I joked.
She shook her head, laughing despite herself. And then she leaned over and pressed her lips to mine, confirming that the real thing was indeed better than any fantasy I'd had over the past year.
She pulled away and said quietly.
"By the way, forever is for as long as I've known you."