Hi Guys! While, as the title suggests, this is going to be a Dotty filled song inspired fic, I jumped on the bandwagon and decided to make this the first song. This is what I would have loved Brian's departure to be and how it played out amongst the team.
Updates are going to be quite scarce as I have exams until mid-June and I don't have any more chapters in reserve but I'm going to try my best for you :)
It's been a long day without you my friend
And I'll tell you all about it when I see you again
We've come a long way from where we began
Oh, I'll tell you all about it when I see you again
See You Again – Wiz Khalifa feat. Charlie Pugh
Brian padded into the kitchen and ran a hand over his head and through his hair. Heading over to the fridge, he yanked open the door, probably more violently than he should have, and took out a bottle of water, unscrewing the lid and guzzling down the chilled liquid. He cast a quick look up to the ceiling and released an internal sigh of relief as he realised his son had managed to sleep through his and Mia's argument. It hadn't been a loud argument filled with shouting and slamming doors. Instead, it had been conducted in harsh whispers, alongside snide remarks and a parting glare as Brian had turned and left the room.
Brian collapsed into a chair and rested his head in his hands, taking deep breaths as he kept revisiting the argument. He had tried to be understanding and see where Mia was coming from but he could not. In his eyes, she was being unreasonable, asking so much for so little in return. He had changed so much of his life already and they were finally back together as a family. He couldn't understand why she was trying to tear it apart. She wanted to uproot her family and move them almost six thousand miles across the sea. Why would she do that?
Upstairs, Mia was just as silent as Brian. Not after Brian had left, she had let herself fall onto her bed, tired of trying to stand for much longer. Tears gathered like moths around a light in her eyes and she let them fall; for a missed opportunity and her angry husband who was downstairs. Pulling a pillow from above her head, Mia curled around it, her bump not yet big enough to make an impression. She only wanted what was best for her family. She knew that it would be a big change and an even bigger adjustment but she believed it would be worth it in the end.
Mia stood at the doorway and crossed her arms as she raised her eyebrows. Jack was meant to be in bed yet there he was, sprawled across the floor as he zoomed a toy car along the edge of his play mat. From an outsider's view he looked adorable, his nose screwed up as he made quiet sound effects to match the car. Yet from the view of his mother, it was a different story.
"Jack," Mia spoke in a warning tone.
Jack turned to look at his mother and he gave her a mischievous smile. "Yes, mummy?"
"When I left before where did I leave you?"
"In my bed."
"So where do you think you should be now?"
"On the floor?" Jack questioned innocently. He was now sitting up and running the car up and down his legs.
Mia bit the insides of her cheeks to stop herself from laughing. He looked exactly like his father, his face quizzical as he lost attention in his mother and turned back to his car. Yet his attitude was all her.
"Nice try, mister, but I don't think so. Let's get you back in bed," Mia said as she bent down to put his car back in his toy box and lead Jack to bed.
"No, my car," Jack said possessively, holding the toy to his chest and letting his bottom lip slip from his pursed look.
"Jack, give mummy the car please."
"No."
"Jack..."
"No."
"Right, okay. You've got five seconds to give me the toy and get yourself into bed or you'll be in big trouble tomorrow."
As Mia counted down, she could already see where the situation was leading. Jack, just like everyone else in his family, was stubborn; and he was not going to be intimidated into doing something he did not want to do. So instead he settled for giving Mia a quick look before getting back to his car and resuming his original position across the floor, oblivious to the frustration that was building up inside his mother.
"Jack, you've now lost your trip to the park tomorrow and your toys for the rest of your week. Let's move it."
As Mia disciplined Jack. Brian walked into the room and leaned against the doorframe. He pushed himself forward and moved his wife to the side before scooping his son up in his arms and laying him on his bed. Brian then held out his hand expectantly and waited until Jack dropped the toy car into it, moving to place it in the toy box before fastening the lid closed.
"Next time, you listen to mummy. Now get to sleep," Brian told Jack, leaning forward to press a kiss to his forehead before ruffling his hair and pulling Mia out the door.
"Thank you," Mia sighed as they entered their bedroom.
"No problem," Brian replied, coming behind her and letting his thumb slowly stroking her lower stomach as she let her head drop onto his shoulder. "I can't believe you're giving me another baby."
"Well you better start to. How do you feel about having a vacation?"
"Vacation? You've only just got back."
"I know but that was just me and Jack, I want to go somewhere as a family; without the drama that normally comes with leaving the country."
"I like that. Where do you want to go?"
"I'd like to go back to Spain, we left some pretty good friends there and I would love Jack to meet them; show him some of his past."
Brian nodded in approval and moved to kiss Mia's neck. She was right, with the recent drama with Deckard, it had been a long time since they had had time together as a family that did not revolve around cars or Jack's school. While Mia was more than happy to play housewife and be a mother to Jack, Brian felt that she deserved some time to appreciate herself, instead of just paying attention to those around her.
"Maybe in the summer? When Jack finishes school and you're feeling a bit less nauseous?"
"I'll have a look tomorrow at some flights. How amazing would it be to live in Spain permanently?"
"You're kidding right?"
"No, let's just say hypothetically."
"I think it'd be awful. All the gang are here, Dom, Letty, Rome and Tej. We've spent so long apart in recent years and with us just getting Letty back and getting the house rebuilt, why would we move to Spain. What's there for us apart from a couple of friends? It's even like they outweigh the ones we have here either."
"You wouldn't want to live in Spain then?" Mia asked for confirmation, her voice taking on a disappointed tone.
"No, I think it would be horrible, I think that..." Brian trailed off, silence filling the room as he felt Mia freeze in his arm. "Babe, what's wrong?"
"Nothing's wrong," Mia tried to play, leaning her head back to kiss Brian on the cheek.
"Don't lie to me, I know you too well."
"Okay. When we was in Spain, I was talking to one of the women and she mentioned a hospital being built. We started chatting about me doing my degree and how I had worked at the hospital here for a few years and she said that she would love to have me work at the hospital if all my details worked out. I told her to ring me when the hospital was near completion and she rang me earlier."
"A hospital? In Spain? What's wrong with the hospital here?"
"Nothing's wrong with it but I would love to do it. You know how I feel about it. I've loved it forever."
"But you want to move to Spain," Brian asserted. "You want to uproot our entire family for a job that you could damn well have here. I will not let you do that."
"This is one thing that I want, one thing. And you won't even let me have that," Mia whispered harshly, still aware of her sleeping child a few doors down.
"I have done everything for you. I gave up my place in the LAPD because I love you and I wanted to help you by helping Dom. I gave up my place in the FBI to get Dom out of prison because you wanted to. I gave up my whole lifestyle so you could have your happily family. Fuck, I even drove a minivan," Brian panted, his low whispers taking more breath from his lungs than he had expected. "I would do that over and over again for you – and for our family – but do not, do not, make it seem like you're the only one that made sacrifices."
"I want this, Brian. I don't think anyone will ever be able to comprehend how much this means to me. I love our family and I love you but I love nursing as well. The satisfying feeling of keeping someone alive and making their life better."
"I'm not doing this," Brian told Mia before turning and walking out of the room.
Mia trekked down the stairs the next morning and sighed softly at the sight of Brian face down on the kitchen table. His mouth was open slightly, light snores filling the room and Mia could not help by smile at her husband. He looked adorable, small tufts of hair sticking up and she instinctively reached out to smooth them.
"Mi?" Brian questioned, her actions awakening him from his slumber.
"Yeah, it's just me. I'm so sorry about last night."
Brian ignored her apology and let his head drop back into the crook of his arm and shut his eyes. He did not want to argue anymore.
"I know you don't want to go, I understand that. So if you don't want to go, we won't go."
"Really?" Brian asked, Mia's words eliciting an interest in what she was saying.
"Until you said it last night, I never really understood how much you had done for me and my idea of family," Mia said as she slid into the chair opposite him. She reached forward and clasped his hand in her own. "It's not fair to take you away from that. I'll ring Diana tonight and let her know."
"Thank you." Brian leaned over and brought her into a kiss, massaging her lips with his own.
Weeks passed and there was no mention of the topic. While all the team living together reminded them of old times and carried the constant reminder of what they had done together, their growing family was struggling to fit inside one house. After many small complaints from various members of the household, Roman and Tej had decided to move out and find a bachelor pad of their own. After finding a penthouse suite a short drive away, the team had dedicated a few days to moving out the mountain of stuff they had built up in a few short years.
"What even is this crap?" Letty questioned, carrying a box in her arms.
"You be careful with that, that's priceless," Roman interjected.
"To what? A badger?" Dom laughed, Jack joining in from the sidelines as Mia held him in her arms and watched the boys and Letty load the moving truck.
"Ha ha," Roman said flatly. "You're so funny."
"I know," Dom agreed.
The team finished packing up Roman and Tej's stuff and collapsed at the dining room table where Mia served them a beef casserole. They exchanged a light chatter while in between discussing how they were going to arrange various items and where they were going to put the leftovers. Once they had finished, they cleared away their plates and retired for the night. In their bedroom, Brian and Mia got ready for bed before climbing in and wrapping themselves in each other's arms.
"I found the letter from the hospital still offering the job earlier," Brian admitted. "I didn't want to tell you I'd found it but I didn't want to keep it from you."
"Is that a subtle dig?" Mia accused, turning in Brian's arms to face him.
"No. Not at all. Why didn't you tell me?"
"I didn't want to start everything all over again. It was nice to know how they are getting on but I have no interest in going; don't worry."
"I think we should go," Brian blurted out.
"You think we should go to Spain?"
"I think we should give it a go. I was thinking about what was said that night and I realised how much you gave up to. The chance of a normal life, a normal family, a life with no danger. You gave that up so I think the best I can do is give it a go."
"I don't want you to say this out of guilt. I want you to need this as much as I do."
"I do."
They waited for a week before gathering the team after a Sunday barbeque. Mia perched herself in Brian's lap at the head of the table while the others sat around them, Dom and Letty also sharing a chair. Mia took a deep breath before leaning forward and resting her elbows on the table.
"Okay, so I don't want you to hate us but..."
"But what, Mi?"
"We're moving to Spain."
"I'm sorry what?" Dom questioned, tightening his arm around Letty's waist as he leaned forward in disbelief. "You're moving to Spain?"
"Yeah."
"I hate to break it to you but April Fools was a while back."
"She's serious, Dom," Brian said, sparing a regretful look for him. "There's a job at a hospital there, a really good one. We've spoken about it numerous times and to be honest I was against it to start with but I'm not now. We have a chance at a normal life. I want to try."
"What's wrong with our life?" Dom asked defensively. Wrapping a hand round his wrist, Letty took feel his pulse quickening.
"It's not like I don't love this life but it's what I've always wanted. You paid for my medical school, encouraged me every step of the way and now I have a chance to put it to good use. Please don't be mad," Mia begged.
"I just need a moment."
Dom lifted Letty off his lap and placed her back in the seat before leaving the kitchen and heading outside, grabbing a few Coronas on the way. Letty smiled gently at Mia before telling her to give him a minute and she would go out to him. Mia fell back into Brian's chest and he rubbed her arm. It was Dom's reaction that they had been scared about. He loved his family and Jack and they knew taking it away from him would hurt. But it was their family primarily, and they needed to do what was in their best interests. Besides, they could visit and they would return often.
"How far into your plans are you?" Letty asked.
"I've called them and told them that I'm pregnant and they said that's fine. To start with it'll be getting used to the hospital and I'll have the opportunity to do a few months work before maternity leave. They said they like me because English is my first language and it'll be easier on any English speaking if I translate. I'm really sorry, Letty."
"You have nothing to be sorry about. You're Dom's little sister, of course he's going to be upset but he'll get over it. He wants the best for you, he always has."
"I know but I can't help thinking I betrayed him."
"Trust me, you haven't. I'll speak to him. He'll understand," Letty said, standing from her seat and heading outside to talk to Dom.
"Hi," Dom whispered as he saw her walking over.
"Hey. How you doing?"
"As expected."
Dom pulled Letty into his lap and buried his face in her neck. Letty turned until she straddled him and caressed the back of his neck. He tightened his grip around her, almost as if he was afraid that if he let her go, she would follow Mia and Brian to Spain. Letty whispered comforting words in his ear as they sat there is silence, embracing each other and their presence.
"You've got to let her fly," Letty told him softly.
"I know, I just don't want to."
"You never did do well with separation."
"I can't keep an eye on her when she's on the other side of the world."
"You don't need to, she has Brian for that now. You need to let her go."
"She'll go, you know that. I've never been able to stop her doing anything. Every time she wanted to go somewhere and I said no you would team up against me. She's got her own mind and she's good at using it. Doesn't mean I have to agree with it though."
"She's worried about you. You should go and see her."
"Later, I just want to spend time with you. My favourite girl."
"When Mia's gone we should go on vacation. Just the two of us. We can get a villa by the beach, no one else to disturb us..." Letty trailed off suggestively. Pulling back to look at Dom, she saw a familiar twinkle in his eyes and kissed him passionately. "Go speak to your sister."
Mia played with Jack on the beach as the team sat around them. They had finalised their plans for Spain and were just waiting to fly out. A house had been viewed online and Brian had flown out with Dom to agree on a price while taking the opportunity to visit the venue of the Spanish Grand Prix. While Dom and Brian were gone, Mia and Letty had worked on getting the house ready from the States. At this present moment, Brian was sat next to Letty and were involved in light conversation.
"You know I'm still sorry," he started.
"For what?"
"Everything that happened."
"You don't need to be sorry. I've got my memory back, me and Dom are fine and everything is how it should be. As a family."
"You don't want us to leave, do you?" Brian questioned. He could tell by her body language that she did not want them to go. He was a cop after all. He could understand her though, she had just gotten fully back. Her memory, her family. And now it was going again.
"Of course I don't, nobody wants you to leave. But this is all Mia has ever dreamed of and it's time for her to live that. I won't take that opportunity away from her. Just look after her, yeah?"
"I always do. We'll send photos and call every day."
"I hope so."
"We'd never forget about you, you know that."
Brian pulled Letty in for a hug and she returned it fully. They sat in silence before Dom's call gained Letty's attention and she moved to go over to him. Brian tugged on an end of her hair and she turned sharply to glare at him.
"Dom did that once when we were younger. He got a black eye, you'll end up with one if you're not careful."
"Alright," Brian laughed. "I figured I'd do goodbyes now. Mia will do them when we leave properly. Take care, Letty."
"You too, Brian. You too."
As Letty left, Roman and Tej filled her space. With Brian, they conversed about anything and everything; from years ago to the latest sports game and all the bits in between. They said their goodbyes and Brian went off to play with Mia and Jack. The team sat on the rocks and watched as Brian picked Jack up and threw him in the air, Roman jabbering on in the background.
"Close your mouth for two seconds," Tej said, stopping Roman's analogy of steaks. "Just open your eyes, man."
"Beautiful," Roman observed, watching father and son bond on the soft sands of California.
"That's where he belongs," Letty added.
"Home," Dom summarised. "Where he's always belonged."
"Things are gonna be different now," Roman said, his face taking on a rare, upsetting expression as the realisation that one of his best mates was moving away settled in. As they fell into silence, Dom stood up and turned away, moving to head up towards his car.
"You aren't going to say goodbye?"
"It's never goodbye."
Dom turned and walked away, sliding into his car before pushing on the pedal and riding away from the beach. He reached the road, letting himself be lost in the sunset and the scenery. He realised at this moment that it was not just a sister that he was losing, it was a brother as well. As Dom pulled up at a cross roads, he could see Brian's car pulling up behind him.
"Hey, thought you could leave without saying goodbye?" Brian asked, his signature smile coming across his face.
They both looked ahead, they automatically knew that this would be a race. As they came to a part in the roads they were aware that they would be going in different directions; Dom back home, to Letty, his livelihood and Brian to his new life, along with Mia and Jack, in Spain. But for now Brian had his own path, his own destination and Dom wished him the best of luck.
"It doesn't matter where you are, whether you're a mile away or half way across the world. You'll always be with me. And you'll always be my brother."
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And a very happy birthday to Livvy, I hope you have an amazing day. Also, thank you for betaing for me.
