I don't own Ashes to Ashes

I wrote this over a year ago, hope you like it. I want to quickly say when I wrote it I had never seen LOM. Hope it's ok, excuse the spelling/grammar.

Enjoy….

Alex sat there, looking aimlessly at the glass of white wine that had been sat in front of her for the last half hour.

It had been nearly 3 weeks since that cold December eve when she had said her last goodbye to Gene. The idea of heaven being a pub to most would fill them with joy, but for Alex, what is heaven without someone to share it with. It may well be a pub, but Alex had hardly had a drink or bite to eat in the last few weeks. Her face was pale, her make-up washed off and her hair tied back. "Y'all rite ma'am?" questioned Shaz, interrupting her thoughts.

"Yes I'm fine thanks Shaz, don't you worry about me. You all right?" replied the older woman.

"Not really ma'am, me and Chris had another tiff again. It's all we seem to do these days."

"What was it about?" Questioned Alex although she already knew what the younger woman was going to say. Chris would have said something stupid again as usual . Although the pair fought, Shaz and Chris were perfect for each other. HE had changed so much since they had gotten together. His IQ had most likely doubled; he had become less of a typical 80's masojanistic man and more of a pleasant man. Shaz had become much more layed back and nearly always had a smile on her face.

"What is it always about? He opened his mouth without thinking what was gonna come out."

"Go, sit with him. Let him know he is forgiven, because before you know it, one of you will be gone before you get the chance to tell the other how you feel."

"Like you and the Guv, Ma'am?" Shaz regretted saying it as soon as the words had left her mouth. Alex looked around the pub, attempting to dodge th question. Looking at the rest of the team she saw Ray trying and failing to chat up the girl on the other side of the bar, who was having none of it. This was to the amusement of Sam, Annie and Chris who were in fits of laughter at the table behind. Yet they somehow managed to keep a straight face every time Ray turned around, edging him on and telling him that she was definitely interested. "You miss him don't you ma'am."

"Yeah, yeah I really do."

"That night, 3 weeks ago when we came here, i…I somehow knew that the Guv couldn't come in. But, I honestly thought tht he was going to let you stay with him. God we all knew that he fancied you from the very start, and I suppose I'd never seen him that happy. When they all first came down from Manchester, the guv was so glum. His wife had left him and we all thought that Sam had died. But when you came he changed, he was a better DCI and, well it was asif you were his little project."

Shaz stopped. She looked at Alex, tears were running down her face as she put her head in her hands. Alex had never known that she meant that much to him. Shaz bent down in front of her and began to hug her.

"Cummon Ma'am." Shaz said as she took Alex up to her room. They sat on the sofa, and as they settled Alex's sobs became louder.

*Ashes*

'SLAP' the sound filled the pub as the blonde Ray had been chatting up slapped him. Roars of laughter could be heard from Sam and Chris who were unable to contain their sheer amusement. "You knew! You bloomin' well knew she wasn't interested!"

"We're sorry mate, we 'onestly didn't know" they said before bursting out laughing again.

Annie took the opportunity while no one was watching and went up to Alex's room, grabbing a bottle of wine as she went. She had been watching Shaz and Alex talking and seen how upset the older woman had gotten. She had now known Alex and Shaz long, but since the first day they had met they had gotten on well. As she entered the flat she saw Alex in tears. "How is she?" whispered Annie to Shaz.

"Not good, she misses him like hell."

Alex knew the pair were talking about her but she also knew they cared. Looking at the clock she saw it was half eight and couldn't help but wonder what Gene would be doing. Either in Luigi's propping up the bar or drinking in his office. Either way getting laddered. Into the distance she whispered "I miss you Gene" as a single tear rolled down her cheek.

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