You're Still Here?

A/N this is my second fan fiction. It's quite like my last one as in it's short but that's all. It's just what if during all the madness Aria wrote something in her diary about Alison and how she thinks and feels about Alison's Death. It's written like a letter to Allison.

I almost feel as if I can't move on like you are still here, you have tormented us for what feels like forever. you were my best friend, you seemed perfect and you were so nice to me when you wanted to be. But now all what I see are the lies you told and the secrets you kept. I don't know what to do, You were the one who kept us together, who told us that secrets kept us close and now they are tearing us apart and everything good about ourselves is being smothered by you and our lies and games. The games we never wanted to play but we don't have a choice because of you and our secrets.

But I'm sick of it now I don't want to listen to it anymore, our friends keep telling me that I have to play these sick games and every time my phone rings I feel as though everything will change from just one text, but if I don't play the game that you started I could end up like you... but honestly I don't care anymore, with all of the secrets and lies we've told and kept I'd rather just get all the pain and suffering that I know we will all face once this is over with, if it ever is, I'd rather just get it over with now, Rather than play this sick game.

I still don't believe what people are telling me, that you were missing for a year. a year that I thought it was just one of your games that you were so fond of, I was there when they found you. Just walking past your house when the Ambulance and police were there. I ran all the way up to your house I don't really know why, but it think part of me knew what had happened but I still hope everyday, no one notices how broken I am, how broken we all are after you left but we burry it so deep it almost seems like everything is fine like nothing really happened. I know how hard it was on everyone, how they found you, and I just can't help thinking that it's all my fault, I could have saved you, I should have asked if something was wrong.

We don't know who did it but I know for certain that it's not your brother, everyone thinks I'm so naive to trust him even he thinks I like him but I'm really only trying to look after him because he is your brother and you left when we were all there and we did nothing to stop I. If your brother has anything to do with this, it's more than likely that my brother has something to do with this sickness. It's as obscene as cancer and as vile as death. it has spread through our whole family and friends, it destroys everything in it's wake. You destroyed our lives just like cancer but we destroyed our friendships. We are never going to get out of this mess ever...because it feels like it's only just begun and to find out the whole story we will have to follow in your footsteps all the way tot he end...

A/N Read and Review, Constructive criticism would be greatly appreciated!

Thank you to Notinyourlifetimehoney for reviewing my last story. It really meant so much to me and I see what you mean, It was just something that I wanted to write.

Thank you for reading! :)